What makes you afraid?

[CantDoIt]

What makes you afraid to commit ctb?

For me, it's the following:

-Fear of what happens after death
-Fear of regret in final moments
-Fear of how it will hurt the people close to me, with at least one of them probably in danger to also ctb.
-Fear of being regretful in my final moments

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

-Fear that we remain conscious after death
-Fear that I will be forgotten
-Fear that my life may improve, but ill CTB before it (just my SI telling me that)

 

[CatLvr]

Definitely fear of hurting my children.
Also, afraid of what might happen to my pets.

 

[daysnumbered]

-Fear about how it would impact my family.
-Fear I might survive and be crippled for life.

 

[FuneralCry]

What I'd personally fear is trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony, it terrifies me how such could happen, what I find so horrific about existence is that there is no limit as to how much one can suffer as long as they exist. To me there's just so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to die painlessly and never suffer ever again, all I wish for is non-existence, to be conscious in this existence is such a terrible, tortuous burden to me, I have no interest in prolonging the suffering this existence causes just to be tormented by old age.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

-Fear of failing the attempt and subsequently dealing with permanent injuries or a worse quality of life

 

[skatergirl]

Whats ur method?

What makes you afraid to commit ctb?

For me, it's the following:

-Fear of what happens after death
-Fear of regret in final moments
-Fear of how it will hurt the people close to me, with at least one of them probably in danger to also ctb.
-Fear of being regretful in my final moments

 

[CantDoIt]

Whats ur method?

Probably N

 

[SVEN]

Whats ur method?

PLEASE, stop messaging me. I don't know anything about SN you can't read on the threads and I have no way of promising you it won't hurt, or if what you have will serve your purpose.

 

[AnderDethsky]

The fact that death will also turn out to be not perfect, just like life, or will turn out to be not universally the same pleasantly for everyone who comes to it.

I have ADHD and a fear of the dark. The only thing that can come to our mind that remotely resembles death is constant emptiness and silence, and for me, as someone who literally addicted on constant stimuli for my perception, as a person who has YouTube with videos and music open on other monitors and 50 browser tabs "for later", it definitely scares me.

If I had to spend an infinite number of minutes in a pure black void like this



, it would be really relieving for a while, but sometime after over9.999787e+12 years, it would become painful for me to have thoughts without having any meaning for them, and it would be more like durance than release.

We very often throw around such concepts as "eternity" "infinity", but usually we mean something very very large, but still finite, and we have a very poor idea of what it means when something is TRULY ETERNAL because it can literally mindf*cks. You could continue to think about it, but I wouldn't advise it

The only consolation for me can be that, as Schopenhauer said about death as "the temporary end of a temporary phenomenon". Confirmation of this can be considered the fact that we suddenly already have an example when death was over - when we were born.

 

[CantDoIt]

The fact that death will also turn out to be not perfect, just like life, or will turn out to be not universally the same pleasantly for everyone who comes to it.

I have ADHD and a fear of the dark. The only thing that can come to our mind that remotely resembles death is constant emptiness and silence, and for me, as someone who literally addicted on constant stimuli for my perception, as a person who has YouTube with videos and music open on other monitors and 50 browser tabs "for later", it definitely scares me.

If I had to spend an infinite number of minutes in a pure black void like this



, it would be really relieving for a while, but sometime after over9.999787e+12 years, it would become painful for me to have thoughts without having any meaning for them, and it would be more like durance than release.

We very often throw around such concepts as "eternity" "infinity", but usually we mean something very very large, but still finite, and we have a very poor idea of what it means when something is TRULY ETERNAL because it can literally mindf*cks. You could continue to think about it, but I wouldn't advise it

The only consolation for me can be that, as Schopenhauer said about death as "the temporary end of a temporary phenomenon". Confirmation of this can be considered the fact that we suddenly already have an example when death was over - when we were born.

Do you expect you will be conscious to experience a long eternity of nothingness? I always thought that if there is an end to death, it would be instantaneous in our "minds" just as the time before we were born. So if there is some kind of reincarnation, time passing would not occur to us.

