Nymph
he/him
- Jul 15, 2020
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I thought I was gonna use helium and a plastic bag but after being on this forum I realized that it probably wouldn't have even worked since the tank I wanted was mixed with oxygen. Now it's SN because even prior to the helium method I wished I could just eat some pills or whatever and die but I knew that the meds that are available to me wouldn't be strong enough. I'm really glad I found SN, without this forum I probably wouldn't have ever found this method. Of course I wish I could get N but that's just impossible for meI think I was just going to OD on a bunch of my meds or do what I did at 16.
Avoid insulin, eat candy, puke my guts up til I die. Not pretty, but effective.
I also tried to jump off an overpass in 2017, but felt the body of my cat who had passed a couple of years before rub and curl around my leg. Tried to convince myself someone else was on the bridge and possibly brushed me. There was nobody there. Felt just like a cat. Dropped to my knees in the fetal position and cried until someone (a friend) came to pick me up.
Anyway, after coming to SS, I realised there were more peaceful methods. I'll be using SN. I'd have preferred N, but I'm a 22 year old on assistance and can't afford that.
What about you guys?
~ H x