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violetdevil

violetdevil

Student
Oct 15, 2021
180
Something that would make you want to live. For me, I think it would have to be not being mentally ill.
 
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Rainy_days

Rainy_days

Experienced
Dec 21, 2022
256
Not being a shameful embarrassment who can't even look anyone in the eye or navigate the most simple human interactions.
 
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aforestfire

aforestfire

"for truly, i am no longer a part of the world."
Dec 17, 2022
88
Something that would make you want to live. For me, I think it would have to be not being mentally ill.
the same as you. the root of all my problems is my brain and the way it works, if i could turn off the mental illnesses, that alone would make living not so unbearable.
 
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almostoutofhere

almostoutofhere

Living in the past
Dec 27, 2022
163
Being able to go back in time and correcting all my fuck ups
 
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hapiniuier

Member
Jan 1, 2023
73
Money. I'm only happy (or at least not suffering physically and mentally) being a hikikomori NEET, but soon I'll be forced to either work for a living or die. I choose death.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
Enough money to hide from the world and survive - a couple million dollars would do.
 
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onceuponadec

onceuponadec

I am a poor wayfaring stranger
Dec 23, 2022
107
A cure for my illness.
 
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tchaik18401893

tchaik18401893

tchaikovsky
Dec 31, 2022
121
if i knew what my future was. if i actually followed my dreams, i feel like that would be enough motivation to continue living.
 
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Givenuponlife

Member
Jul 6, 2022
81
Time machine to erase specific things lol. Joking. Maybe just being someone who could enjoy life, have decent social skills and actually be able to achieve the goals I set for myself and not be constantly bedridden due to depression.
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,716
Being healthy.
 
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phantomisgone

phantomisgone

Saving my world first before theirs.
Oct 17, 2022
55
What's making me not attempt again is proving other people wrong, including myself. I know I'm a valuable person and I'm now starting to believe in myself.
 
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lionetta12

Just a random person
Aug 5, 2022
1,274
Something that would make you want to live. For me, I think it would have to be not being mentally ill.
If I did not have PTSD and if people in general could be less cruel and more genuinly nice, then maybe I'd consider staying alive.
 
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peacetime

Student
Dec 27, 2022
114
Pretty much the same: to not be mentally ill. Depressed and going through psychosis every now and then, as well as more than likely autistic, though that's not really an illness.
I'm giving it one last chance, got my SN coming my way and I'll store it, and for the next 2 or so years, if I can stay mentally well and life turns around, hey, I'm not against beginning my life properly in my 30s, and I could maybe accept my 20s were absolute shit, just like my childhood before them.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,851
Nothing I can think of--You can't bring back the dead
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,140
Either a financially viable, stable creative job or enough money so that I could financially fail at my creative job.
 
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GasMonkey

GasMonkey

Nitrogen Master Race
May 15, 2022
1,878
Young Gigachad body with optimal health.
 
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Jadzia

Name is from Star Trek. I'm not from E. Europe
May 8, 2019
405
Not being chronically ill
 
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LifeCanBeCruel

Member
Jan 2, 2023
59
All I ask for is absence of unnecessary pain. I am quite simple and easily contented with the bare minimum.
 
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Death is my goal

Death is my goal

pathetic failure
Aug 25, 2022
516
not sure, can't think of anything specific. even if there's something won't make me suicidal I'd still prefer to die.
 
Gaga786

Gaga786

The Odds Are Never In My favour
May 3, 2020
470
Not being such an outcast or not be bullied. That would have caused me to be more confident and have a stronger self esteem. Right now, wherever I go, people use me and try to subdue me, because they can view the self-doubt and self-loathing that I harbour within me. Bullying and household neglect caused me to suffer from chronic depression.
 
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Reallysad

Student
Nov 23, 2022
101
Having my ex and kids back,righting my wrongs and fuck ups
 
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Jarni

Jarni

Love is a toothache in the heart. H.Heine
Dec 12, 2020
383
Being healthy.
And after that.. be with a man I love.

But... Time runs... And even if it was possible... Live in an old body.. I can't imagine it... That would not be the reason of CTB for me, because before my illness I loved life... But... There is a risk that I could be depressed after 50 y o.......
 
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BurningMan

Member
Dec 25, 2022
41
Not sure. Everytime I thonk I get something that will stop me from getting suicidal thoughts, other things pop up that I'm unsatisfied with in life. I think I'm chained to misery and I'm God's idea of making a lesson out of someone.
 
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vultureilse

vultureilse

ready to go, just waiting for the right time!
Dec 31, 2022
144
tbh being born into a different family in a different city would generally prevent most if not all of my mental issues because neglect, abuse, school bullying and deaths of people close to me are the main reasons im so fucked up now

so basically not being mentally ill and traumatized would be helpful

tho currently without magically changing my childhood i dont think anything could make me not suicidal because ill never accept myself or my past
 
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Ghostofthepast

Ghostofthepast

Student
Dec 31, 2022
177
Everything that was stopping me is gone now
 
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braziliansuicidegirl

braziliansuicidegirl

Member
Nov 9, 2020
32
money would give me some good reasons to stay alive, travel a lot and do things I love
 
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Thisisme373

Thisisme373

Arcanist
Feb 16, 2019
418
A big amount of money, like few million, it would solve a lot of my issues
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,336
There isn't anything. Under no circumstances could I ever wish to exist. I despise existing and I view life itself as being the true problem, so only death could ever be the solution for me. I've never wanted to be here at all and I don't see anything desirable or appealing about existing in any way. I hate just being awake and being aware of the fact that I exist. I don't wish to age and be tortured by this human body, and I see existence as being such a burden and is just something that leads to unnecessary suffering being experienced.

In my case, I just prefer the sound of non existence over absolutely everything. I view the existence of life as being something quite disturbing and it's a curse to me having the ability to exist. It comforts me the thought of not being able to suffer in any way, as all that life is, is just a series of endless problems until we just deteriorate and die. It makes sense to me, to wish to escape from all this and there is no value in delaying the inevitable anyway.
 
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az63hk0ox

Member
Dec 13, 2022
6
parents that love me and being mega rich would probably make me want to live also if I found out heaven and hell actually existed I would be wayyyy too scared to ctb
 
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DaatiSimi

DaatiSimi

Member
Nov 24, 2022
65
A time machine with the knowledge I have now.
I swear dear G-d, I would do everything right this time
 
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