 

[sorrymyfault]

What makes you afraid to commit ctb?

For me, it's the following:

-Fear of what happens after death
-Fear of regret in final moments
-Fear of how it will hurt the people close to me, with at least one of them probably in danger to also ctb.
-Fear of being regretful in my final moments

-fear of getting caught before the act, getting locked up in a mental ward
-fear of becoming paralyzed or in a vegetative state
-fear of what that would mean for the people around me
-fear of someone finding me after and having that alter their mental state
-fear of life after death
-fear of my reputation after such failed attempt
-fear of my pets after that
-fear that life will eventually get better (delusion)

 

[AnderDethsky]

Do you expect you will be conscious to experience a long eternity of nothingness?

I'm not claiming that. This is just my fear, which arose because of our inability to fully imagine non-consciousness experience , that almost certainly won't come true because after the brain death, along with the lack of sensory information,also most likely there will be no one to observe this nothingness. But this is the only thing that our imagination is capable of in desperate attempts to imagine non-existence - it always do it with a small crutch in the form of retained consciousness.

 

[CantDoIt]

I'm not claiming that. This is just my fear, which arose because of our inability to fully imagine non-consciousness experience , that almost certainly won't come true because after the brain death, along with the lack of sensory information,also most likely there will be no one to observe this nothingness. But this is the only thing that our imagination is capable of in desperate attempts to imagine non-existence - it always do it with a small crutch in the form of retained consciousness.

It's a grim thought. I did worry a little that, if consciousness were to continue after death, the mindset of the person would influence that experience at least to a small extent. Sort of a case of someone creating for themselves whatever it was that they imagined should or might happen.

 

[skatergirl]

Do you expect you will be conscious to experience a long eternity of nothingness? I always thought that if there is an end to death, it would be instantaneous in our "minds" just as the time before we were born. So if there is some kind of reincarnation, time passing would not occur to us.

You know what freaks me out is that if we die we won't know that we have died and I don't like not knowing I need to know do u know what I mean

 

[supergold#2]

i'm not afraid of dying, and i'm honestly not too worried about pain (if say i were murdered/shot/stabbed/strangled), but i am afraid of failure. i don't want to lose control as i'm dying and desperately try to get help, because that would either ruin everything for a long while, or hurt others who "couldnt do anything".
i'm also afraid of there being an afterlife, im not afraid of divine judgement, hell, i will brigotti rosse any deity that made life like this, but i don't want old friends to have been watching me and seen how much resentment i had for them after they died.
i guess, i hope when i ctb, i just stick around as a ghost or something to see if anybody actually cared at the funeral, then just dissapear into nothing, and never have to "be" again. it sounds nice.

 

[skatergirl]

i'm not afraid of dying, and i'm honestly not too worried about pain (if say i were murdered/shot/stabbed/strangled), but i am afraid of failure. i don't want to lose control as i'm dying and desperately try to get help, because that would either ruin everything for a long while, or hurt others who "couldnt do anything".
i'm also afraid of there being an afterlife, im not afraid of divine judgement, hell, i will brigotti rosse any deity that made life like this, but i don't want old friends to have been watching me and seen how much resentment i had for them after they died.
i guess, i hope when i ctb, i just stick around as a ghost or something to see if anybody actually cared at the funeral, then just dissapear into nothing, and never have to "be" again. it sounds nice.

Very interesting! I think death will be like when we're asleep just gone

 

[Pryras]

Honestly I don't share any of the fears that you listed since I'm not afraid of death itself but the ramifications of me dying and the aftermath for my family. I don't like my family but I don't want anyone to suffer. Of course I'll be dead so i won't feel it but just thinking about it now makes me worry


A lot of the fear around dying I don't really understand since it's something we all will have to experience at one point even if it's unpleasant. I can understand FOMO for what you could miss but would I miss something I never experienced? Probably not.

 

[CantDoIt]

Honestly I don't share any of the fears that you listed since I'm not afraid of death itself but the ramifications of me dying and the aftermath for my family. I don't like my family but I don't want anyone to suffer. Of course I'll be dead so i won't feel it but just thinking about it now makes me worry


A lot of the fear around dying I don't really understand since it's something we all will have to experience at one point even if it's unpleasant. I can understand FOMO for what you could miss but would I miss something I never experienced? Probably not.

