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Xeno12481632

Human garbage
Sep 8, 2025
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Being useless and weak when your loved ones need you the most, and just do nothing when theyre suffering. A close second is losing someone (not limited to death) and only realising how much you value them afterwards.

If i gotta yap less, regret i guess.
 
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HopeNotLong

Member
Aug 22, 2025
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Self-hate, abandonment, the loss of autonomy...
 
MyShadow

MyShadow

Left the forum to pursue recovery
Aug 27, 2025
475
I am currently riding out this feeling of hopelessness, loss, sorrow and abandonment. I suffer from major depressive disorder, PTSD and anxiety and all of them are raging now. The hardest part is knowing that things will never get better.
 
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sancta-simplicitas

sancta-simplicitas

Wizard
Dec 14, 2023
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A sense of impending doom/death anxiety is the worst I can think of. Next to that would be grief.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
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When your girlfriend of 35 years suddenly dies
 
WPack

WPack

Student
Aug 30, 2025
118
Heartbreak, and feeling like everything is going against you.
 
LittleSunshine

LittleSunshine

F♡ck Around And F♤nd Out
Jul 20, 2025
546
For me, the worst feeling is when you realize there's no limit to the amount of suffering you can experience in life. Physical, mental, and existential pain. More specifically, I'm referring to existential tribulation, which includes anguish, terror, and despair.
Absolutely this! 🙏 And the moment you realize how utterly meaningless your own existence is, you've reached point of no return.
 
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Elsie

Member
Jun 4, 2025
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Feeling lonely and invisible at times. Even though you don't like attention, you will still want to be seen. And then the shame, insecure of being judge. Then the future where you wonder if you can life peacefully, enough money, have home, etc. Then come situation of making relationship - friends/partner, you will feel tired, happy or betrayed at the end. Then also the world problem. War, global warming, crime... And then again life working where you have to work all life like doing the same thing. Then, the feeling of ur nothing without anything, being talentless, slow, etc... and... More... Want to die but a coward...
 
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