What is the one thing that could happen to prevent you from ctb?

[kappa]

Fear.

 

[ShutUpEli]

Someone else killing me instead

 

[RowdyH999]

My case get dropped so I wasn't looking at 20 years in the feds. But that won't happen. Plus it would only delay it, not eliminate me wanting to do it. I still wanna visit many places. Oh well, there's always the next life.

 

[meles_inoris]

Maybe I'll get murdered someday

 

[Soulless Angel]

a shit ton of money and a new home in a new location (the latter we are waiting on) but even then it won't take away the self loathing and the pain

 

[Emilia1012]

Is there is one thing (or several things) that could happen in your life right now, that would prevent you from ctb?

It's also okay to say that, ultimately, nothing will stop you.

If my health would improve
If I would be more apprecciated at work
If my ex would text me something nice

Actually I am seeing my doctor soon, if I get any positive news from him or any plan of treatment that might help I already would be happy

 

[disfiguredone]

I thought for a moment and came up with some answers - money, health, etc

but then I boiled those down to find out what's behind those answers
money - I'm sick of worrying about it, I don't want to be homeless
health - I'm sick of being in pain and I worry about how much more pain, how much longer
mental health - PTSD makes me feel like I'm in serious life or death danger that I cannot escape

its really all about safety it seems

safety - for me to not CTB I would need to feel safe - from becoming homeless, from pain, from the uncontrollable fear

weird, I want to harm myself because I don't feel safe? strange how it doesn't inspire me to try to be safe but inspires me to try to die

right now I'm guessing this is because I don't know how to find a way to feel safe, but I do know how to find a way to die
maybe I believe that it's all inescapable till death, that death is the only way to be safe - nothing can ever hurt me again once I'm dead

I really relate to this.

 

[PoofLoop:P]

Is there is one thing (or several things) that could happen in your life right now, that would prevent you from ctb?

It's also okay to say that, ultimately, nothing will stop you.

The minute men could show up with their time machine, zap me back to my child hood, let me record all the neglect and abuse and then me report it to CPS.

 

[voyager]

Regaining my health. Physically, mentally, and appearance wise. It's all intertwined and affecting one another. But short of benign aliens with advanced technology showing up, it's not gonna happen.

Otoh, what might not have prevented my suicide entirely but at least postponed it would've been constant, legal access to effective means to ctb. Fact, society.

 

[Jack'sPain]

I'll go chronological reverse from now a few thigs I can mention in exhaustion

1 my mother stop hating me & love. Me like before
2 my brother eithr not going to us aftr ripping me off, 3 months ago or coming back now
3 eithr my fathr not taking me out colg to destroy my lyf or I go now to west & cmplt
4 eithr fathr didnt hide & provid all family mney to brthr, ovr d years, or now I can get to mak up for all of it,
5 I could fulfill my weak grandfathr's hopes of my success, and tak him out of the hous of uncaring family
.... More later maybe

I guess you said one thing so I think 1 thing would be a huge lot of money to fix/mend other problms

 

[Callie Arcale]

Wake up one day and not feel crushing anxiety nor complete exhaustion.

 

[All Things Must Pass]

Death
Incarceration
Magically getting back my eyesight.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

If the person who ruined my life would reverse course and set things right, I *might* be okay. I can't be certain. Enough damage has already been caused that it might be irreversible. Nonetheless, it's the only real path forward for me. It's all in his hands, and I have absolutely zero faith that he will ever do it.

 

[hʚll]

nothing. never being born would help but i guess that's not possible..

 

[ClownMe]

nothing

 

[N2Narcosis]

Is there is one thing (or several things) that could happen in your life right now, that would prevent you from ctb?

It's also okay to say that, ultimately, nothing will stop you.

If I won the lottery and had the money to do what I want, it could substantially delay my suicide.

Alternatively if I suddenly gained some magical powers so I could shed this useless body, that could also delay my suicide.

 

[PeacePlease]

Nothing material I guess. Just be able to not have this horrible anxyiety and recover my brain which is damaged after antidepressant usage. Oh and have friends :)

 

[brutalus]

this is a very interesting thread.

so many of us suffer for love. i fucking hate it. i say im over it because zoloft helps me, but deep down my biggest wish would be to have love.

as for OPs question: if the world descends into apocalyptic chaos i would like to stay and witness it.
one more thing that ive always wanted so much, but never had enough money or a woman: a child :(

 

[CatTheBus5689]

Maybe if the right person told me they don't want me to leave, but that's never going to happen.

I'm going to take my feelings to my grave with me.

 

[Sebuet]

Reloading an older savefile

 

[noname223]

Winning the lottery or finding a rich gf lol

 

[down for the count]

Is there is one thing (or several things) that could happen in your life right now, that would prevent you from ctb?

It's also okay to say that, ultimately, nothing will stop you.

Is there is one thing (or several things) that could happen in your life right now, that would prevent you from ctb?

It's also okay to say that, ultimately, nothing will stop you.

If I had a normal youth and had integrated myself into society properly and didn't screw up my education I might not want to CTB.