Hi guys, Hope you're all doing okay (for the most part). So my last post was about me leaving this forum for good and getting my mental health back on track etc etc. However, i'm finding it hard to do so. I have been doom scrolling, particularly 'Goodbye' threads from 2020 -2024 and lowkey i've been in mental agony because of it and I have no idea why.
Maybe i'm just very empathetic but the facts are I didn't know any of these people (sorry to refer to the deceased as these people that sounded really mean), I don't know if they were horrible human beings so why do I feel this much about their deaths? Why is my brain putting me in so much stress and pain about another person's death?
Ive been having nightmares about the threads. I keep seeing all the messages and all the images and God its really frustrating. Not only this but I found an account on here titled 'Per ardua ad astra', my previous high-school motto. For my school it meant 'through difficulties we attain the highest'. Like how crazy is this? Is there some kind of hidden message in this somehow?
Anyway, I just can't stop coming back here, the curiosity eat's away at my brain everyday like a damn parasite. I wonder who else did this method? Did anyone with my name make a goodbye thread? all these questions run circles around my brain. It's driving me insane LOL. I have no idea to explain to you how agonizing this is for me.
And I am not trying to be a pick me or anything of that sort, i just couldn't keep all this to myself.
Maybe i'm just very empathetic but the facts are I didn't know any of these people (sorry to refer to the deceased as these people that sounded really mean), I don't know if they were horrible human beings so why do I feel this much about their deaths? Why is my brain putting me in so much stress and pain about another person's death?
Ive been having nightmares about the threads. I keep seeing all the messages and all the images and God its really frustrating. Not only this but I found an account on here titled 'Per ardua ad astra', my previous high-school motto. For my school it meant 'through difficulties we attain the highest'. Like how crazy is this? Is there some kind of hidden message in this somehow?
Anyway, I just can't stop coming back here, the curiosity eat's away at my brain everyday like a damn parasite. I wonder who else did this method? Did anyone with my name make a goodbye thread? all these questions run circles around my brain. It's driving me insane LOL. I have no idea to explain to you how agonizing this is for me.
And I am not trying to be a pick me or anything of that sort, i just couldn't keep all this to myself.
