I would use any money i can get to help me achieve my only rational goal which is suicide asap. What i want is non-existence. What can be better than non-existence? to have no problems , no responsibilities , no chance of extreme pain, zero suffering, no chance of anything bad happening not having to do anything ever again and i'm just getting started on the benefits of non-existence forever. no unbearable pain , no getting old ,no worries no stress , no chance of extreme suffering. to me non-existence is the best thing by a trillion times better than anything