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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
Suicide is the hardest act that somebody can do. Additionally, the only method that I could even access is drowning but I have to go through so much pain and effort to even get to the location in the first place and that's not even considering the pain caused by the actual attempt itself. Additionally, I have to worry about somebody finding me as, if somebody finds me, I will forcibly be resuscitated against my will. Also, I only get one shot as, if I fail, my parents will make me be their prisoners permanently until they die. On top of that, the suicide statistics are heavily against me as so many people failed their attempt in comparison to those who succeed.

Point is, I'm against a lot of odds here and, despite what people say about suicide being easy, that couldn't be further from the truth. Humans have made suicide the hardest thing to ever execute and me being alive is merely a reflection of that
 
Failed.Angel

Failed.Angel

Member
Oct 11, 2024
26
Nothing. Maybe lack of a good method. I got the confirmation that my hopes are over and I have nothing to live for, no obligations and no money to leave my hometown I hate so much.
Currently studying the PDF I got from the time the original SS still existed and reading here for a method that is not that horrible as I have no access to the good ones.
I still wanted to have done good in life and truly lived again but I am completely broken, in debt alone in a place hot I hate. No resources or will left.
Every extra second in this place is filled with sadness and frustration of all my failures and no way to live what with who and what I really wanted to live...
 
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meoww777

meoww777

Meowmeow
Nov 29, 2024
3
The thought of how my family is going to feel, mom and siblings u.u
 
endofline2010

endofline2010

Student
Aug 8, 2024
143
A promise I made to stick around through a particular life event, and the thought of missing my closest friend.
 
InAgony

InAgony

To insanity and beyond
Feb 19, 2024
132
Fear of the pain involved in suicide, fear that I might survive the attempt with life-changing consequences, fear of going to hell.

Fear!
 
Tig

Tig

Student
Oct 17, 2024
171
My Karate monkey,
He's on like white on rice, on a paper plate, in a snowstorm.
He's constantly watching me, twiddling his little monkey fingers.
 
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roadkill111

roadkill111

Burial
Nov 25, 2024
259
For me, it's been my family. I had a relatively good childhood and didn't face many challenges while growing up, but I always struggled with feelings of depression. I believe the only reason I'm still here today is because of their support.
Everyday I am rotting. I will die soon
 
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Nextlandi

Member
Nov 27, 2024
7
Distracting myself from my inner feelings
 
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WeDontKnowTheFuture

Experienced
Feb 3, 2023
251
Parents and the fact that i do not want to go trough the physical pain of suicide.
 

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