What made you join this website?

[Little_Suzy]

SaSu is fairly popular on another site, and many of us are (or were, unfortunately) active on both.

At first, I lurked because my psychologist refused to discuss my suicidal thoughts. Instead, my medical record was flagged with multiple suicidal assessments

When that doctor transferred out, I told the new therapist to allow me to speak freely during sessions. If I can talk openly on SaSu, why not with my mental health doctor? I can now discuss suicide openly. No more welfare checks or calls. Or threats!

 

[iLikeFrogs]

The Tantacrul video. When I saw it I immediately knew that this site is a place I was looking for a long time

 

[momento.mori]

I was searching for suicide methods and seen the name of the site. I was scared to look so I did a quick YouTube search and the video made about this site led me to believe I'd strongly be encouraged and find a detailed plan of how to do it, so I was eager to join! That YouTube video was so misleading and the person who made that YouTube video has actually encouraged people to come to the site which is ironic because it was clearly not his intentions.

 

[greebo6]

Loneliness I suppose

 

[Multitude6369]

I saw Tantacrul's video too. I was already extremely depressed, so I went out searching for this place.

 

[Dark Moon]

Ehhh, Isolation and I was and still am planning to kill myself.

Also, looking for different methods other than hanging and jumping. I didn't know that nembutal and sodium nitrate existed until I came to this site.

 

[Softwind]

I tried OD'ing in a desperate attempt, didn't work. So I decided to better prepare myself with research for my next attempt...

 

[unabletocope]

Want to kill myself, thought I'd work at it

 

[tsumihoroboshi]

don't know if i can remember clearly, but i was actively looking at suicide forums-somewhere to vent-and found a news article about this site and saw all the discourse about it and thinking "yeah it's not the black and white. i know you, media." i like to give places chances because media will always make something it isn't as a scare tactic.

and look at that. not what media makes it at all.

 

[4am]

found it a year ago while searching for lethal fall height, and joined later only because i needed to use search bar one time

 

[haibane]

Someone recommended me the tantacruls video and I founded it pretty terrible how he portrayed a community based on helping each others so badly. So it got me curious and as i was already suicidal at the time, i registered instantly hoping to find to way to ctb peacefully.

 

[etherealgoddess]

Just wondering. For me, I saw 'the video' a long time ago and thought what was discussed was horrific. Then I found myself in probably my lowest point in life and just went searching for the website. It's very different than I had thought it was back then.

Backwards search. I was trying to see what people did to suicide, and I found that there was an article of a family of a boy who suicided who was trying to sue a suicide forum because the son was on it, found information on it, and then killed himself. I did some more digging and found this.

 

[untothedepths]

Someone advertised its existence on a video. If I had not watched it, I would not have known it existed.

 

[belowhorizon]

I found this site because I kept searching for people dying in their sleep by taking sleeping pills. Several articles say that the people here are rude and will push everyone to commit suicide which is clearly not the case.

 

[Dot]

How did you first hear about / find your way to SanctionedSuicide? (2nd poll)

Please select up to two choices. The 1st edition of this poll was posted a little over half a year ago. Given that the site is currently getting a lot of attention due to the recent BBC article, it was thought that a new poll would be more representative of recent and current members.

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[Cherry Crumpet]

Back when SaSu was still on Reddit before the dumbass Admins banned it I was a member. When it was gone, I was able to find the community had migrated here. I feel at ease here, because I don't feel judged, and also because I can relate to many other ppl here. I do sometimes feel like a fraud.. because for me CBT-ing is more like a mental safety net than something i"m actively pursuing.. although that may change if I ever lose my mom. But, it's the thought that if at any point, this becomes too much, I can quit on my own terms that brings me great peace. Knowing I have that safety net, makes it easier to live life when life is really fucking shitty.

I've also always felt a tug towards suicide - either through watching videos of people CBT-ing, or like someone mentioned, the old site lostallhope.com. I've dealt with clinical depression for 20+ years and passive suicidal ideation is something that I think a lot of people that are severely depressed have.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Stumbled across it accidentally while perusing other suicide related material on the Web. Joined because I wanted to see what it was all about, and glad I did, because the method I had in mind wasn't very good. So, with the wealth of info available on this site, I was able to come up with a much better, more reliable method. I stayed because I feel a relatable connection with everyone and, while I'm still around, I'd like to try and give back, as much as possible, what I've learned while here.

 

[divinemistress36]

Someone mentioned this site on reddit I wish I would have known about this site back when nembutal was available

 

[karmaisabitch]

For the obvious, looking for resources.. I was searching that's how I found it.