Discussion What is one of your "lesser" reasons to wanting to ctb?

[TheGoodGuy]

What is one of your "lesser" reasons to wanting to ctb? I say lesser with quotation signs since no reason to wanting to end one´s life isn´t valid.

Like some of my big ones is my physical and mental health problems but even if I didn´t suffer from these illnesses I would probably want to ctb because I am not beautiful enough, I so envy beautiful people it must feel so amazing to look myself in the mirror and look like Margot Robbie or Henry Cavill instead I look like my yuck!

 

[FuneralCry]

Because I find the human species to be awful in general, and I would say this is a lesser reason as having the ability to exist is the main thing I despise, existence itself is the true problem.

My wish to ctb is mostly because of how it's the only way to escape from all harm in this cruel and meaningless existence rather than reasons directly related to other people. I see it as better to cease existing under all circumstances, I have no interest in existing and only death is desirable.

 

[thebookofdisquiet.]

Cluster B personality disorders being demonized, I'm tired of ignorant people treating me like I deserve hate and pain after learning about my NPD.

 

[USER80709]

I don't want to grow old

 

[NorthernMonkey]

Money/debt

 

[soonatpeace777888]

Hate working and also getting older and losing my looks.

 

[mindless_imp]

The transgender legislation passing through the US at the moment is so debilitating and i cant help but think my home country, the UK, is soon to follow with similar laws. Its so fucking worrying that i might be subject to conversion therapy against my will or even possibly be taken away from my family for being born in the wrong body against my choice. I didnt choose this, if it were a choice, i sure as fucking hell would NOT choose this.

 

[AntHills]

Cluster B personality disorders being demonized, I'm tired of ignorant people treating me like I deserve hate and pain after learning about my NPD.

It's rough. Even psychological health professionals talk about Cluster B's like they're evil and untreatable, despite being more than willing to accept their money for treatment. People think it's okay to spit on somebody for something that is beyond their control, and their behavior is perpetuated and reinforced by the only people who are allowed to diagnose and treat the illness in the first place.

Kudos for being willing to put this out there. I've even seen this type of hatred and trauma projection on SS, which is sad to see for innumerable reasons. I honestly wish all the best for you, and all of the people in your life

 

[JustBreathing]

The constant feeling of not fitting in and not being able to build some real connections to people. Also knowing that I will probably never achieve any of my dreams no matter how hard I try.

 

[Overblot]

I don't fit into the system of society, be it social or economic

 

[thebookofdisquiet.]

It's rough. Even psychological health professionals talk about Cluster B's like they're evil and untreatable, despite being more than willing to accept their money for treatment. People think it's okay to spit on somebody for something that is beyond their control, and their behavior is perpetuated and reinforced by the only people who are allowed to diagnose and treat the illness in the first place.

Kudos for being willing to put this out there. I've even seen this type of hatred and trauma projection on SS, which is sad to see for innumerable reasons. I honestly wish all the best for you, and all of the people in your life

Thank you so much for your understanding words, I'm definitely not used to hearing (well, reading) them when talking about my disorder!

I lost count of how many times I read "narcissistic" here being used to describe just another abusive asshole, no diagnosis involved, just pure hate and disrespect when generalizing and using the word as an insult.

I wish the best for you too, your kindness made my night!

 

[NorthernMonkey]

The transgender legislation passing through the US at the moment is so debilitating and i cant help but think my home country, the UK, is soon to follow with similar laws. Its so fucking worrying that i might be subject to conversion therapy against my will or even possibly be taken away from my family for being born in the wrong body against my choice. I didnt choose this, if it were a choice, i sure as fucking hell would NOT choose this.

That isn't going to happen in the UK