OMFG your the first person I've ever heard say that! I had searched this site for "schizo" to try and find some people talking about what it feels like. None of them really sound like me but yours. So I have been diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression from abuse. I struggle socially, I wonder if it's just my anxiety/depression or if I'm on the autism spectrum. I don't always understand people very well, like their actions and why they do certain things. I quit seeing my therapist before we made it that far (too expensive). But my hallucinations I never told her about. I've only ever told my mom and my husband, and now you guys here. My mom was entirely dismissive. I used to struggle sleeping as a child because of my hallucinations. I recall them as early as 3. It's grey humanoid shapes of different heights. Usually in my peripheral vision, hiding in doorways, and in dark areas. As a child they really tormented me. I hardly slept. They'd be watching from the doorway, or I'd wake up to one looming over me in the bed before it disappeared. As an adult I *know* they aren't real.... but I still find them quite uncomfortable. I do find they're more numerous the more tired I am, and definitely worse when I'm alone. Much worse when I'm alone. Am I some kind of schizophrenic or is this just severe anxiety/depression? I work 3rd shift alone in a laboratory quite often, and when I'm feeling down and alone I find myself talking to them sometimes. I don't know why. I know they aren't real... but... I just dont know how to describe it.
