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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2024
3,925
To depressed to plan
 
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kilowatt

kilowatt

Odour of Torture
Sep 9, 2023
381
Don't feel like it today, maybe another time
 
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Johnzaga23

Student
Dec 10, 2024
164
Im going to a therapist this afternoon. Then, we'll see.
 
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CravingPeace

It’s only a matter of time
Feb 19, 2025
114
Im going to a therapist this afternoon. Then, we'll see.
Awesome! Let us know how it goes. I have my EMDR therapy this afternoon as well.
 
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ventingfrustrations

ventingfrustrations

Member
Mar 4, 2025
49
Besides lack of supplies, what is stopping you from CTB today? What is keeping you around for another day right now?

For me, it is my dog. He has been here for me through repulsive times and yet he still loves me. I'm afraid of breaking his heart. Still, I find more comfort daily in knowing that I can always leave him with my closest friend if things get too hard for me. I just fear the idea of him wanting me to return when I wouldn't be.

I also don't want to leave my closest friend with thinking he could've done more to save me. He has already done so much to make me feel loved and I don't want him to feel that these things were fruitless. However, if the suffering gets too much, I will have to explain in detail that it's not his fault.
My mom is the only reason i haven't jumped
My mom is the only reason i haven't jumped
I'm literally in so much physical pain every day
 
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Yume Nikki

Yume Nikki

Student
Dec 8, 2024
199
Just hope that I will find love again or a friend group that'll accept me for who I am
 
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Hotsackage

Enlightened
Mar 11, 2019
1,083
Physics, and family
 
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Yume Nikki

Yume Nikki

Student
Dec 8, 2024
199
The smallest hope that my ex will come back and not wanting to destroy my mother. Maybe a couple of months will be enough for that hope to die and for my mom to understand a little bit my reasons to ctb.
This is too real. Moving on from someone you once loved is a huge pain to deal with. I'm in recovery after an attempt, and I'm still trying to figure out what my purpose is after my ex left me.
 
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jonathanjoestar

jonathanjoestar

student
Feb 28, 2025
8
Besides lack of supplies, what is stopping you from CTB today? What is keeping you around for another day right now?

For me, it is my dog. He has been here for me through repulsive times and yet he still loves me. I'm afraid of breaking his heart. Still, I find more comfort daily in knowing that I can always leave him with my closest friend if things get too hard for me. I just fear the idea of him wanting me to return when I wouldn't be.

I also don't want to leave my closest friend with thinking he could've done more to save me. He has already done so much to make me feel loved and I don't want him to feel that these things were fruitless. However, if the suffering gets too much, I will have to explain in detail that it's not his fault.
My student loans, where my brother is the guarantor. I dont want to burden people even after i died. But living itself feels like a burden to others. Im stuck in between.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
12,069
Currently I'm hardly suicidal and there's hope that it get better.
 
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Boots2Scoots

Boots2Scoots

Piece of dirt
Jan 23, 2025
86
the small slice of hope that my life isn't going to go sideways even more than it already has. And monster hunter wilds.
 
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darknesswithin1

Member
Feb 19, 2025
10
Waiting for the apricots kernels to arrive, so only waiting for delivery
 
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_AllCatsAreGrey_

_AllCatsAreGrey_

(they/he)
Mar 4, 2024
622
I'm not actively suicidal. When I am, the thing that keeps me here is my long term partner. We've been together for over a decade. In that time his mom died, leaving him with no family. I don't want to leave him stranded in the world.
 
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sximii

sximii

meow
Dec 4, 2024
150
Lack of supplies and my cats. I love my cats to a degree words can't describe
 
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lemonlotl

lemonlotl

catching the bus (in Minecraft)
Feb 3, 2025
13
My cat. Nobody would take care of her and she doesn't deserve that.
 
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FinalDestiny

FinalDestiny

God’s in his heaven. All’s right with the world.
May 30, 2022
20
Besides lack of supplies, what is stopping you from CTB today? What is keeping you around for another day right now?

For me, it is my dog. He has been here for me through repulsive times and yet he still loves me. I'm afraid of breaking his heart. Still, I find more comfort daily in knowing that I can always leave him with my closest friend if things get too hard for me. I just fear the idea of him wanting me to return when I wouldn't be.

I also don't want to leave my closest friend with thinking he could've done more to save me. He has already done so much to make me feel loved and I don't want him to feel that these things were fruitless. However, if the suffering gets too much, I will have to explain in detail that it's not his fault.
My reason is a bit pathetic. I'm just too scared. 🥲
 
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banger12

banger12

Former nerd; current burden
Aug 1, 2024
260
Finances and fear of my own Cowardice. Fear of getting caught too (once summer rolls around and family starts camping that won't be as much of an issue)
 
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Xta4Love

Student
Dec 25, 2021
106
For me it is my sister and mum. They would be in so much pain. I will just pass my suffering unto them. I have to try. For their sake.
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
3,061
Fear of failure and remaining alive with more brain damage
 
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Kanoh

Member
Dec 31, 2024
30
Strong SI and just fear of dying and I don't want to bring suffering on my mother. If she passes away I will surely go through with it right after.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
1,434
Don't have enough alone time today. Also, I am just too damn tired to do it.
 
opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Eating Disordered Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
1,655
estate logistics. not wanting to be my SO's first Big Death. i've told them this and they said they'd understand if I did though. I have intrusive thoughts of us going out together.
 
Michi_Violeta

Michi_Violeta

Student
Feb 3, 2025
131
Today, not having the pills. I made up my mind yesterday, there's no chance of getting back with my ex so I'll end my life by the end of the month/beginning of the next one. Sadly I haven't been able to find an adequate sedative and I seriously miscalculated the amount of amitriptyline needed. Based on advice from this forum I'm considering now a chlorquine overdose instead of the ami, already got antiemetic (meto, hooray!) and will try to get the chlorquine on Monday.
 
NoHalfMeasures

NoHalfMeasures

You either run from things, or you face them
Aug 20, 2024
54
Part of me feels like it's not my time to die yet. I also don't want to put my boyfriend and family through pain. I care about them so much.
 
AviG

AviG

The trouble with being Born
Oct 15, 2024
6
My shrink. She's brought me closer to my true self than any other attachment figure. But the more authentic I feel, the more I crave CTB.
 

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