Discussion What to do before the D-Day?

[esistzeit]

My departure is scheduled to some 40 days from now. That's when I will have all the ingredients at hand and the results of a final attempt at life.

What am I to do during this time? Everything feels so meaningless.
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Just because I plan on dying doesn't mean I'm suddenly struck with a bolt of newfound courage. I still don't want to go out or talk to anyone or risk injury/pain doing daring stuff.

There is also this annoying, tiny little thing called "hope" that just won't let me go crazy. I could spend the rest of my days indulging in all sorts of vices, but that would lead to damage which I would regret, should my last attempt work out.

Additionally, everything done abundantly and repeatedly becomes boring quickly. If I were to binge watch my favorite show I'd get sick of it after the first couple of days.

What to do? What to do? Any suggestions?

 

[catnowmeowmeow]

I agree with you, I'm just enjoying trying something new like a snack or a new food. Or eating a bit more junk than normal. Nothing crazy but also not the stock standard. Maybe living between crazy and boring?

 

[alivefornow]

Max your stats in Runescape

Or don't, I don't know. That's what I'm doing

 

[Themogger]

Do it raw with a hooker. No consequences afterwards right?