Discussion What is stopping you from ctb right this second?

[lukespain22]

What is stopping you from ctb right this second?

 

[nolongerhuman]

I'm literally a month and a half away from graduating university and waiting to finish first gives a sense of finality to it all; plus if I for some reason don't die I won't have to worry about missing classes and dealing with the college and a bunch of other stuff that will make the whole thing even more stressful.

Don't have a day off with extended periods of time alone until a week and a half from now at the earliest.

the antiemetic I ordered just had the shipping label created and it would be easier on me if I could wait long enough for it to arrive.

 

[Its time its time]

Hoping for a miracle to happen before I have to do it.

 

[BigNarkoleptic]

Same, I'm waiting for mine to be delivered.

Where did you get yours?

 

[WornOutLife]

My lack of guts to go for it.

 

[Bedrock48]

I just restocked my fridge man, I'm not letting this food go to waste!

 

[nofutureghost]

my family at home :(

 

[Pen>Sword]

Hard to do, and family loves me unconditionally.

 

[sparkie]

Only arrived recently on here need to do alot more research i dont want to do something that isnt going to work or i balls it up (ive been told im smart but i have little common sense street smarts etc), i need to know quantites for SN for my weight (but not sure if i like this method given some things ive read on here especially the step by step not sure if its as peaceful as advertised but still researching so havent alot of knowledge at presernt) and i also want to find out if being drunk when i ctb will effect the outcome because i really will have to be drunk im too much of a coward to do this sober- but maybe this will change as i read through the posts on the Site

 

[MMB]

Not having the means to do it.

 

[Lady black]

I don't want to be lonely in my last moments and in eternity

 

[Loser47]

With family waiting for opportunity to be alone.

 

[sparkie]

I don't want to be lonely in my last moments and in eternity

Dont understand- we're all lonely in our last moments weather you have friends or family around you or not? And eternity? no one knows what happens when your heartbeat stops for the last time..?

 

[FarAcrossTheWater]

I don't have what I need right now.

 

[Crusader]

I don't have access to a reliable method.

Don´t you find enough infos about reliable methods on this website ?

 

[Trisolaris]

Don´t you find enough infos about reliable methods on this website ?

I have info but I don't have access. I can't buy N or SN and there's nowhere in my house where I can hang myself. Also, I live on the second floor so I can't jump. The only thing I got is a stockpile of benzos but that's not a reliable method.

 

[Crusader]

SN is available. To order N is risky. Carotis method (with tourniquet) is better than hanging and can be done every where.

 

[Gonjoolie]

I made a promise to my friends that I would at least live until the end of this year. At the moment, my ctb date is February 28th 2022

 

[booray]

I have SN, but I have to put my financial affairs in order before I go. It's the responsible thing to do, but I'm finding these things incredibly difficult to do when I can barely motivate myself to get out of bed.

 

[Sensei]

A part of me says, "nothing stops me". The other part says, "there's still hope".

 

[Callie Arcale]

Cowardice. Fear. Survival instinct.

 

[Makko]

I can't bill if I'm dead.

 

[Tkmiz_Tsukumizu]

Waiting for the place I'm going to kill myself to be ready.

The only thing that'd make me delay it is waiting for the stimulus check. Might blow it on drugs, an escort, and a nice meal. I figure I'm killing myself, I'm going to be in non-conscious non-existence for [non-existent state of mind], so you know... haven't had sex in over 12 years, might as well before I off myself.

Otherwise, I have everything set up and ready to go. The conditions why I'm killing myself aren't ever going to change, so I've accepted my death and know there's no "going back" from here.

Good idea. Plan to spend my stimulus on some stuff for family. Finally setup my life insurance for my family I just hope suicide is covered.

 

[worthlessdisaster]

fearing ill fail and have to live with whatever damage it causes. i've been practicing the night night method and hopefully i will be able to go this week. i have nothing and nobody to live for.

 

[FreeAngel]

I don't know

 

[idontwanttobeme]

my family living with me and being terrified of failing

 

[ansiedad]

I'm not strong enough.

 

[HarpoMarx]

Fear and my loved cats

 

[262653]

Nothing this second. I wonder what another second will bring.

 

[Life sucks]

No peaceful and reliable home-made method.

 

[LifeQuitter2018]

1. I don't have SN
2. I currently live with some relatives. I prefer getting a job then hiring my own place before CTB.