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anotherlastchance

anotherlastchance

Your never not you
Feb 3, 2024
94
Eyedea burnfetish-


Teeth marks on the skin
The greatest trick the devil ever played
Was convincing me that I was him
We like to feel the blood and fat dripping off our gums
She likes to talk directly down the barrel of her gun
Learning to perfect the ancient art of quiet rape
You've always been so warm and calculated I owe you a thanks
Eyes wide shut, I promise not to fall awake
Lick the guillotine and tell you how the gasoline tastes
The grass is always greener on the other pesticide
Solemn precious crept through the mess to shed it's infectious high
Words for me to know and you to find
Guilty, the almighty praised adrenaline
Such an underwhelming thrill
Where there's a will there's a wake
Burn me at the stake
Who the hell am I trying to fool?
I'm a fool I feel so fake
One last goodbye before I take my .45
Shoot a hole in the sky, rip it open
And climb inside
Empathy is the poor man's cocaine
And love is just a chemical by any other name
I like the way your pheromones make me sleepy
This far away I still smell you inside me
Empathy is the poor man's cocaine
And love is just a chemical by any other name
I like the way your pheromones make me sleepy
This far away I still smell you inside me
Tie me down 'till my sweet nothing's sour
I screwed up trying to squeeze 65 minutes from an hour
Outnumbered by such a large amount
No wonder why we lost the battle
The counter-culture can't count
Welcome to my private hell
There's no one to fight now enjoy myself
I'd rather drown than ask for help
I wish I was someone else
Mr. Perfect, Misconstrued
Lead the way, follow through
Probably hate me, I do too
You're so much like me I feel sorry for you
But I think you're pretty, pretty sure
You will profit you will get hurt
I eat my words they taste like dirt
I'm only ashamed because I know what it's worth
Find my comfort, inside blame
Shove my pride back down my face
My worst habits waking up at least once a day
Balance barefoot on a needle heaven's just a jump away
Empathy is the poor man's cocaine
And love is just a chemical by any other name
I like the way your pheromones make me sleepy
This far away I still smell you inside me
Empathy is the poor man's cocaine
And love is just a chemical by any other name
I like the way your pheromones make me sleepy
This far away I still smell you inside me
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

The drip finally stops
Oct 21, 2023
995


There's no lyrics but the sound describes how I feel right now.
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
7,965
Five Finger Death Punch-Wash It All Away :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:








I've given up
On society
Up on my family
Up on your social disease

I've given up
On the industry
Up on democracy
Done with all your hypocrisy

All of the chaos
And all of the lies
I hate it

I'm wasting here
Can anyone
Wash it all away?
I'm waiting here
For anyone
To wash it all away
Wash it all away!

I've given up
On the media
Feeds my hysteria
Sick of living down on my knees

I've given up
On morality
Feeds my brutality
Fuck what you think about me

All of the chaos
And all of the lies
I hate it

I'm wasting here
Can anyone
Wash it all away?
I'm waiting here
For anyone
To wash it all away
Wash it all away!

I won't change for you
And I can't take the pain
There's nothing you can do
And there's nothing you can say

I've given up
On everything
Up on everything
Up on everything!

I'm wasting here
Can anyone
Wash it all away?
I'm waiting here
For anyone
To wash it all away
Wash it all away!

I'm wasting here
With everyone
Just wash it all away
I'm waiting here
For anyone
To wash it all away
Wash it all away!

Wash it all away!
 
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whiteclaudia

whiteclaudia

cute + well adjusted
Mar 23, 2024
41
don't say you love me by depeche mode

so don't say you love me​
cause you'll never love me​
(...)​
you'll be the killer​
i'll be the corpse​
you'll be the laughter​
and i'll be the punchline, of course​
 
LOVELYDARKDEEP

LOVELYDARKDEEP

will you gnaw off your own leg to escape the trap?
Mar 20, 2024
58
Otherside - Livingston

"Young boy living with a price on my head
Better run through the night, or I'm better off dead
Chase the flames in your eyes while the fire burns red
And I'm scared to die, but I'm too afraid to live

Would you take my hand or let my fly?
Fix my soul or run and hide?
The word you said was not goodbye
I'll find you again on the other side
Who the hell am I on the other side?
The word you said was not goodbye
I'll find you again on the other side

