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Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
6,336
Many things. Without them, I would have been no more than 206 jumbled and whitened bones six feet under by now.
 
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lambgf

lambgf

the void will lead into my arms
Jan 15, 2020
40
Donating to animal welfare charities, buying presents for my loved ones.
 
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Apathy79

Apathy79

Elementalist
Oct 13, 2019
824
A lot of different foods. Deep and meaningful conversation with certain friends/family. Almost any kind of positive interaction with a pretty girl, even online. Just being with certain people. Orgasms. Winning money. Walking in scenic places. The very occasional times I feel like I've really helped someone.

And despite most of those, the happiest I get is when I get back to my hermitage and know I have an extremely lengthy period of time where I have no commitments and no need to interact with anyone at all.
 
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passenger27

passenger27

In my beginning is my end.
Aug 25, 2019
642
When it's time, those things won't matter. ;)
I know you're right. Less and less things matter everyday. I don't watch tv or even listen to music anymore. I can't concentrate enough to watch movies (except Joker, loved that one). But I know what's coming, and soon. I'm around $28,000 in debt (between manic spells and "the hell with it, I'll be gone soon anyway") and there's no way I'm going to be able to pay my bills soon. It's inevitable I'll be CTB by the end of the month or the beginning of next month. Before I lose lights, the internet (mainly just to get on this site), not being able to afford food...all those things. The world's getting darker and darker by the second, that's for sure.
 
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Mr.Nobody

Mr.Nobody

Student
Jan 30, 2020
108
Watching Impractical Jokers.
 
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Goofty

Goofty

I don’t know anymore to be honest.
Feb 1, 2020
7
My coworker, she could be the age of my grandma and every time she see's me when I clock on she gets the biggest smile and is so happy. Always puts a smile on my face too when she's at work
 
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Amossoma543

Amossoma543

Student
Jan 31, 2020
116
Oh, sure. I find peace in a lot of activities.
1. I love watching good films by good filmmakers. Tarantino. Scorsese. Ari Aster. Kubrick. Paul Thomas Anderson. Saranofsky.
2. I love reading novels. Reading saved me a lot of misery as a young teenager and adult. It's a great escape. It's one of the most reliable friends I have. Never disappoints. It's always the same. It doesn't let me down. A good book=peacefulness.
3. Music that I enjoy - I honestly have said before that I'd rather be blind than deaf, but of course I say that on this side of things. Maybe I'd change my mind if I went blind. But it still feels true.
4. Cookies.
 
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voyager

voyager

Don't you dare go hollow...
Nov 25, 2019
963
Nothing, not genuinely at least. Not saying I'm completely gloomy, I can laugh, I can enjoy things to a degree, but it's like there's always something in the back of my mind weighing me down. I have been happy before and this is not it. The last and first time I've had an authentic emotion in decades was actually having a cry in 2018. It only lasted a minute but it felt natural. It felt good.
 
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TheEndof

TheEndof

It's getting dark and it's getting cold
Dec 31, 2019
146
Nothing really. It used to be food but I get really ill every time I eat. Sleep doesn't seem to ever be peaceful as I have nightmares now. My son, sometimes.... but thinking about him more so makes me sad.
 
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waterbottleman

waterbottleman

Not a person
Sep 30, 2019
721
There's only 3 things in this world that make me happy

1. Making money on the stock market
2. sex/romance
3. Random acts of kindness to strangers and acquaintances

However I can't regularly satisfy any of these things.

With number one, although I do have some money I don't have enough to retire and live off of my investments like an investor even though this is the only job I can see myself actually doing and being happy/passionate about my job.

With number two women find me repulsive so I can't satisfy this need either. The only way I can imagine fulfilling this desire is to fly to a foreign country like Thailand and finding a sex worker to have sex and be romantic with, take her on dinners, give her flowers, take her to romantic dates, tell her how beautiful I think she is, support her, etc.

With number 3 I do it sometimes, but unfortunately I live in an area where people pretty much ignore each other so it's difficult to interact with people.

Fuck life, fuck where I live.

If I had a million dollars I could solve all my problems. I'd invest my million dollars in dividend paying stocks/bonds and go live in Thailand. I could be an investor as my career, I could date/have sex, and I would live in a culture that is far more open to interaction between strangers.

The only option I see for myself is winning the lottery or killing myself, and yeah the former probably ain't gonna happen.
 
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nerve

nerve

fat cringey shut-in
Jun 19, 2019
1,013
Sometimes when I go to feed my dog, he gets really excited and starts jumping around the kitchen. I wish I could somehow tell him that it's one of the few things left that makes me smile.
 
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WhyamIstillhere

WhyamIstillhere

Member
Jan 27, 2020
90
I'm at my worst state mentally when I'm thinking about having to continue living every day. The thought of ending it immediately puts me in a better mood, ironically.
 
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sadgirl2002

sadgirl2002

Fallen Angel
Apr 9, 2019
452
I've never been truly "happy". I've felt nothing but the emptiness throughout all these years, the void was never filled. Everyone left me even though I gave them everything and all I'm left with is nothing. I feel like I'm faking how I feel because when I'm alone, I'm the most miserable. I will only feel truly happy when my true love comes back. I will drop dead if that doesn't happen because why else should one live this meaningless and vile existence?
 
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charlottewilts

charlottewilts

read Dostoyevsky
Jun 15, 2019
494
my favourite artists' art and music

but really only drugs lol
 
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Escape_Reality

Escape_Reality

Member
Feb 8, 2020
14
Drugs until the effects wears off & listening to music, doing stuff on my car...these things used to distract and give me temporary happiness but the novelty has since worn off. I used to surround myself with people and put on a fake smile to try fit in...I try to find purpose or belonging in the things I do but it's all bullshit.
 
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porfin1234

porfin1234

Arcanist
Dec 26, 2019
476
Dance
Being in nature
Snuggles and cuddles
Although enjoying them less and less since I've been avoiding them for the most part
 
TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,009
Playing video games and playing the piano/music hobby on my spare time. However, even those things don't always make me happy, depending on my performance and achievements; if I fall short of achieving my goals and objectives, then I'd be even worse some days..
 
Istanbulite

Istanbulite

Member
Jan 14, 2022
564
The nature and literature
 
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bad luck

bad luck

Memento mori
Mar 2, 2021
772
Drinking vodka disguised as a mix of an unabomber and an Islamic woman:



Sorry, I'm happy after drinking ^^U
 
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Ashu

Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
785
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,331
There is nothing that makes me happy apart from the thought of no longer existing. Life is just meaningless suffering, it is a pointless struggle that we go through for the sake of it. My life is only misery and pain and all I want is to be free from it.
 
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IsThisTheEnd?

IsThisTheEnd?

Mange
Aug 6, 2020
585
There is nothing that makes me happy apart from the thought of no longer existing. Life is just meaningless suffering, it is a pointless struggle that we go through for the sake of it. My life is only misery and pain and all I want is to be free from it.
This has basically been my thoughts today.
 
Sherri

Sherri

Archangel
Sep 28, 2020
13,794
A long drive with my bf with my fav songs that he doesn't like to the beach. Vaping my electronic ciggarette, and watching documentaries about serial killers and thriller movies.
 
jimmy7754

jimmy7754

I just want to be myself again
Dec 15, 2021
508
I was happy once but then I became an adult..
And it all snowballed down to here.
 
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fox_wannabe

fox_wannabe

Enlightened
Jul 7, 2021
1,112
Waking up in warm bed to discover I have few more hours of sleep, sunsets, gaming with cool buddies, good food, sometimes when somebody cracks a joke to break monotony of college life.
 
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