Honestly my only mental health "problem" is depression which stems from being subjected to this fabricated reality we humans have created for ourselves. Sure, the overlords get to sit in their ivory towers enjoying themselves while the drones attempt to find some semblance of meaning and worth from toiling for them but for some of us who want nothing to do with any of such it's one hell of an existence to say the least. Being able to see everything for what it is and having the willpower to avoid getting involved or believing propagandized blanket statements from others truly requires a considerable amount of personal agency.
Yeah, I could go out and work some shitty job, meet some random woman who is at least somewhat supportive, and have kids, then buy some house at triple market value and be in debt for 15-20 years, have a decade or two of relative enjoyment, then die but I have no real interest in playing the game of life.
I have SN now and I am so very tempted to just use it right now and say sayonara to this world and everything it entails but here I am, still waiting for something to finally push me off the edge.