Why'd I trade my life for a taste of the glory?
Look at all the pages I burned for a story
I live inside a world that'll end in the morning
Seconds turn to hours when the clock is crying for me"
 
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BlissAssistance

BlissAssistance

Member
Mar 25, 2024
9
Blue Moon by Derivakat. It's my wife's favorite song and she sings it all the time. It's permanently stuck in my head :happy:
 
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MortalityScares

MortalityScares

Here for perspective.
Mar 28, 2024
33
Omg this is so cringe but Day N Nite by Kid Cudi. But let me try to justify it lol

Particularly this part:

"Cause day and night
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night"


I smoke a lot of weed to cope with anxiety and the reality of the world. I've been smoking more when I'm stressed- especially lately in order to stop thinking about death. I'm actually pretty afraid of death and I've been thinking about how afterlife may not exist. Weed has helped me cope, but now I'm actually thinking weeds making me more paranoid. God this is so cringe
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
7,965
From Ashes To New-Barely Breathing :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:








Now you're leaving, I'm the one who's bleeding
Cut out a piece of me, and now I'm barely breathing

It was all a game to you, and I'm the one that played the fool
I let you feed me to your demons
And nothing that I say or do will ever be enough for you
So, fuck my feelings, I don't need them

(Yeah) you were my heroin, you used to get me high
But all you cared about was selling me a lie
You used to lift me up, you always used to pick me up
But now you wanna give me up and bury me alive

Now you're leaving, I'm the one who's bleeding
Cut out a piece of me, and now I'm barely breathing
Give me a reason, you're silent when I'm screaming
You took a piece of me, and now I'm barely breathing

(I'm barely breathing)
(I'm barely breathing)

I wish I would've known the truth, 'cause I'd have run away from you
You sold a lie, and I believed it
And everything you put me through is gonna come back to you
And if it kills you, then we're even

(Yo, yo) you were my world, but my head was in the stars
But then you burned me out and left me in the dark
You used to lift me up, you always used to pick me up
But now you wanna give me up, it's tearing me apart

Now you're leaving, I'm the one who's bleeding
Cut out a piece of me, and now I'm barely breathing
Give me a reason, you're silent when I'm screaming
You took a piece of me, and now I'm barely breathing

Take me back to what we had
Just take me back, 'cause I'm barely breathing
Take me back to what we had
Just take me back (to what we had)

Now you're leaving, I'm the one who's bleeding
Cut out a piece of me, and now I'm barely breathing
Give me a reason, you're silent when I'm screaming
You took a piece of me, and now I'm barely breathing

(You were my heroin, you used to get me high) I'm barely breathing
(But all you cared about was selling me a lie)
(You used to lift me up, you always used to pick me up) I'm barely breathing
(But now you wanna give me up and bury me alive)
So take me back to what we had
Just take me back, I'm barely breathing
 
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anotherlastchance

anotherlastchance

Your never not you
Feb 3, 2024
94
Eyedea even shadows have shadows:


