Help What to write in a note?

[LastAcrobat]

I am debating on if I should even write a note but I'm thinking I should. I'm don't between doing it by hand (more personal) or type it (more legible). But besides that, I don't know what I should include. I know I should "apologize" and tell them how this was the right thing to do and how I'll be happier now and how it's not their fault that much. But other than that what should I put in?

Should I write who/what is actually at fault (mainly the job market and my uni)? Should I write something poetic? Give out a some suggestion for my funeral (I was thinking Saturn by Sleeping at the Last). How long should it be? I mean I could yap on for a while but also I could make it short and sweet.

I also kinda have an, unnecessary love for spectacle. I mean I already own to dress up and maybe make a little "shrine" around my body in the woods (not possible if I do CO tho sadly). I've thought about writing multiple notes and hiding them across the region? I don't know, I kinda wanted to that that last one just because they would still "hear from me" a few more times over the years.

I'm sorry if I'm being dramatic I just… I'm confused. I don't want them (my family and any remaining friends I have) to be upset ;w;.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Perhaps this guide here is helpful:

HOW TO WRITE A SUICIDE NOTE

 

[PenPen<3]

I am debating on if I should even write a note but I'm thinking I should. I'm don't between doing it by hand (more personal) or type it (more legible). But besides that, I don't know what I should include. I know I should "apologize" and tell them how this was the right thing to do and how I'll be happier now and how it's not their fault that much. But other than that what should I put in?

Should I write who/what is actually at fault (mainly the job market and my uni)? Should I write something poetic? Give out a some suggestion for my funeral (I was thinking Saturn by Sleeping at the Last). How long should it be? I mean I could yap on for a while but also I could make it short and sweet.

I also kinda have an, unnecessary love for spectacle. I mean I already own to dress up and maybe make a little "shrine" around my body in the woods (not possible if I do CO tho sadly). I've thought about writing multiple notes and hiding them across the region? I don't know, I kinda wanted to that that last one just because they would still "hear from me" a few more times over the years.

I'm sorry if I'm being dramatic I just… I'm confused. I don't want them (my family and any remaining friends I have) to be upset ;w;.

I can relate to this a lot bc I've also considered a lot of similar things to this. I don't really recommend hiding notes since strangers might find them, if you want people to keep getting notes you could write several ahead of time that have "open on x date" written on them, your loved ones will likely listen to that. Other than that it's totally up to you, as long or short as you want as long as it feels like you. You don't have to apologize for being 'dramatic', esp because it's not dramatic to think ab this stuff. Death is such a big moment and a suicide note is gonna be your final words so do what feels best.

Other than that I personally recommend taking a decently long time to edit it on a Google doc or somewhere u can type, then write it out slowly and neat. In the past I've liked to go through my old journal entries to find ways that I've expressed my feelings so I can communicate it clearly. I hope it goes well <3

 

[coolliontigerragged]

Personally with my first attempt I planned a bit in advance. I thought of who I am closest to (which isnt many people) and family I care for. I bought a big thing of envelopes and labeled each one for the people I wanted to write for.

However, those have all been burned by now (I was put on a crisis watch.. very annoying.. going through TMS now tho) and I had to do only one suicide note. I was planning on putting in a tiny bit about my philosophy in life, a few sorries, generally what I want/hope will happen to my body, and hidden elsewhere with a hint or two on the first note, I will put the dosage of whatever I took. Just to make a cause of death a bit easier for the people who continue to live. Maybe out of guilt, selfishness, care- I dont know what to call that feeling.

When I did my second attempt I did hide my suicide note instead of incase I live, which I did. If it was found, I would certainly be gone for much longer and EMS would have found it. Thankfully, that didnt happen, I lied and said my OD was "accidental," was only in the mental ward for an hour (AMA), and here we are now in a weird mental gymnastic limbo. I think I wanna try living now though, especially with the hope TMS helps.

Thats my personal experience though. Do with any of this info what ye will, but no matter what happens I wish you peace.