Discussion What to do¿

[YandereMikuMistress]

I can't decide what ctb method I really want to go with,, I have everything I need for SN but even then I don't want to use the SN method, for one resone, it's not brutal enough,, my main option is a shotgun, because that fits,, I want a gruesome display of my death to accommodate these feelings I have, to make it,, more,, real,, but I know that's not really fair to others methods by saying that nor is it right, but I guess it's just how I feel about it,my problem now is, peaceful or frightful, yes there's that worry of some form of SI kicking in but that only makes sense now there is that other possibility depending on what headspace ones in, my "frightful" option could be "numb" there are many more emotional factors when it comes to my main ctb method,, that's what makes me contemplate, yet even when contemplating I still can't decide on another option other then a shotgun being the right way for me to go, but I'm sure you can understand the frustration with this perhaps, you now know why I want to go with a more brutal method then a peaceful but having the trouble to decide what you'll go through with, I've been looking into the charcoal method but even then I feel it's not enough and I don't know how to explain it.

 

[spring vainglory]

i know what you mean. im not planning on ctb currently, but i know if i do make up my mind to i want it to be on display. a way to take revenge on the world for being so cruel. everyone is so selfish, i want people to see how hard it is for some people to exist in this world. i havent done any research so i cant give any advice, but something like jumping off a building is my ideal way to ctb. it seems like it would be so freeing to feel like im flying right before i go. while possibly ruining the business for some capitalist.

i live in ny, there's this structure called the vessel that some rich person built that was some kind of 3d art piece and attraction. its a 16 story geometry made up of stairs that you used to be able to walk up. it got closed down because people kept jumping off. i wasnt suicidal while it was open, but i admire and envy the people who got to use the vessel to ctb. an act of defiance to this capitalistic life, right in broad daylight in front of tourists and the like who waste their time on admiring constructs of the wealthy and powerful that ruin this world.

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

Why tf would I get rid of it, I know I know, you don't deserve Peace.

 

[slinkey10]

i know what you mean. im not planning on ctb currently, but i know if i do make up my mind to i want it to be on display. a way to take revenge on the world for being so cruel. everyone is so selfish, i want people to see how hard it is for some people to exist in this world. i havent done any research so i cant give any advice, but something like jumping off a building is my ideal way to ctb. it seems like it would be so freeing to feel like im flying right before i go. while possibly ruining the business for some capitalist.

i live in ny, there's this structure called the vessel that some rich person built that was some kind of 3d art piece and attraction. its a 16 story geometry made up of stairs that you used to be able to walk up. it got closed down because people kept jumping off. i wasnt suicidal while it was open, but i admire and envy the people who got to use the vessel to ctb. an act of defiance to this capitalistic life, right in broad daylight in front of tourists and the like who waste their time on admiring constructs of the wealthy and powerful that ruin this world.

"jumping off a building is my ideal way to ctb. it seems like it would be so freeing to feel like im flying right before i go. while possibly ruining the business for some capitalist" - lol well said.

I can't decide what ctb method I really want to go with,, I have everything I need for SN but even then I don't want to use the SN method, for one resone, it's not brutal enough,, my main option is a shotgun, because that fits,, I want a gruesome display of my death to accommodate these feelings I have, to make it,, more,, real,, but I know that's not really fair to others methods by saying that nor is it right, but I guess it's just how I feel about it,my problem now is, peaceful or frightful, yes there's that worry of some form of SI kicking in but that only makes sense now there is that other possibility depending on what headspace ones in, my "frightful" option could be "numb" there are many more emotional factors when it comes to my main ctb method,, that's what makes me contemplate, yet even when contemplating I still can't decide on another option other then a shotgun being the right way for me to go, but I'm sure you can understand the frustration with this perhaps, you now know why I want to go with a more brutal method then a peaceful but having the trouble to decide what you'll go through with, I've been looking into the charcoal method but even then I feel it's not enough and I don't know how to explain it.

I wish I had that worry, cant even get SN. Its going to be jumping from a roof - probably while on a mix of ket & pink coke. .... Scared of heights though ... eye roll.
Loads of ppl jump now so not necessarily going to attract much media attention - maybe if I land. splatter in front of a maccy d's. ?

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

"jumping off a building is my ideal way to ctb. it seems like it would be so freeing to feel like im flying right before i go. while possibly ruining the business for some capitalist" - lol well said.


I wish I had that worry, cant even get SN. Its going to be jumping from a roof - probably while on a mix of ket & pink coke. .... Scared of heights though ... eye roll.
Loads of ppl jump now so not necessarily going to attract much media attention - maybe if I land. splatter in front of a maccy d's. ?

Well if you land infront of Mc dicks they'll just be like "we got another one!" I play but I tried finding rooftops where I am I have a thread for it but I don't know where to find any accessable rooftops in my area without having to know ppl to gain potential access,, plus my ctb goal plan is a shotgun, if I were to get attention from that I'd only be solely bc "ohh my golly gosh! a WOMEN shot herself!" Tho not Like it'd make anyone acknowledge that women can be in just as much pain, nothing will.

Tho apparently the leading method for suicide for women in the us since I believe 2020 has been using firearms, goes guns,poisoning then suffocation, and I believe for men it's guns suffocation then poisoning.

The world only gets more bleak with everyday.

 

[slinkey10]

Well if you land infront of Mc dicks they'll just be like "we got another one!" I play but I tried finding rooftops where I am I have a thread for it but I don't know where to find any accessable rooftops in my area without having to know ppl to gain potential access,, plus my ctb goal plan is a shotgun, if I were to get attention from that I'd only be solely bc "ohh my golly gosh! a WOMEN shot herself!" Tho in not Like it'd make anyone acknowledge that women can be in just as much pain, nothing will.

look at this thread

Why is that men are more successful at suicides than women?

The suicide rate among males in 2022 was approximately four times higher than the rate among females. Males make up 50% of the population but nearly 80% of suicides.

sanctioned-suicide.net

epecialy this that pthnrdnojvsc linked to.... way to go wtf....

The Haunting Story Of Christine Chubbuck, The News Reporter Who Killed Herself Live On Air In 1974

Christine Chubbuck was the first person to die by suicide on live television.

allthatsinteresting.com

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

look at this thread

Why is that men are more successful at suicides than women?

The suicide rate among males in 2022 was approximately four times higher than the rate among females. Males make up 50% of the population but nearly 80% of suicides.

sanctioned-suicide.net

epecialy this that pthnrdnojvsc linked to.... way to go wtf....

The Haunting Story Of Christine Chubbuck, The News Reporter Who Killed Herself Live On Air In 1974

Christine Chubbuck was the first person to die by suicide on live television.

allthatsinteresting.com

Lemme take a look just edited my message again, I'm sloww

look at this thread

Why is that men are more successful at suicides than women?

The suicide rate among males in 2022 was approximately four times higher than the rate among females. Males make up 50% of the population but nearly 80% of suicides.

sanctioned-suicide.net

epecialy this that pthnrdnojvsc linked to.... way to go wtf....

The Haunting Story Of Christine Chubbuck, The News Reporter Who Killed Herself Live On Air In 1974

Christine Chubbuck was the first person to die by suicide on live television.

allthatsinteresting.com

tho I am aware that men commit more it's due to so much toxicity and fucking expectations it's pathetic how closed minded ppl can be just to maintain there boxed up idea on how a man has to be and conduct himself, tsk a complexity that seemingly won't change anytime soon.