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lawlietsph

lawlietsph

can we be done here
May 6, 2023
250
Hopefully nothing, but food 🥺
 
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lost_one

lost_one

Once
Nov 3, 2024
88
I think I will miss my dogs and my plants, reading, and watching anime/series. I will miss walking in the woods, looking at the night sky, walking around town, I guess I will miss playing videogames. Writing although I was never good at it.
 
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LukaParrot

LukaParrot

Student
Dec 18, 2024
158
I would miss my mother.

She help me a lot, a really strong woman that I'm grateful to have as a mother.

The rest, doesnt matter anymore, food, games, dont feel more connected to this, doesnt makes sense to me now.
 
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InboxRain292

InboxRain292

Member
May 5, 2024
17
I will miss a lot of things: I have a "desire" to develop game apps (or apps in general) and learn 3D modeling, and I'd miss playing this MOBA game. I'll also miss roller blading and my desire to ice skate. And I'll miss my hobby of photography, and trying all the good foods around the world. I'll also miss singing my ass off to karoke songs when no one is around. ... There's so much stuff I'll miss :( but I guess they're not "that important" compared to my reasons for ctb.
 
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tirednwired

in the end everybody loses
Oct 28, 2024
41
My little sister, love her so much
 
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iamrealandyouarenot

iamrealandyouarenot

Sad theatre adult
Jan 14, 2025
19
My family, friends and job. I just hurt so much. I know it's selfish, but I don't think I can be broken like this anymore.
 
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danny10

danny10

Banned
Jan 8, 2025
264
I would miss my daughter. I keep on living because of her, even though I suffer each day. I have suicidal thoughts constantly but I push through because of my daughter. I feel ashamed that I wanna CTB. I think I don't have the right to CTB with a little cute daughter. I feel stuck.
 
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Blueberry Panic

Blueberry Panic

The Angel of Death
Jan 5, 2025
431
Not to be the smart ass but you technically wouldn't anything because you'd be dead .
 
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mango000

mango000

wants to sleep forever
Nov 12, 2024
59
I would miss my daughter. I keep on living because of her, even though I suffer each day. I have suicidal thoughts constantly but I push through because of my daughter. I feel ashamed that I wanna CTB. I think I don't have the right to CTB with a little cute daughter. I feel stuck.
i cant even begin to imagine how hard that must be. im sorry that youre suffering so much <3
 
resurgence

resurgence

(┬┬﹏┬┬)
Jan 17, 2025
64
video games, benzodiazepines, two nic vape flavors, and my cat. that cat loves me so much i cannot do it while shes here i cant be another person leaving her !!
but yeah, so like nothing really real there besides my cat who im bonded with lol
 
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HenryHenriksen_6E

HenryHenriksen_6E

Member
Oct 19, 2024
89
My pets and some people. My animation and writing projects are also rather dear to me, and I've put a ton of work into them, so it kinda feels like a waste. I still like doing them, and I still think of their futures, but they'll die with me, which is a shame, but eh cant have everything. What saddens me the most is that things I've loved have turned into a means of survival, not a means of enjoyment. I don't want those things to be turned into something just meant to keep me alive.
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,084
my baby nephew growing up
 
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yousaidimsweet

yousaidimsweet

your star student
Nov 30, 2024
70
don't have any plans to ctb, but i would probably miss seeing my friends grow old and miss my weekly dinner dates with my best friend. oh and listening to music lol
 
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dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
552
My dog.
 
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idelttoilfsadness21

I need a moment right now
Jan 6, 2025
650
Nothing… I'll remember all in a better world that isn't this one
 
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CogitoMori

I won't be on as much as usual. Less alone time
Oct 21, 2024
407
Just people honestly, but I know there are more benefits and fewer liabilities for them if I'm not in the equation.
 
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WatchmeBurn

Student
Apr 26, 2023
107
In the literal sense, nothing, as I'd be dead and whatever chemistry fuels my consciousness would cease to be.

But, to answer the question in the way it's meant, I would miss my beloved partner, the light of my world, above all else. I would miss reading and learning. I would miss my family.

Nothing else really. Not got any friends I see in person other than my partner.
 
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happynuclearwinter

happynuclearwinter

Hand me my shovel, I'm going in
Oct 10, 2023
32
My pet cat... I don't have anyone else to hold me on.
 
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Promised Heaven

Promised Heaven

Eternally atoning
Feb 1, 2024
675
Arcade.

Not just videogames, but the culture of people (employees and players) there are absolutely kind. Giving advice, recognizing me, helping me, it's pretty stupid but they were all there to have fun and cared about others. I felt like a person there.

I don't get that kind of love and appreciation at home or work. Often from my friends as well, but I don't see them very often since they're either working or in university.

I guess what I'm saying is I'll miss the little kindness and compassion I've ever gotten from strangers, because if I got that more often in real life, I'll almost definitely consider living.
 
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003

003

One step closer
Aug 22, 2024
62
Honestly some stuff. Working out, reading, listening to music. Video games too. Watching movies late at night and going on walks.
 
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Cypress

Cypress

Member
Jan 18, 2025
10
for me immersing myself into fictional worlds helps me get through the day like nothing else. once i ctb and wont be able to watch my favorite shows anymore
So true. That's the only thing kept me alive for the last 3 years, and now tho I've already prepared everything and am determined to CTB tonight, I still feel sad that I couldn't wait until the show I love fully releases.
 
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human909

human909

Banned
Dec 30, 2024
594
nothing to be honest, i don't think i will be missing anything except one person.
 
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ThatStateOfMind

Enlightened
Nov 13, 2021
1,482
My girlfriend and my mother. I'm not completely miserable living currently. So if I ever CTB and miss anything, it's gonna be them. If trivial things also count, GTA 6 and season 3 of Squid Game.
 
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oneeyed

Arcanist
Oct 11, 2022
402
A lot of gamers here. I'll also miss gaming, working with my hands on personal projects, few of my closest family members, and of course my doggo. Maybe miss a few countries I'd visit.
 
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sukiduki

Student
Mar 24, 2024
142
just the good silly times with my friends. its not often because we all live our own lives and our busy, but the rare occassions we can come back and connect. i'll miss
 
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ThatStateOfMind

Enlightened
Nov 13, 2021
1,482
A lot of gamers here. I'll also miss gaming, working with my hands on personal projects, few of my closest family members, and of course my doggo. Maybe miss a few countries I'd visit.
Yours reminded me, how could I also forget my lovely cat! I would miss her too!
 
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mango000

mango000

wants to sleep forever
Nov 12, 2024
59
So true. That's the only thing kept me alive for the last 3 years, and now tho I've already prepared everything and am determined to CTB tonight, I still feel sad that I couldn't wait until the show I love fully releases.
i hope you find peace :heart: feel free to message me if theres anything you wanna talk about while youre still here
 
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Agent_PS

Member
Jan 19, 2025
20
when (and if) I reach that point then it means I won't really have anything left that I truly enjoy, I constantly look for something to help me escape but every single time I question my feelings and their genuinity. I believe I won't miss much except maybe some music and the memories I have made with my close ones
 
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