Some of my fears are more to do with what happens after death. I can understand not fearing eternal nothingness, or the feeling of what it was like before we were born, but it is possible to fear that there could be something and that that something could be unpleasant in some way.

 

[Pryras]

Some of my fears are more to do with what happens after death. I can understand not fearing eternal nothingness, or the feeling of what it was like before we were born, but it is possible to fear that there could be something and that that something could be unpleasant in some way.

Are you religious or just worried about what might come after and it being unpleasant? I'm not religious at all but what can help is remembering that whatever comes next will be inevitable and unavoidable since we all are going to die eventually. Some people are scared of the dying process itself, but that will be unpleasant in your 90s or in your 20s if that makes sense. In the grande scheme of the universe, our lifespans are pretty short. Will it matter if I spend 30 more years alive if I'm gonna be in none existence until the end of time? If I end up in hell regardless, will leaving early make a difference?

 

[CantDoIt]

Are you religious or just worried about what might come after and it being unpleasant? I'm not religious at all but what can help is remembering that whatever comes next will be inevitable and unavoidable since we all are going to die eventually. Some people are scared of the dying process itself, but that will be unpleasant in your 90s or in your 20s if that makes sense. In the grande scheme of the universe, our lifespans are pretty short. Will it matter if I spend 30 more years alive if I'm gonna be in none existence until the end of time? If I end up in hell regardless, will leaving early make a difference?

I'm more leaning towards spiritual, new age stuff if it's not eternal nothing. But you're right in that either way I would have to face it eventually. I would rather not have to get older, look older, and fail more. My worry is that my state of mind at death would influence my experience after death at least temporarily which could make a miserable experience.

 

[willow115]

Mostly failure and worsening problems. I fear that with gun and short suspension. I've never shot a gun, let alone aim and execute myself.

I do fear God, but not that much because I'm pathetic and tired. What did he expect.

With sn I fear agony on the way out. I have psychosis. I fear it will upset that and leave me conscious for too long. 5 minutes, 20 mins, whatever it may be but agonizing confusion and nausea.

I wish to God I had N.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I'm not claiming that. This is just my fear, which arose because of our inability to fully imagine non-consciousness experience , that almost certainly won't come true because after the brain death, along with the lack of sensory information,also most likely there will be no one to observe this nothingness. But this is the only thing that our imagination is capable of in desperate attempts to imagine non-existence - it always do it with a small crutch in the form of retained consciousness.

I used to have this fear, that death would be total silence & blackness and somehow I would be aware of it. What changed my perspective was going under anesthesia. When I came to, I had no recollection of anything. It was like I didn't exist for the time I was unconscious.

 

[broth0100]

fear of the panic right before death, mostly

 

[CatLvr]

I used to have this fear, that death would be total silence & blackness and somehow I would be aware of it. What changed my perspective was going under anesthesia. When I came to, I had no recollection of anything. It was like I didn't exist for the time I was unconscious.

I LOVE that feeling. That bliss right before the "night". I'm always so disappointed when I wake up. It would be SO nice to just stay in the dark.

 

[GoSan1]

Hell, from one to another, it scares me so much. Maybe because I'm a Christian, but I think even without faith the Idea alone is just terrifying

Other than that, the impact on my small brother and mother. But that fear is getting outweighed by the need for the end.

 

[Mayfly]

Never speaking to that special someone again, failing suicide

 

[trashhologram]

Hurting my loved ones, especially my mom and sister. I know that if I killed myself it would completely break mom and she doesn't deserve it; she's a fucking angel. My sister also suffers from some mental illnesses (but seems to be doing better) so I'm afraid that in the worst case my mom could lose her both children to suicide. Also my other family members and friends. I love them and I don't want to hurt them.

My cats. I recently lost one of my cats and fuck that hurts. My cats need me right now and I need them.

What if I fail and become severely disabled? My methods could cause brain damage if I wouldn't die.