Discussion What is the one mistake that has affected your whole life ?

[Lifeaballache]

dui

May I ask how a dui affects you that much? Not trying to put you down or undermine you but unless you were a trucker surely life could carry on easily? I'm not a prolifer just before anyone bites back.

 

[Hangnail]

Surgery that disfigured my face.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

Not seeking mental help at the crucial ages in early adulthood, when there was still enough time to turn it around. Instead, I let myself rot away and now it's too late.

I should also add that the warning signs were there when I was in my early teens and that my family, school and doctor were aware of this. They never helped me. I slipped through the net, so I don't entirely blame myself.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Being fucking born....

That aside, not utilizing my intellectual capabilities to make a better life for myself. Too late now.. .

 

[freedompass]

Not getting sterilised at an early age

 

[Al0neAlwayz]

Being a selfish, horrible person. A bad mother, a bad wife, a bad sister, and a horrible daughter... What I wouldn't give to be able to change that. I don't know where I went wrong/bad. I wasn't raised bad, I had good parents. I just somehow became mean and selfish and bossy and now I am really paying the price. I've hated myself for a long time, and wanted to die. Now more than ever because I am alone and it's all my fault. I guess I'm just defective, not wired right. I try to be a good person, but it never lasts and I don't know why. I hate that I can't be kind and gentle and caring and all the things good people are. I don't want to be me, the way I am, yet I am and I absolutely hate it. I would give anything to go back and see where I started to become this way and stop it, change it...

 

[rmack88]

Debt

 

[ForeverLonely82]

Being born and falling in love. I just want to be numb until I'm dead.

 

[g0921]

My parents didn't use condom that night.

 

[Cerulea]

I fell in love and I trusted that person as closely as I trust myself. I shared every part of my brain with them. I built a home for myself in the intimacy we shared. I trusted them entirely. That turned out to not be the right call. When we give people that kind of control, they can very directly hurt us in unimaginable ways. While trying my best to build a life for myself and work through a legacy of trauma, this person confirmed my suspicions: I didn't matter. I didn't matter at all in any real meaningful way. I was not and will never be worth the things I need from someone else. They took 18 years of life to decide to cheat on me, steal from me, discard me, and ensure that I knew how little I mattered. I've seen some pretty gross stuff in terms of how humans treat each other. But a slow moving bullet that took two decades to hit? There is no way I will stay in a place that can never be safe or secure.

 

[Zhendou]

Defending the Jews by calling the person who called them ghetto people rude at school. Everyone took her side and bullied me which made me suicidal but I am no longer suicidal because of that anymore because I already graduated and is out of that toxic environment. Suicidal for other reasons now.

 

[littleworldgirl]

Not extending my work contract for another year in Japan, even though I had a tense relationship with my superiors. If I had just been honest about how I was struggling to just take care of myself, maybe they would have helped me earlier, and maybe I would have felt strong enough to stay in a country where I was at least a little bit happy. But I kept my mouth shut and quit, and now I'm home in America - my independence robbed, and living with a father who values God more than his child. I always run away when things get difficult...

 

[jcksonb22]

May I ask how a dui affects you that much? Not trying to put you down or undermine you but unless you were a trucker surely life could carry on easily? I'm not a prolifer just before anyone bites back.

i am an electrical lineman. which requires you to hold a class a commercial drivers license (same as a trucker). due to that i can't work in the trade for 3 years at least. plus it will be on my record for life which is a huge disadvantage. in this line of work i could choose to end my life any second, but i will never choose to go out that way.

 

[Supersadmommy90]

Poor mate selection, twice inbred alienated mom, both fathers have personality disorders

 

[CTB Dream]

Exist this life mistake also not ctb not buy method something long ago, now body brain deterioration stuck life better peace die thn struggle horrible life full suffer horror all continue mistake distraction temporary say have fun all hope wrong wish die before not distract loop same worse suffering. Hope positive everything lie , only die deteriorating wait me, only way ctb escape this

 

[botch3d]

Smoking weed way too young

 

[killmeiwannadie]

forming as myself in my mothers uterus

 

[Made4TV]

Lack of birth control. By my parents. Who then brought me up in a house of trauma. So one of those 2 things.

 

[KQuotientW]

In August 1992, I was offered a lift home by a cop. I had been volunteering at information displays during Missing Persons' Week.

The cop had been working at the same place as part of Missing Persons' Week. I worked (volunteer) the last 2 days of Missing Persons' Week, having to public transport because I didn't have my driver's licence. He said he'd give me a lift home on the last day, at the end of the day.

Instead of driving me directly home, from the south eastern suburbs to the north eastern suburbs, he drove me out to the bush and raped me in his car. I tried to report it but police protect police. I tried reporting it in the 90s, 00s, 10s, last year and this year. In 2012, police unlawfully confiscated my privately owned home because I tried to, again, report the rape.

Meanwhile, the, now former, cop, was kicked out of Victoria Police for sexually assaulting a female colleague and later, after being sacked, ended up on the sex offender register. However, police have continued to bully and harass me, even for years in between my last report. For the female colleague to have been listened to and helped by Vic Pol, she must have been from a policing family. Women, even female officers, get harassed if they report sexual assault from male officers, usually. Female officers don't always get helped unless they have connections.

Even this year, and these local police don't even know him being from an entirely different part of the state, I have been targeted by uniform police because of something that happened in 1992 - 1994. I have a stalker (not an ex, just weirdo) who police do nothing about, despite my court orders, and police target me whenever I report a breach of the order.

I don't blame myself for what that cop did to me, I wish I had never got into his car, though. I'll never be left alone by police.

 

[Sepultura]

That's easy. Not making money earlier in life was by far my biggest mistake

 

[Ashu]

Hard to chose between going to university and getting married, but the first put me in the position to meet totally wrong people, so I guess the first.

 

[Area Man]

Quite a few poor life choices though some of these may be down to mental health conditions I can't do a great deal about. Watching porn on a hacked smartphone takes the biscuit though. And also not taking cybersecurity seriously beforehand or otherwise not caving to temptation though I see succeeding there as having been somewhat unlikely at that point in my life.

Choose what I do, the damage of that mistake follows me around irreversibly. Damaged reputation. Damaged relationships.

 

[Caoine01]

the girl i used for this acount was so pretty

You wish to look like the girl in the picture?

I think that makes you that girl in our midst. I perceived it as a reflection of your personality and accepted it as such without reservation. Today's reality is ephemeral like the fog creatures dancing on the still warm lake on the first cold autumn morning. After we shed our body, your being will transition into this image.

 

[Secrets1]

There's a reasonable chance I'd be here regardless.

Brain injury changed life in a day and I haven't done anything right since except train my service dog. While trying to make the best of life and dragging others down in the process.