I stand alone
Burned every bridge over the troubled water
No longer hiding from my personality disorder
A stronger tide is coming and I've been running
Trying to function fine with out my mind
Climbing out this fucking corner
I was born a thorn away from the rotten petals
A forgotten rebel
Passed through the absence of parentally hands
To develop an evident level of benevolence
So it's probably better I sold my sold to the devil
This is a message to anyone I met that thinks they know me
Don't pretend to understand any of the issues that I'm holding
I was in a rush to grow up, look Mom no cuts
Just a stomach in disgust, and the fear
That I might go nuts this year
If I don't swell up I'll see you one my way
One day this shit'll kill me but I guess that it's OK
I've lost all fate in a world so full of hate
I don't fucking love music I just use it to escape
I'm caught between wanting to punch someone in the face
And putting a bullet in my head to leave the human race
Everything takes its toll but there's no tolls I can take
I haven't yet found a good reason to be awake
Introducing the corroded bumps I had behind my smile
I'm angry at the universe for the way she treats me now
And keeps me down, stealing all my energy
I'm feeling like my enemy, concealing my identity
Not dealing with my tendencies
I peel the skin and then I squeeze
The real imprinted Hanse's disease
Not human in this century, I'm ill until the entity
Who built this penitentiary, It's filthy as a centipede
And guilt was in his sense cause he was willing to
Just let me breathe, While I wore a game face
In 10 years don't check for me I'll be in the same place
This planet is just an overpopulated mental hospital
Each zombie walks around constitutes another obstacle
So here it is I'm finally coming out my shell
All 19 years of my life have been in conflict with myself
I'm insecure by every facet of the existence
From my addictions, to the conditions I choose to live in
Who you kidding I suffer from excess anxiety
A product of pollution in American society
Stare into my eyes and see the hell that burns inside my mind
And I no longer have an ego I can hide behind
But I've been trying disregarding my insanity
Every form of hurt isolates me from humanity
But it's provoked against being force fed
So Fuck education for a decade and 3 years
Of headaches from my peers
Cause now I realize I could have learned more on my own
They taught me how to know everything except my soul
Which is everything I need to grow
Everything that keeps me whole
Everything that ever meant anything to Eyedea
So I leave with golden hope
To rip the beast that holds my focus
But the fact remains the same, I'm still bound by chains
It doesn't matter if your chain is 10 ft or 100 ft
The fact remains the same, you're still bound by chains
So people say I've changed, and it's harder to relate to me
Good, I never liked you our friendship was make believe
I'm peeling the mask back and revealing the rap thespian
Feeling my organs drilling distorted short portions
Of morbid acid keeps the torture unfortunately crafted
Interests to orbit my portrait and inflict my image with disorder
The minutes get shorter, the walls start to close in
Feels like the brain is hanging on but with clothes pins
I've hidden in the darkness for too long
I make it look all right but in the inside its so wrong
I want life to change but I don't know if it can
For a man or machine or whatever the fuck I am
I stand alone burned every bridge over the trouble water
No longer hiding from my personality disorder
You want to die in my life then come and stay
In madness' favorite little corner
Cause even Shadows have Shadows
And my secrets are eating me eagerly feeding
I scream in my dreams Away but they keep on defeating me
Even Shadows have Shadows
Welcome to the dusty subconscious of an actor
Who murdered his childhood to stop the audience's laughter
Even Shadows have Shadows
I'm about to break free from my fears
When I don't like what I see
And I can't feel what I hear
Even Shadows have Shadows
So don't judge a book by it's cover
Cause my story is fucked up as any other!


This makes me thinking my relationship with my latest ex gf I always had a deep connection with this artist even though he died 2010 it's like he's always with me through his music :

What a beautiful world, so fragile and fertile
Pain feel the void, when boy met girl
He's a puppet to nature, one year later now
So deeply and sickly in love, it makes him hate her
The average romanticized American relationship, sinks capsize
When either side becomes a slave to it
Conditioned, dependent, afraid to be alone
He needs that feeling that he can't create, (alone?)his own(home?)
He despises the fact she has a life outside of them
It drives him crazy to think she's not insanely consumed with him
Give her the guilt trip
And maybe she'll quit livin' to stay behind these prison walls
And lose all individualism
Well this is happiness, masochistic torture, plagued by the decadent, craved for affection
The needle digs deep to push contentment through his blood stream, it drowned now hollow
The pothole of a junkie
If he could only hear her sing he wouldn't want to break her wings
But emptiness has such a warm subtle sting
She makes up for what he lacks - trapped
He can't imagine life without someone like that
If we'd discover the long lost art dying
Only the lonely resent angels for flying
Twisted, living off each other's sickness, like parasites
This is paradise
If we'd discover the long lost art dying
Only the lonely resent angels for flying
Addicted, afraid to take control of my own life
This is paradise
What a beautiful world, emotionally destroyed
(Her?) became girl(?), when girl met boy
Between several breakups and plenty relapses
Routine read comfort led to serious attachment
Now every once in a while she forgets to breathe
Terrified of losing 'em, paradise is misery
Too much faith in the lifesaving knight in shining armor
Now what knight's noticing - the scar she can't hide any longer
But they were her story way before he was
It's grows hope to think that he would feel such deep cuts
At first it felt so right but after one too many fights
He turned out that hallway light and all the wonder turned to spite
So they sleep in the same bed with guns to each other's heads
Dead the romance, boiling the blood that painted roses red
Suffering from post-honeymoon's disease, leeched to his whole existence
To die if he decides to live (?)
Addicted to the way she feels when they spend time together
Detouring the now in a childish attempt to find forever
Despite the fact they hold each other heart to heart
You can't be that close to somebody without being so far afar
If we'd discover the long lost art dying
Only the lonely resent angels for flying
Twisted, living off each other's sickness, like parasites
This is paradise
If we'd discover the long lost art dying
Only the lonely resent angels for flying
Addicted, afraid to take control of my own life
This is paradise
Sigh, this is the most obscure sound I've ever heard
Those lonely giant spaces in between your every word
And maybe I'm totally crazy for holdin' on
But just cause I'm insane don't mean that I'm wrong
Now that shit gone I can't sleep at night, I barely even function right
My memories on overdrive, too hungry and too cold to cry
Miss the companionship I once took for granted
The way you helped me manage, the partnership that vanished
But I don't expect you to stay chained by the ankle
There's so much world to see, so, fly free my angel
I'm dying without you but it's teaching me to live
Heaven ain't something someone else can give it's all inside of me
If we'd discover the long lost art dying
Only the lonely resent angels for flying
Twisted, living off each other's sickness, like parasites
This is paradise
If we'd discover the long lost art dying
Only the lonely resent angels for flying
 
