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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,471
good riddance hopefully never have to exist ever again life so fucking horrible it be better to never exist in this shitty horrible universe
 
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ContinuousJump

ContinuousJump

'Tis a consummation devoutly to be wish'd.
Jul 6, 2021
80
I have very little experience with psychedelics and I don't believe in the supernatural.

The one time I took a shitload of psilocybin mushrooms, 5 grams, a "voice" that didn't seem to be my own came to me, telling me to remember this when I'm ready to commit suicide...

"It doesn't matter. Don't worry. Just go to sleep."

And along with that came a feeling of absolute certainty that that was the truth.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
I have very little experience with psychedelics and I don't believe in the supernatural.

The one time I took a shitload of psilocybin mushrooms, 5 grams, a "voice" that didn't seem to be my own came to me, telling me to remember this when I'm ready to commit suicide...

"It doesn't matter. Don't worry. Just go to sleep."

And along with that came a feeling of absolute certainty that that was the truth.
That is comforting…
 
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erdbeeren

erdbeeren

Student
Oct 13, 2021
100
"it'll all be over in a second"

also how I'll be conscious one second and then "lights out" the next
 
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canna2

Student
Nov 20, 2021
146
I have very little experience with psychedelics and I don't believe in the supernatural.

The one time I took a shitload of psilocybin mushrooms, 5 grams, a "voice" that didn't seem to be my own came to me, telling me to remember this when I'm ready to commit suicide...

"It doesn't matter. Don't worry. Just go to sleep."

And along with that came a feeling of absolute certainty that that was the truth.
The brain is really good at tricking you.
 
justsayin

justsayin

Member
Jan 30, 2021
493
Here goes nothing.
 
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Rockman

Rockman

Experienced
Feb 9, 2020
210
I would imagine playing frisbee with my dog.
 
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needingpeace24

needingpeace24

Member
Oct 19, 2021
52
Probably nothing profound. Just tormented by the sound of her voice as always.
 
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Someone123

Illuminated
Oct 19, 2021
3,875
I've been through all of my last thoughts, regrets about things that could have been done differently. Last thoughts, for me, need to be focused on the method and possibly a set of negative memories/ disappointments if needed to overcome SI- I'll go over and over these as needed to overcome SI.
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,373
Since I'm gonna take SN I'd probably just be thinking about the bad taste or whatever is happening to my body in the moments right before I clock out. Hopefully this will be enough to ward off any last minute Hail Mary epiphanies that could wreck my plans and save me.
 
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aslank98

aslank98

Member
Nov 12, 2021
48
It's hard for me to predict what my thoughts will be as I'm dying in a hotel room, Perhaps a mixture of curiosity and relief that I don't have to exist in this world anymore. I think I'll reflect on my life and all the things I did and didn't do, maybe I'll be thinking that I could keep existing for the sake of those small moments of pleasure/happiness that I rarely feel nowadays. Most likely it will be fear from what is happening to me as my body reacts to the SN. I plan to keep my mind somewhat distracted by playing music that I like and watching something on my tablet.
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,788
Maybe some mindfulness, noting the sensations of dying.
 
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TriggerHappy

TriggerHappy

In the kingdom of th blind; the one-eyed are kings
Jan 24, 2021
1,297
(to myself) :: man; what a rush! I wander how many of the fuckers I've taken with me...?
(sarcastically; but meaningfully) :: oh Fuck, i really didn't mean to... I'm so so sorry... i just didn't think there'd be so much rubble... It was an ugly hotel anyway...
The show must go on...
 
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Bedrock48

Bedrock48

Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
Feb 1, 2021
540
I still remember some of my 'last words' from previous attempts

Attempt 1: Right after was "Wow, can't believe I just did that" and later on talking to a doc "I feel strange. Never felt anything like this" then boom I was out. Woke up hours later on a random hospital ward
Attempt 2: "Hey, I'll be coming up there in a few hours" (talking to myself/heaven ig)

Second one was pleasant
 
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TheEndTimes

TheEndTimes

A gay 👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨
Aug 23, 2021
68
Breathe. Breathe. Breathe...
 
Rayzieka

Rayzieka

Not Really Here
Apr 28, 2021
637
I would probably just feel sorry for anyone who has to deal with the aftermath.
But I guess I'd be hoping there's no afterlife.
 
LeGuitarist

LeGuitarist

Eternally Lost
Mar 19, 2021
108
The first couple of times I attempted I freaked out, but now I'm just completely calm at the idea of death.
 
TheEndTimes

TheEndTimes

A gay 👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨
Aug 23, 2021
68
(to myself) :: man; what a rush! I wander how many of the fuckers I've taken with me...?
(sarcastically; but meaningfully) :: oh Fuck, i really didn't mean to... I'm so so sorry... i just didn't think there'd be so much rubble... It was an ugly hotel anyway...
The show must go on...
Do you honestly want to take out other people when you go? That would surprise me because of how kind you've been to so many here 🧐
 
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nerve

nerve

fat cringey shut-in
Jun 19, 2019
1,013
"Don't throw up."
 
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wait-for-the-bus

Member
Dec 14, 2021
69
What would my last thoughts be?

"I just killed myself"

It's the very last thoughts I had when I passed out when I attempted to hang myself when I was teenager. Had the towel had held it would have been my last thoughts.
 
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