What is the strongest emotion you have been feeling today?

[Cubashii]

I don't know, I sleep all day and dream about a person and then wake up and do nothing but obsess about that person. And I'm actually scared of that person I can't like...Look at photos of him, he scares me, but I can't really accept that I'll never with him either. I don't know, some OCD nonsense. And I'm clinically depressed so I'm just really indifferent towards everything else.

That is wild! Ive never had those kinds of dreams. So are you shy to tell him how you feel?

 

[nzdarkshark]

Probably tiredness/exhaustion - which isn't an emotion...um....sadness

 

[Lra888]

excruciating depression.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Nothing is an emotion also. You have been exposed to too much and thats whats causing it. Do you have friends and family support? If you dont there is alot of us on here that can help you through feeling this way.

I have a good family but no friends except a few I occasionally play CS GO with while we talk on discord.

 

[Cubashii]

Probably tiredness/exhaustion - which isn't an emotion...um....sadness

Whats making you said? and tiredness and exhaustion can aggravate the emotions we have.

 

[Cubashii]

excruciating depression.

I dont think they will ever come out with a med to stop depression completely. So Its up to us to find things thats gonna take that pain away. Like for me, it helps me helping others. Helping them talk and vent. You could find something that totally takes your mind off it. What would be something you enjoy like at the highest on the list of things you like?

 

[nzdarkshark]

Whats making you said? and tiredness and exhaustion can aggravate the emotions we have.

Being alive makes me sad.

 

[Cubashii]

Being alive makes me sad.

Is it from trauma you have experience growing up?

 

[Schopenhauer]

Longing.

 

[AndyCurious]

Sadness/heartbroken

 

[nzdarkshark]

Is it from trauma you have experience growing up?

Not really - I wanna ctb because of my species dysphoria (feeling in the wrong body) and the fact I cant have the future I want for myself.

 

[cupio dissolvi]

That is wild! Ive never had those kinds of dreams. So are you shy to tell him how you feel?

Shy? No, it would simply be an impervious task.
Surprise: he's a celebrity, he's 22 years my senior, he lives in another country, English isn't even my mother tongue. And, I'm not joking when I say that I'm scared of him. I get vivid nightmares, I throw up when I see his face, I have panic attacks, I dissociate. It's been 6 years so...It's rendered me lifeless. My day consists of obsessive thoughts and ridiculous compulsions. No wonder I can't function in society. It doesn't even make sense. I don't know why he terrifies me and I don't know why I miss him so much that I want end my life. It drives me crazy. Ok, I'm rambling again. Thanks for asking, though.

 

[Cubashii]

Shy? No, it would simply be an impervious task.
Surprise: he's a celebrity, he's 22 years my senior, he lives in another country, English isn't even my mother tongue. And, I'm not joking when I say that I'm scared of him. I get vivid nightmares, I throw up when I see his face, I have panic attacks, I dissociate. It's been 6 years so...It's rendered me lifeless. My day consists of obsessive thoughts and ridiculous compulsions. No wonder I can't function in society. It doesn't even make sense. I don't know why he terrifies me and I don't know why I miss him so much that I want end my life. It drives me crazy. Ok, I'm rambling again. Thanks for asking, though.

It's not rambling its sharing your emotion. 6 years is going on a long time. Have you seen a therapist about this?

 

[Cubashii]

Not really - I wanna ctb because of my species dysphoria (feeling in the wrong body) and the fact I cant have the future I want for myself.

Im a trans male and I cant take T. It doesn't mix with certain meds. If you want to transition you do it! Do not let any other person tell you no. You always have a future!

 

[Cubashii]

Longing.

What are you longing for?

 

[nzdarkshark]

Im a trans male and I cant take T. It doesn't mix with certain meds. If you want to transition you do it! Do not let any other person tell you no. You always have a future!

Species dysphoria is different than gender dysphoria - mostly because it deals with species rather than gender. It's not possible for me to transition into a wolf unfortunatly :')

 

[Schopenhauer]

What are you longing for?

My ex, who recently reached out to me in her own weird way. I was hoping she was happy in another relationship, and just angry at me, but it seems I was wrong. She deserves better, and I won't be here for long anyway.

 

[cupio dissolvi]

It's not rambling its sharing your emotion. 6 years is going on a long time. Have you seen a therapist about this?

Well, yes of course - I've seen more than one therapist. I've been on medication too. I'm fairly young, I'm 18. So 6 years means it survived not only a lot of environmental changes, but internal ones as well. I'm quite confident I can't vanquish this monster. But, you know...Everyone disagrees.

 

[Letting Go]

Irritation... at other people including my own family...

 

[Cubashii]

Well, yes of course - I've seen more than one therapist. I've been on medication too. I'm fairly young, I'm 18. So 6 years means it survived not only a lot of environmental changes, but internal ones as well. I'm quite confident I can't vanquish this monster. But, you know...Everyone disagrees.

What is the top thing you fear about this person?

 

[Cubashii]

Irritation... at other people including my own family...

Family can be irritating. even more so when you are going through a lot of things.

 

[your pathologist]

Disgust. And annoyance.
Overall panic

 

[Cubashii]

Disgust. And annoyance.
Overall panic

Panic? What has you panicking?

 

[your pathologist]

Panic? What has you panicking?

Im still trying desperately to find out of my situation

 

[cupio dissolvi]

What is the top thing you fear about this person?

I know it's ridiculous but I can't properly answer this question. I've accepted that there's probably no rational explaination. I know that he can't do anything to me, so I guess it's something about his physical appearance (?). He disturbs me and I can feel my brain frying when I look at him (or when I hear his voice, or say his name etc). I just lose the plot. I can recall being around 11-12 and being panic-stricken because he was on tv.

 

[Cubashii]

I know it's ridiculous but I can't properly answer this question. I've accepted that there's probably no rational explaination. I know that he can't do anything to me, so I guess it's something about his physical appearance (?). He disturbs me and I can feel my brain frying when I look at him (or when I hear his voice, or say his name etc). I just lose the plot. I can recall being around 11-12 and being panic-stricken because he was on tv.

Does he look like family members or family friends? Maybe a trauma could have brought this on.

 

[cupio dissolvi]

Does he look like family members or family friends? Maybe a trauma could have brought this on.

My relatives say no. I can't answer this question because when I'm obsessing a lot everyone looks like him to me (including myself).

 

[Cubashii]

What did your therapist say about this? Ive never heard of this condition.

 

[dysfunctional]

Extreme depression, sadness and regret. Missing the person i used to be not long ago.

 

[M]

Sadness.