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DizzyFolfy

DizzyFolfy

Gone~
Jul 9, 2022
74
NMIXX - Dash

It's in Korean, but the English lyrics goes something like

Shoot a flare up to the sky and watch it bang
Just keep following the rhythm of your heart
Don't stop, don't fear, no matter~

I think it's very dreamy
 
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Malaria

Malaria

If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead
Feb 24, 2024
1,022
My dogs are thankfully still alive, but this song hits me hard
 
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Silent_cries

Silent_cries

I wish I could delete my trauma...
Aug 10, 2021
870
Monster by Beth Crowly. Finally found a song that describes me, then ofc. took me ages to find this thread again coz the ss search engine kinda sucks. But yeah, kms!

"I look the same but I'm not fine
The master of my own disguise
If you knew the truth, you'd probably hate me"

This hits me rly hard btw.
 
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vadim

vadim

Disqualified From Being Human
Aug 10, 2023
82
"Feeling less than human, I surmise
That I'm less than human in God's eyes"

 
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sserafim

sserafim

the darker the night, the brighter the stars
Sep 13, 2023
7,467
NMIXX - Dash

It's in Korean, but the English lyrics goes something like

Shoot a flare up to the sky and watch it bang
Just keep following the rhythm of your heart
Don't stop, don't fear, no matter~

I think it's very dreamy
I like this song. It's so catchy lol. Do you like kpop btw? What other groups do you like? I like SKZ and Enhypen
 
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DizzyFolfy

DizzyFolfy

Gone~
Jul 9, 2022
74
I like this song. It's so catchy lol. Do you like kpop btw? What other groups do you like? I like SKZ and Enhypen
omg another kpop stan 🥺 I mostly listen to the girl groups, like twice and nmixx, but now I'm starting to be intrigued with boy groups as well, specifically skz and txt :3
 
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maidens

maidens

" living like this forever is just fine! "
Aug 27, 2023
99
weakness - deco*27 (milgram)
" the words I tried to say were 'you're unfair' and those words thought how pitiful I am "
" if only I could do what anyone else could do, the wrong future unfairly chose the wrong me "
" I wanted to be a pitied and loved weakling "
" ahaha, please notice me. someone, please notice me... I was wrong, yes, it was me "
" even if I keep trying, it's broken right away "
" my life started in the wrong spot "

slow downer - rokuro
" even if I came to love humanity in the end, there won't be a day where I know that love, will there? so today hit me like a brick. "
" if I'm happy three times, sadness is ninefold "
" please think it over, please be quiet, please look at me "
" you don't need me, right? I've been dirtied, please give me as much love as I can take "
" there'll be no proof I was ever here, will there? I'm sure I'm not worthy of it, but still remember me "
 
myopia

myopia

old habits die screaming.
Apr 8, 2024
47
omg another kpop stan 🥺 I mostly listen to the girl groups, like twice and nmixx, but now I'm starting to be intrigued with boy groups as well, specifically skz and txt :3
hi, fellow twice stan here! my other faves are bts, itzy, and red velvet, but I like nmixx, skz, and txt as well !! :)
 

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