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Doom

Doom

Student
Nov 21, 2022
108
a different body (beautiful and healthy), with genes that are totally different and I don't want to have any memory related to my family, to avoid any kind of connection with them. Plus a lot of money and an iq of at least 160
 
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random_user

Human existence is a scam.
Jun 17, 2022
83
All the bad memories and unfixable emotional scars that some people have caused me would have to be erased and replaced by good memories and a proper social circle.
Also a completely different family constellation.

Both are either impossible or very unlikely.
 
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dramatizelist

dramatizelist

Member
Jul 3, 2022
18
Being more attractive and healthy probably

I talk to plenty of people but no one ever finds me worth much investment
 
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No longer suicidal😁

Finally happy again
Nov 23, 2022
52
Nothing. I am aware that fixing my circumstances will make things easier on me. However, I find life and humanity in general to be disgusting and painful to deal with. I guess the answer then is a universe with different rules, ones that make us less miserable.
 
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Wannabehappy

Wannabehappy

Member
Nov 29, 2022
39
Memory wipe. a complete reset, I wake up in the hospital and I don't remember anything from my previous life. maybe then I wouldn't see all the mistakes.
 
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jdog2498

jdog2498

Member
Dec 8, 2022
60
My therapist asked me this question from a worksheet and my answer was meds that would take away my suicidal thoughts. What would stop you from being suicidal?
Nothing
 
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releasespieces

releasespieces

Poles are shifting, death is looming
Jun 26, 2022
286
Ever since I got on disability I feel less inclined to end it all. There are times I think I should, but there is really nothing pressing me to do it. I have little to no stress, sure the quality of my life is poor but not having to worry about jumping garbage jobs while never making ends meet makes life far more tolerable. I'm depressed, but not that depressed at the moment. I pretty much plan on staying on disability till I grow old and croak.
 
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Coal54321

Member
Jun 29, 2022
69
Having my girlfriend love me again and knowing that I have a future with her. Just not possible.
 
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Sourdough

I seek peace above all else. I hope to find it
Sep 3, 2022
82
Having my memory and cognition back. I want to watch movies and read again
 
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milkandcoffee

milkandcoffee

Member
Aug 8, 2022
35
Maybe having my brain rewired. It's just trauma all the way down. Started some new meds this year and though I feel way better, it's really just brought my core negative beliefs and suicidality into clearer focus.
 
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IwanttodieASAP

Student
Nov 5, 2022
103
Having her back again. My life back. Joy again
 
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jdog2498

jdog2498

Member
Dec 8, 2022
60
I don't think there is a single source of SI. There are probably a million of reasons why I am suicidal and knowing all of them would be impossible. I think even if these conditions were different, it wouldn't necessary mean I would be happy. I suppose a weaker will to CTB.
 
ShanaRei

ShanaRei

Some day my prince (of death) will come
Nov 17, 2022
55
A good stable home, money, a non-toxic environment and no debilitating mental health issues. Lack of regrets.
 
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fuzzy-clown

Experienced
Nov 27, 2022
227
Money without having to work again. I have severe social anxiety which prevents me from working.
If I could live a comfortable life independently, and had money for hobbies to keep me occupied, I can see myself staying alive for a while.
 
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mineko

Member
Jan 13, 2021
28
Having all my past trauma erased. A complete reset of my brain and life. That should take care of my horrendous insomnia too, which is my main cause of suffering.
 
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heatdeath

Member
Sep 20, 2018
50
Guaranteed stable employment for life.

Having friends.
 
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makethepainstop

makethepainstop

Visionary
Sep 16, 2022
2,029
I don't know about the rest of you but dying would cure my desire to CTB!
Yes, death would work quite nicely, no one who is dead has ever thought about suicide again!
 
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IfyouareamanWinston

IfyouareamanWinston

Student
Aug 22, 2022
170
Financial improvement/mental capability to bootstrap myself out of poverty
 
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doxyquill

doxyquill

SN arrived
Sep 25, 2022
25
A Time Machine.
 
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Teddybear

Teddybear

Specialist
Nov 20, 2021
335
Being allowed to life my life according to *my* plans, hopes and dreams. But that takes money or the time to get it, if you weren't born with it. Both I don't have.

I yearn nothing more than to get out of this country, but I can't even afford to abandoned my dead mom's apartment. :(
 
DarkRose

DarkRose

dark rose
Nov 25, 2022
169
My therapist asked me this question from a worksheet and my answer was meds that would take away my suicidal thoughts. What would stop you from being suicida
being 6ft underground
 
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mondoCruel

Member
Jul 13, 2021
31
An indecent amount of money to live a privileged hermit life. But even with that, I don't think I would ever enjoy my old days. I want to go out on my own terms
 
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Mir88

Member
Oct 5, 2022
21
That is a question that I asked myself many, many times. I am not against the idea of finding the will to live once more, but I just can't think of something, even if a magical wand could grant anything, that could change my mind so much that I wouldn't be willing to go away.

I still continue to ask myself that from time to time, maybe one day I will find an answer even if I don't think that will happen. The only thing I could answer is "being a completely different person, with different ideas and feelings and ideas", but that is equal to the death of what defines "me", so it doesn't answer the question.
 
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Wait-Bus

Student
Sep 20, 2022
145
My therapist asked me this question from a worksheet and my answer was meds that would take away my suicidal thoughts. What would stop you from being suicidal?
What would stop me from being suicidal - probably being dead.
 
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spixs_macaw

waiting for a miracle
Sep 28, 2022
30
as me, this person, and at this point in life, nothing at all. i feel really suffocated that i'm imprisoned as me on this timeline. i'd need to born as someone different with a different everything, and hope they make it through okay.
From the bottom of my heart, I have nothing to add here.
 
Catloaf

Catloaf

disabled • slowly withering away 🍂
Aug 14, 2021
502
Having a good health corresponding to my age group. Would be nice not to feel like I'm with one foot in a grave for a change
 
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KBye

Member
Sep 19, 2022
9
If my physical condition miraculously resolved then I suppose I may have a chance, but realistically nothing.
 
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oneeyed

Arcanist
Oct 11, 2022
415
The world world have to be a utopia like Star Trek Next Gen with all its technologies, liberties, and insanely high quality of life.
 

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