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Cyagangy

Cyagangy

Self Immolation fr fr
Apr 27, 2024
192
Since you make a plan to catch the bus on a certain day do you ever think of your last actions? Your last meal,last TV show,last movie,last word etc. If so what will be your last meal?
 
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3/4Dead

3/4Dead

Peace, Love, Empathy
Feb 27, 2024
470
I've been thinking more about things like this recently but most of it I still haven't decided. The only thing I know for sure is that I plan to speak to my closest friend last. Maybe my favorite food will be my last mean
 
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kinderbueno

kinderbueno

Waiting at the bus stop
Jun 22, 2024
261
A kinder bueno, they mean a lot to me
 
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Beyond_Repair

Beyond_Repair

Disheartened Ghost
Oct 27, 2023
452
French toast and a mimosa. Since I'll be starting fasting after breakfast
 
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Rocinante

Rocinante

My name is Lucifer, please take my hand
Aug 26, 2022
1,469
Fried Mushrooms, bratwurst, steak, strawberry cheesecake, fried chicken
 
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Necrosis

Necrosis

En bokstavelig bjørn som later som om han er menne
Feb 23, 2023
69
My father's pot roast, or a portillo's chopped salad. Probably the salad because asking my dad to make his roast randomly might seem off putting.
 
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Cyagangy

Cyagangy

Self Immolation fr fr
Apr 27, 2024
192
Maybe ask him a couple days in advance. I believe you should have what your heart truly desires considering it's the last thing you will consume before your demise.
 
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N33dT0D13

N33dT0D13

Xe/It
Apr 2, 2023
365
Probably nothing / pills / cigarettes / junk food that makes me feel worse and helps "motivate" me lmao
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
2,197
I want my body to be empty, I want to feel lighter than air when I go.

Food is such a hard concept when you've had an ED since childhood, but I'd like to think that I would come up with something meaningful.

But I can't fathom what that would be, every person who's ever made a thing that's mattered to me is gone now.
 
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Jon Arbuckle

Jon Arbuckle

Aspiring Corpse
Jul 23, 2024
121
Since you make a plan to catch the bus on a certain day do you ever think of your last actions? Your last meal,last TV show,last movie,last word etc. If so what will be your last meal?
lately I've been losing my appetite and on top of that I imagine I'd be too nervous to eat much the day of my attempt. if I'm not too nervous maybe I'd eat something sweet, like a crepe or some ice cream or something.
 
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Cyagangy

Cyagangy

Self Immolation fr fr
Apr 27, 2024
192
I want my body to be empty, I want to feel lighter than air when I go.

Food is such a hard concept when you've had an ED since childhood, but I'd like to think that I would come up with something meaningful.

But I can't fathom what that would be, every person who's ever made a thing that's mattered to me is gone now.
I'm so sorry about that.
 
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Leo._.

Leo._.

Member
Aug 15, 2024
28
If I could I would eat at this Japanese restaurant near my place. They have amazing udon there and the way they operate besides having a regular menu is they have plates with random dishes put in little boats that go on a circular current of water and you pick the ones you want. Amazing desserts, rare stuff like algae that tastes strangely amazing and many other delicious stuff. Wow :')
 
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notprettyenough

notprettyenough

Not strong enough either
Oct 19, 2023
18
My usual:

Soup, still in the can, cold, with salt added.

it Requires minimal effort and tastes decent
Definitely will have some vodka too
 
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Necrosis

Necrosis

En bokstavelig bjørn som later som om han er menne
Feb 23, 2023
69
Maybe ask him a couple days in advance. I believe you should have what your heart truly desires considering it's the last thing you will consume before your demise.
I worry if he connects the dots I'll ruin potroast night :,)
 
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milknife02

milknife02

Member
Aug 13, 2024
37
Since you make a plan to catch the bus on a certain day do you ever think of your last actions? Your last meal,last TV show,last movie,last word etc. If so what will be your last meal?
some coffee and maybe some sushi
 
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fleetingnight

fleetingnight

incapable of shutting up
May 2, 2024
662
I haven't thought about it, outside of rum and whiskey. I kinda don't wanna eat a lot right before CTBing...but I'm gonna be high too, so I'll almost def need something. Maybe just rice or something
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
Some kind of steak. KBBQ or filet mignon
 
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Cyagangy

Cyagangy

Self Immolation fr fr
Apr 27, 2024
192
I haven't thought about it, outside of rum and whiskey. I kinda don't wanna eat a lot right before CTBing...but I'm gonna be high too, so I'll almost def need something. Maybe just rice or something
Kinda basic but your last meal so it's whatever you want.
 
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pariah80

Arcanist
Aug 12, 2024
404
Since you make a plan to catch the bus on a certain day do you ever think of your last actions? Your last meal,last TV show,last movie,last word etc. If so what will be your last meal?
My last meal will be from this Italian restaurant down the street from me. Crispy calamari, New York strip steak, and chocolate cake with ice cream.
 
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Steff1337

Steff1337

Autistic and schizophrenic, please be respectful
Jun 21, 2024
633
Pizza, cheeseburger, coke, milkshake, ice cream...
 
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JustA_LittlePerson

JustA_LittlePerson

One person in a sea...
May 21, 2024
142
Probably nothing / pills / cigarettes / junk food that makes me feel worse and helps "motivate" me lmao
The grind can't stop!
 
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BasilThePlant

BasilThePlant

Member
Aug 13, 2024
41
Since you make a plan to catch the bus on a certain day do you ever think of your last actions? Your last meal,last TV show,last movie,last word etc. If so what will be your last meal?
Nothing. I don't want to be bloated when I die. Anorexias a bitch.
 
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Themogger

Themogger

Why so serious?
Jul 23, 2024
241
Nothing. I don't want to be bloated when I die. Anorexias a bitch.
The last movie you watch ever doesn't have to be immediately before you ctb. Maybe the same logic apply to the question
 
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GetReadyy

GetReadyy

Member
Aug 15, 2024
50
Since you make a plan to catch the bus on a certain day do you ever think of your last actions? Your last meal,last TV show,last movie,last word etc. If so what will be your last meal?
I wish I had many options :D
 
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ramon

ramon

Student
Aug 10, 2024
164
Pizza, cheeseburger, coke, milkshake, ice cream...
I already said what I'm about to say in another thread, but here I go again:

I'll back you up with, my childhood favorite, "mushrooms and chicken" pizza.

Although, any other flavor would do... even ham and pineapple.
 
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kyhoti

kyhoti

Looking for fair winds and following seas
May 27, 2024
294
Waffle House Texas Cheesesteak plate for breakfast, AYCE sushi place for lunch and full steak dinner from the place up the road. Then that special snack as I step on the bus.
 
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BasilThePlant

BasilThePlant

Member
Aug 13, 2024
41
In that case, probably egg drop soup. Odd choice I know, but its so comforting and makes me feel warm. And I'd also watch Les Mis, my favorite musical.
 
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