Help What to write in a note?

[LastAcrobat]

I am debating on if I should even write a note but I'm thinking I should. I'm don't between doing it by hand (more personal) or type it (more legible). But besides that, I don't know what I should include. I know I should "apologize" and tell them how this was the right thing to do and how I'll be happier now and how it's not their fault that much. But other than that what should I put in?

Should I write who/what is actually at fault (mainly the job market and my uni)? Should I write something poetic? Give out a some suggestion for my funeral (I was thinking Saturn by Sleeping at the Last). How long should it be? I mean I could yap on for a while but also I could make it short and sweet.

I also kinda have an, unnecessary love for spectacle. I mean I already own to dress up and maybe make a little "shrine" around my body in the woods (not possible if I do CO tho sadly). I've thought about writing multiple notes and hiding them across the region? I don't know, I kinda wanted to that that last one just because they would still "hear from me" a few more times over the years.

I'm sorry if I'm being dramatic I just… I'm confused. I don't want them (my family and any remaining friends I have) to be upset ;w;.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Perhaps this guide here is helpful:

HOW TO WRITE A SUICIDE NOTE