What will you miss the least when you ctb

[_Minsk]

I've read many threads of what you will miss (out on) when you ctb but what are the gains/benefits you will have from ctb?

I'll start:
no more this social bs where people always have to oppose their bs opinion on stuff thats not their business.
Fucking health issues that weighted me down for over a decade.
Not having to wake up each Monday, grinding trough for 2 lousy days off
Not sure if this can be seen as encouraging, if so I'll delete

 

[totheendofinfinity]

Don't have to live with myself and my past fuckups anymore.

 

[Coconut blue]

my family

 

[divinemistress36]

Chores

 

[Beyond_Repair]

People

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Heartache and any other negative feelings associated with previous rejections.

 

[Arachno]

Stress and mental pressure, scoliosis, OCD

 

[Raven2]

Constant feeling of heartache and dissatisfaction of how my life has turned out

 

[BlendedHeart]

Life in general. I just don't like the way things are.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Extreme pain extreme suffering horrible problems and 1000 other nightmarish things

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

I've read many threads of what you will miss (out on) when you ctb but what are the gains/benefits you will have from ctb?

I'll start:
no more this social bs where people always have to oppose their bs opinion on stuff thats not their business.
Fucking health issues that weighted me down for over a decade.
Not having to wake up each Monday, grinding trough for 2 lousy days off
Not sure if this can be seen as encouraging, if so I'll delete

Pining for the man I love.
Listening to the people I live with whingeing or abusing me.
Bills and balancing my bank account
Cleaning my house
Headaches

 

[GuiltyAsSin]

Getting away from myself, absolutely. Just stop having to be in this body/this experience. I know why I am the way I am (childhood trauma), but it hasn't made it any easier to live with or eased my pain much.

 

[SuicidalTiger]

• My Autistic Brain - My mother made you for me, in her cursed womb, you have brought nothing but pain and misery to me my entire life.​
• My Body - I starve you, I cut, I feel my blood drip down my arm because I hate you, like my brain you were made by my mother, you were made wrong.​
• My Abusive Family - Fuck you both! You abused me and neglected me as a child, I hope you both get what you deserve.​
• General Society - Thank you for teaching me one important lesson; You are tribal-warfare dressed up in an Armani Suit. Fuck you, fuck everyone who willingly partakes in you,​
• Human Social Interaction - You gave me some of the best people in my life,but time and time again you drove a knife through my heart and led me to self-harm, tears, anger and pain.
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[leavingthesoultrap]

The feeling of not belonging anywhere. Coworker interactions, rude people. Physical pain and stress.

 

[MrsNobody]

Life altogether. My own humanity. I despise it

 

[Yeet_Me_Away]

The drain of daily existence

 

[Vicolo cieco]

The constant effort necessary to satisfy the needs that life imposes on me.

 

[SMmetalhead36]

Dealing with past trauma, troubled childhood, knowing my birth family, being born, who I was born to, people, meeting my 1st husband and his family, worrying about basic things, being sold lies, health conditions, being locked in my thoughts and life in general.

 

[FuneralCry]

Everything really, I just find existing to be undesirable in general, what appeals to me about not existing is that it's permanent and I'll be eternally unaware, I won't have the ability to think or feel anymore, I'll be at peace instead of burdened with this existence. Having the ability to exist as a conscious being enslaved in a decaying flesh prison truly is an abomination to me, I find it tragic how this human species even evolved at all.

Existence itself truly is nothing more than an unnecessary harm that causes nothing but meaningless suffering, I'd always prefer to not exist especially as there are no disadvantages to permanently not existing yet existing can potentially get so torturous way beyond how anyone can imagine it to. I'll be glad to be free from this hellish and meaningless imposistion that is just a futile process of waiting to die anyway, I only find comfort in death, ceasing to exist would solve everything for me.

 

[Red Moon]

People in general, the backstabbing, betrayal, social hierarchy, being taken advantage of, abuse, bullying, my autism, society, its expectations and fitting in.

 

[justwannadip]

The constant feeling of missing out on fun things and a happy life. I won't have to feel the pain of seeing so many find happiness except for me. I also won't feel empty all the time and experience bpd heartbreak anymore.

 

[Ironborn]

Dealing with people, it's exhausting.

 

[voc_89]

having to pretend everything is alright.

 

[tsumihoroboshi]

myself.

no longer having to live with my sins and the guilt i have for simply existing.

i will be easily forgotten anyway and everyone i hurt can finally move on.

 

[Dusk till dawn]

Boredom

 

[femaletwink]

My body, I've hated it for as long as I can remember. It'll be nice to finally be really rid of it.

 

[Ambivalent1]

Dealing with people who have authority

 

[SchizoGymnast]

Akathisia

 

[Superdeterminist]

White in The Sunset Limited listed several competing ones: "Torment, betrayal, loss, suffering, pain, age, indignity, and hideous lingering illness."

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Everything really though the things I'll be glad to not experience the most is suffering in any capacity as well as the chance for suffering to get exponentially worse. After all, if I'm dead, I am no longer under complete luck as to whether I'll suffer extremely or not. I will also be glad to not have to work or deal with things that I never wanted to deal with in the first place