What would have to happen for you to be 100% sure that you have to ctb?

[antivita]

It sounds stupid because it's probably irrational, but I have really shit teeth so if one of them chips or falls out completely I think I would CTB as soon as possible. I have plans to do it in the future, but I would just do it immediately in that situation.

 

[Jodes]

It sounds stupid because it's probably irrational, but I have really shit teeth so if one of them chips or falls out completely I think I would CTB as soon as possible. I have plans to do it in the future, but I would just do it immediately in that situation.

Who told you that?? It sounds like you've had some serious bullying assholes focus on you to breaking point. I hope you'll reconsider for a while, you shouldn't hate yourself like this, but I have been bullied about things and I know how raw that nerve can get.

 

[Misanthrope]

I did homelessness once and that was when I was fit and healthy. It was a traumatic enough experience back then. The infirm in whatever capacity get singled out. I have lost all tolerance at this stage. So if I did wind up pissed on for a laugh. That person would find me ripping off their dick and force feeding it to them, then proceeding to gouge out their eyes. Invariably such an unhinged response would result in prison. Yet another environment I would not survive well in.

Now I am sick and disabled I would honestly rather die than face homelessness again. It is not an unlikely outcome either because in the UK health issues are not much of a protection. Erosions of social security, access to social care, and legal representation are adding to that growing likelihood. Confirmation of homelessness would be an ultimate final straw for me.

 

[peachesNpoison]

- homelessness (don't want to encourage others who are experiencing this but I don't personally have the fortitude for that life)
- losing the use of any limbs / paralysis
- spinal injury resulting in chronic nerve pain
- incurable disease
- brain injury

 

[tiredofchronicpain]

I am already 100% sure about CTB. I see my future for my health, social situation, financial situation. None of it is what I want. I am a logical analytical person. I look at all angles. I cannot do what I was meant to do due to things that are wrong with my physically. This is not where I am meant to be. I cannot reach potential. Leaving is not sad for me, it is not desperation, it is what it is. Death is just another part of my path.

I like your posts, how old are you?

 

[Zaynaldeen]

I would have to leave my religion and I can't seem to be convinced that it's not true. I try and I try, but I keep finding myself in the same situation, staying Muslim and believing in one God.

 

[Amber1974]

Everything has already happened...

Yep, for me too....

 

[Gray Wounds]

If I relapse and my mind decides to end me for real, then, it'll be it.

 

[Amber1974]

There's a quote from David Foster Wallace about how a person suffering from depression etc will reach an unendurable level of pain and will kill themselves the same way a person in a burning high rise (9/11, anybody?!) will jump to their death rather then be burned alive, it's a little long but it's good u can google whole thing

 

[QuickandPainless]

I have no idea honestly, it feels like anything at this point. When I found out I might go to prison was the last straw when I attempted about 2 years ago but it was that among many other things. Losing a romantic relationship was always a big one too. Probably because I would've been alone had I lost that. I always survived though. Pretty shitty. I almost died to a tylenol overdose but I recently found out it would've taken a while to actually kill me. The doctors told me I almost died but I don't know if they were trying to scare me or what.

 

[stellabelle]

What's the final straw for you?

It's all happened. Rape. Abuse. Loss of employment. Homelessness. Jail.

Every straw has already been pulled. Just a matter of time until I acquire SN, and decide when to lay down to pass away

 

[cu1len]

As a child I was sexually abused so probably rape, cancer (in this case I'd just let my self die and if I didn't happen to die from it then I'd be pissed), one of my friends ctb because I don't need another one :)

 

[msexit]

Yep, for me too....

Yes, for me as well

 

[RyanSuicide]

That's an easy one - close family members dying on me

 

[Sixfeetunder]

A terminal illness would be one. Or some kind of severe illness that there's no chance for recovery, a cure, or would severely reduce the quality of my life.

You would think that my depression would fit the latter (trust me, I've tried to get better!) But I guess over the break, it's more bearable. This upcoming semester should be enough to push me over the edge.

 

[SiArc]

I am already there, finances, health, what is absolutely going to happen to me physically and psychologically. Time to get out now before hitting that next cliffside.