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call me jvne
- Dec 8, 2023
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Im doubtful, does it happen by pure luck? we're you aware you could be interrupted? did you want anybody to save you?
I've never been interrupted while attempting because none in my family know about my suicidality, however I have mixed feelings about hopefully being caught in the middle of the act, I don't want to be dismissed as in I'm just looking for attention or not actually suicidal, I haven't had remorse or regret while attempting and practicing before, so I think once I finally decide to do it I will be at peace with it and hope for darkness, but at the same time until I'm not sure of that I want to maybe even speak up about it to my dad and give up my any chances of suicide at all, which is a high risk and price to pay for without having reassurance talking about it will even be of any help or relief at all.
what's it like for you?
I've never been interrupted while attempting because none in my family know about my suicidality, however I have mixed feelings about hopefully being caught in the middle of the act, I don't want to be dismissed as in I'm just looking for attention or not actually suicidal, I haven't had remorse or regret while attempting and practicing before, so I think once I finally decide to do it I will be at peace with it and hope for darkness, but at the same time until I'm not sure of that I want to maybe even speak up about it to my dad and give up my any chances of suicide at all, which is a high risk and price to pay for without having reassurance talking about it will even be of any help or relief at all.
what's it like for you?