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dontwakemeup

Paragon
Nov 11, 2024
919
Don't think, just type.

I woke up at 5:45 am. My stomach starting growling because I didn't eat anything yesterday, I had no appetite. Before I got out of bed I immediately thought, "Oh no, not another day!" 😢

As I turned to get out of bed, the severe back pain began and I thought, "Oh, please no, not again today!"😢

I became angry, and saddened. I quickly reached for my sleeping pills, benzo's, pain pills, etc. I took a total of 10 pills. That's the usual combo I take to sleep.

My last thought before I drift off.."I hope this medication keeps me sleep until 4pm, please!" 🙏 And so I wait..
 
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Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,822
It felt like a day closer to ctb. No happiness. No anything. Just the same empty wrongness confirming the path. (And I obtained an alternative to metos in the morning).
 
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dontwakemeup

Paragon
Nov 11, 2024
919
It felt like a day closer to ctb. No happiness. No anything. Just the same empty wrongness confirming the path. (And I obtained an alternative to metos in the morning).
I'm sorry. The great news is you've obtained an alternative to metos!! I'm so happy for you! Let the countdown begin🤸‍♀️🤸‍♀️❤️
 
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mlb

mlb

close your eyes and you'll leave this dream
Jul 14, 2025
155
that i wanted to go to sleep again and pass the day
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
2,516
I wish that fucking dog would shut up.
 
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dontwakemeup

Paragon
Nov 11, 2024
919
I wish there were dealers who sold Nembutal! Yes, they would only see us as a time-time customer, but a happy and satisfied customer! Quality and not quantity lol
that i wanted to go to sleep again and pass the day
Hopefully you can drift off again and have a great dream. It's horrible to wake up, same crap as yesterday!
 
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Freedomm

Freedomm

Student
Aug 2, 2025
183
I thought about why I'm still alive. Because every time I go to bed, I hope I don't wake up. But no, another empty and meaningless day.
 
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SchizoPolyGymnast

SchizoPolyGymnast

Paragon
May 28, 2024
942
I worked the overnight so at midnight, I thought about wanting to go to bed. And being terrified of my charity event going to shit. And wanting to go for a swim
 
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mlb

mlb

close your eyes and you'll leave this dream
Jul 14, 2025
155
I wish there were dealers who sold Nembutal! Yes, they would only see us as a time-time customer, but a happy and satisfied customer! Quality and not quantity lol

Hopefully you can drift off again and have a great dream. It's horrible to wake up, same crap as yesterday!
i'm gonna have some good time today and after that i'll crash in no time. going out somewhere always makes me super tired
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
808
That I'm still alive and that's really bad 😢
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,367
I wish there were dealers who sold Nembutal! Yes, they would only see us as a time-time customer, but a happy and satisfied customer! Quality and not quantity lol

Hopefully you can drift off again and have a great dream. It's horrible to wake up, same crap as yesterday!
There was just 3 years 4 months ago the best Nembutal online dealer N from D .

But the oppressive creeps put him in jail to keep us in the prison

For many years D also known as A sold real Nembutal online delivered to your door. Just write him an email and it was done


But that's over now

the anger this gives me what they did , will hopefully give me more fuel to kill myself, it's intolerable evil what they to D and they have D in jail, and what they did to me to us to the world by taking away available Nembutal , the monsters , the injustice the evil the oppression . the only thing i can do is kill myself to fight against this evil as for me it will undo it as i will not exist forever after i kil my brain . i hate living anyway but all the fuel will ad the rage i need to execute my suicide to non-existence to infinity and beyond
 
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Eternal Disaster

Eternal Disaster

IHaveDemonsInMyHead
Aug 3, 2025
113
Why am I still alive?
 
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gggy

gggy

Wishing you the best❤️
Dec 22, 2023
113
fuck I'm alive, nothing changed
 
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Anonymousa

Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
2,393
I want to go back to sleep, life is too tiring.
 
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never.more

never.more

ecclesiastes 4:2-3
Feb 16, 2023
24
i woke up after sleeping for 14 hours and thought 'damn, i wonder if i could sleep a little longer.' my cat needs to eat though, lol. i have an auto feeder now, but im worried he'll get too bored if i stay in bed all day again. :/

also, good morning everyone-- i hope today will be kind to you all.
 
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wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
1,201
Oh damn I can wake up early and get ready.

Shit my life is monumentally bad.

Then a cascading of realization of circumstances
 
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knickknack81

Student
Apr 28, 2025
162
Wish I didn't wake up. And now I have another day/week ahead of having these same thoughts.
 
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cookiencream

cookiencream

Cookies
Jul 26, 2025
232
"Oh no I'm alive"
Cue hyperventilating and panic
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
2,516
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Mytimeisending

Mytimeisending

theendisinevitable
Aug 10, 2025
76
I wish SN was easier to come across, I spent all night trying to find where I could get it 😂 then when I did finally sleep I woke up angry that my heart didn't decide to stop in my sleep 🙈
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,482
Oh shit- I'm still alive... That was a weird dream... I need to go and put the bin out. F*cking hell, it's Monday.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,490
That all I want is to be free from this torturous and futile existence I always saw as the most terrible, dreadful mistake, I always suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, all I want is for this existence to be all gone and forgotten with no more pain and no more suffering. All I want is to never wake ever again and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep to finally be at peace from the suffering of existing, I always have so much dread for what lies ahead, I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured no matter what.
 
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kitkat9234

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
477
Pissed that I woke up. Wanting to call in to work. For what though? To be trapped all alone in my thoughts. I fucking hate this.
 
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dontwakemeup

Paragon
Nov 11, 2024
919
That all I want is to be free from this torturous and futile existence I always saw as the most terrible, dreadful mistake, I always suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, all I want is for this existence to be all gone and forgotten with no more pain and no more suffering. All I want is to never wake ever again and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep to finally be at peace from the suffering of existing, I always have so much dread for what lies ahead, I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured no matter what.
I wish they would let us go! How long must we suffer in silence? Have we not suffered enough? There will never be a justifiable reason they will accept! We are forced to keep going no matter the circumstances. I also wish to never wake again!
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,592
"I don't want to do all this again".
 
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