
Sensei
剣道家
- Nov 4, 2019
- 6,336
Many things. Without them, I would have been no more than 206 jumbled and whitened bones six feet under by now.
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I know you're right. Less and less things matter everyday. I don't watch tv or even listen to music anymore. I can't concentrate enough to watch movies (except Joker, loved that one). But I know what's coming, and soon. I'm around $28,000 in debt (between manic spells and "the hell with it, I'll be gone soon anyway") and there's no way I'm going to be able to pay my bills soon. It's inevitable I'll be CTB by the end of the month or the beginning of next month. Before I lose lights, the internet (mainly just to get on this site), not being able to afford food...all those things. The world's getting darker and darker by the second, that's for sure.When it's time, those things won't matter. ;)
I alwayd have that phrase in mind.When it's time, those things won't matter. ;)
Nature, literature, and lovemaking - on those rare occasions when it's really lovemaking.The nature and literature
This has basically been my thoughts today.There is nothing that makes me happy apart from the thought of no longer existing. Life is just meaningless suffering, it is a pointless struggle that we go through for the sake of it. My life is only misery and pain and all I want is to be free from it.