Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.
If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.
Donate via cryptocurrency:
Bitcoin (BTC):
Ethereum (ETH):
Monero (XMR):
What would make life worth living to you?
Thread starterpowersurge&achilles
Start date
You are using an out of date browser. It may not display this or other websites correctly. You should upgrade or use an alternative browser.
If I could have peace and tranquility while living. I'd need a cure for something there is no cure nor is it popular enough for medical researchers to actively work towards.
There's quite a few things that would make life worth living even if i was only able to make a single change. Unfortunately they're all impossible because they require me to have been born differently in some way lol. Makes things real frustrating knowing if I had even one less of these problems I may have been able to cope
Going back to Spain and helping out at the animal sanctuary. Went there for a couple of months nearly daily and got a bit attached to some of the birds. Two of the cockatoos bonded with me and one even started singing sometimes to me which she didn't do with any random people or the volunteers there. Just to have the freedom to take care of them given that shitty humans abused or dumped them there it's the only piece of life I have left. In the UK it's just for my dog. Blast Linkin Park and Bring Me The Horizon to have any sort of feeling.
Reactions:
Meditation guide, seekingrelease22 and Already_dead_inside
I think that really accelerated my thinking this year - that I don't really have anyone who is here for me. I strangely feel more of a community here than with people in real life. It would be nice to find friends here. I'm just exhausted on my own and loneliness is horrible
Reactions:
Meditation guide, Cherry Crumpet, sadlyexisting and 1 other person
I think that really accelerated my thinking this year - that I don't really have anyone who is here for me. I strangely feel more of a community here than with people in real life. It would be nice to find friends here. I'm just exhausted on my own and loneliness is horrible
i've just given up on myself. I have good potential, academic, girls say i'm pretty, music opportunities, etc, but my mind is so clouded by insecurity and weakness and regret and thoughts about the past and future, i can't get much rest when I'm constantly in this cycle of thought, some things make it better, but i can't bring myself to be the person i should/can be. I also romanticise the suicide thing, i genuinely think in some ways it would be better to go out on a high, as i keep getting lower lately.
Reactions:
Lookingtoflyfree, Meditation guide, seekingrelease22 and 1 other person
i've just given up on myself. I have good potential, academic, girls say i'm pretty, music opportunities, etc, but my mind is so clouded by insecurity and weakness and regret and thoughts about the past and future, i can't get much rest when I'm constantly in this cycle of thought, some things make it better, but i can't bring myself to be the person i should/can be. I also romanticise the suicide thing, i genuinely think in some ways it would be better to go out on a high, as i keep getting lower lately.
hard to sum up. I was raised around aggression/conflict in the home, directed at me a lot of time, other household things too, which i think gave me a victim mindset, just letting it all happen and not stepping in. My sisters would, even my younger ones, but i would sit in my room and act like it wasn't happening, just building up rage/frustration. They would act like i was strange for not talking to them or being social in my teens, for not just forgetting about the traumatizing things going on the night before like they all would. That freaked me out a bit, very alienating having your family treat you like you're the weird one when they are turning the house upside down every other night.
I've always felt weak, very insecure, even though everyone says I've got so much going for me, i still feel weak/ugly and worthless. Never accepted love, allowed it last year, had love with a girl, best thing ever, then all my insecurities/weakness built up and came to fruition and ended up grinding down the relationship until she broke up with me. I'm not a good enough man, not with her at least, i didn't make her feel safe, i couldn't be relied upon as her boyfriend, wouldn't stick up for her, always just wanting to kill myself and wallowing in self-pity. She was a cunt in a lot of ways, but she gave me chance after chance and stuck by me for a long time.
That's all separate really, i just want out of this all, every day is a battle now that all my insecurities came true in that relationship.
Nothing would make life worth living for me because I hate life itself. It's not fair that I was brought into existence against my will. I never even wanted this life experience anyways
Last edited:
Reactions:
4am, Meditation guide, seekingrelease22 and 1 other person
my brothers, i can't find myself putting them through that pain of losing their sister (now brother. i'm trans. but they don't accept me yet.)
music is a huge thing to me. i can't imagine life without music, it's been with me through everything. i know it might be dumb since i'd be dead, but still.
i love drawing. i love animals. i want to see my dogs again, it's so tempting. i'm so scared.
1. having the ability to leave my body at will via astral projection, and being able to use my consciousness to explore different reality systems.
or
2. having a beautiful crazy girlfriend, so crazy she would kill and do anything for me, like shes literally under a spell, and nothing i do can ever make her leave. i want that craziness, so i can love her back with the same craziness
or
3. having enough money to not have to work or think about work again, and have all the comforts and wants/needs in life that can be bought with money fulfilled. but i can understand that this wont necessarily give me happiness. but id be willing to stay a little longer. but eventually id still want to ctb on my own terms.
Im feeling the same, i only wish that someone would be there for me. Someone i can talk to, someone i can chill with and have fun. Thats the only thing i want rn.
This site uses cookies to help personalise content, tailor your experience and to keep you logged in if you register.
By continuing to use this site, you are consenting to our use of cookies.