Discussion What was the dumbest thing you've done while hedging on a successful suicide?

[artificialpasta]

Taking on risk or doing something stupid because you'll be dead soon anyway. There has to be a word for it?

 

[SomeoneHelpMe]

I actually bought a gaming console for several hundreds. Never even used it. The thought of it laying somewhere in my room haunts me. And I am far to depressed to get myself to sell it somewhere. Still its pretty mild compared to what some other have potentially done.

 

[kagebunshin]

Well the knife I used to stab myself was an almost 200-year old antique that cost 6000€. Blew my savings on it. Imagine my face when I survived :)

 

[beandigger404]

Gave away my entire My Little Pony collection with rare dolls and exclusive items...... hundreds of dollars and many years of childhood memories gone. I am still devastated. I really wish I just kept it. My Little Pony has been a life-long hyperfixation and as silly as it sounds, I still feel so heartbroken about all my stuff being gone. I just didn't care anymore at the time.

 

[monetpompo]

Gave away my entire My Little Pony collection with rare dolls and exclusive items...... hundreds of dollars and many years of childhood memories gone. I am still devastated. I really wish I just kept it. My Little Pony has been a life-long hyperfixation and as silly as it sounds, I still feel so heartbroken about all my stuff being gone. I just didn't care anymore at the time.

i tried to give away my digital cameras to one of my friends, saying i didn't want them anymore when i've liked photography since high school. i'm still thinking about giving them away to someone that'll actually care about them, but i'd really miss using them even if i gave them away a day before my suicide. i can only imagine giving away such a big collection and then regretting it.

 

[timechained]

I completely got rid of everything I owned, there was nothing left.

Pretty disappointed after the failure.

 

[bananaolympus]

Actually it was at my attempt when i jumped in less than a minute a paramedic was already there and an ambulance was just chilling very close i was inside so quick like 5 min they acted so quick, the doc said it was a miracle i survived because i had internal severe blood loss from my femurs break, a couple of more minutes and i would have died the hit didn't hurt and i got uncounscious pretty fast due to the blood loss what are the odds shit

 

[enduringwinter]

Quitted work dropped out of my PhD and started lying to my family. Pretty basic

 

[gothbird]

Wasted 10k. Gulp. Can't even tell you a single thing I bought.

 

[kagebunshin]

Wasted 10k. Gulp. Can't even tell you a single thing I bought.

Same, I wasted 10k before my attempt. Bought the 6000€ knife to stab myself with and blew the rest on a three month long bucketlist trip to Australia and Japan. It never even occurred to me that I might survive so I didn't care about spending the money. It was liberating.

 

[artificialpasta]

Same, I wasted 10k before my attempt. Bought the 6000€ knife to stab myself with and blew the rest on a three month long bucketlist trip to Australia and Japan. It never even occurred to me that I might survive so I didn't care about spending the money. It was liberating.

That is a crazy amount of money for a knife. May I know why it cost that much?
Glad you didn't go through with it, self-stabbing sounds awful.

 

[alwaysalone]

Stopped paying bills lied to people about fulfilling obligations lied about having a job etc...

 

[Forveleth]

Let myself get fat... again.

 

[quietwoods]

Telling someone.

 

[Sabrinaxox]

Gave away basically all my money, to complete strangers so 0 chance of ever getting anything back

 

[kagebunshin]

That is a crazy amount of money for a knife. May I know why it cost that much?
Glad you didn't go through with it, self-stabbing sounds awful.

Oh no I did stab myself, I just survived. You can read a post I made about it here if you're interested. The knife cost so much because it was an antique made by a famous swordsmith almost 200 years ago. I didn't care about paying so much because I thought I would die soon after anyway. Now it is by far the most valuable thing I own.

 

[wham311]

I completely got rid of everything I owned, there was nothing left.

Pretty disappointed after the failure.

Same. I have ten shirts and they don't fit

Gave away basically all my money, to complete strangers so 0 chance of ever getting anything back

How much

Gave away basically all my money, to complete strangers so 0 chance of ever getting anything back

How much

 

[LostLily]

went on a spending spre and didn't save any money. Wasted my 20's that way.