What is one change that will make you not suicidal?

[JakeFlake]

As above...

 

[CrossroadsCurious]

If these "poll" threads from questionable newbies stopped being made, that would lower my urge to ctb!

 

[Lalari!!]

Go back in time

 

[Circles]

Not being so alone all the time. Or maybe if my back and knees weren't so bad.

 

[summers]

Dying in an accident.

 

[Depressed hamster]

Having my normal body back from before I got sick but that's not going to happen.
Or a time machine.

 

[.............]

If someone gave me a latte right now?

 

[corvoscuro]

Having my normal body back from before I got sick but that's not going to happen.
Or a time machine.

This basically.
Not having these health conditions that caused me permanent damage while not killing me and slowly consuming me.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Technology that puts me in a cis-female's body or reverses time and makes me born the opposite sex.

 

[Weebster]

If my autoimmune disease/acid reflux disappeared, I would be totally fine with enduring the rest of my life

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

If ALL of my chronic gi issues went away forever, so - no more pain and nausea, etc, and if I had my own income/place to live (i.e. could work so I could be independent) I would be ok with living with my slew of other problems

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

Luxury cars are outlawed under a regime where a doctor has to measure your penis before you buy it . If under a certain size not allowed to buy

Could make a huge difference in sustainability

 

[Weebster]

Luxury cars are outlawed under a regime where a doctor has to measure your penis before you buy it . If under a certain size not allowed to buy

Could make a huge difference in sustainability

I could buy them all then

I was well-endowed by the creator with an inalienable penis

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

I could buy them all then

That's good. A law like this would make sure everyone knew what the score is and weed out the angry guys you often see driving a luxury car

 

[pikku.tiikeri]

My dead girlfriend coming back to life

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

My dead girlfriend coming back to life

Very sad RIP

 

[☆AwaitingEntropy☆]

Not being born.

To answer seriously, If I'd been born with enough money to seek help and not have to worry about the cost of just existing - that might have helped, a bit? But at this point, I can't imagine a life free of suicidal thoughts, money or no.

 

[zombiekitty]

Being born in a not toxic family

 

[SKDN]

going back in time too...

 

[ShepherdOfMyself]

Living in a society that wasn't crumbling around me every day. It's not just the current state of the world; it's the trends we've been seeing for decades that have made it feel damn near impossible for me to see any outcome beyond collapse. I can't bear to be around for that.

 

[High on Disco]

About $500k

 

[again_noidea]

Living in a society that wasn't crumbling around me every day. It's not just the current state of the world; it's the trends we've been seeing for decades that have made it feel damn near impossible for me to see any outcome beyond collapse. I can't bear to be around for that.

it is really i weird situation. everything is crumbling and most people act as if nothing is happening. also, it seems, that no one wants to face the situation. Well, what goes up must come down. i would love to know the right move now, because they say: never let a crisis go to waste. If i had money, i would buy land and make myself a little more independent.

 

[FuneralCry]

Nothing could ever make me not suicidal, being suicidal is who I am, I could never want to live no matter what and I simply do not want to exist in a world where there is so much suffering anyway. I am not meant for this world and I prefer the sound of non existence, nothing can hurt me when I am dead. Life is so pointless and unnecessary but at the same time so awful.

 

[ShepherdOfMyself]

it is really i weird situation. everything is crumbling and most people act as if nothing is happening. also, it seems, that no one wants to face the situation. Well, what goes up must come down. i would love to know the right move now, because they say: never let a crisis go to waste. If i had money, i would buy land and make myself a little more independent.

Yeah. The irony is that up until a few months ago, I was seriously considering survivalism as an option- stocking up on food and water, finding a low-key place that wouldn't suffer from major catastrophes, learning how to grow my own food, etc. Ultimately though, I realized I was gambling whatever time I have left on getting a few more years out of life- years that I almost certainly wouldn't enjoy- before the Reaper came anyway. Better to get in a little living now and then CTB'ing before shit gets really worse.

 

[again_noidea]

Yeah. The irony is that up until a few months ago, I was seriously considering survivalism as an option- stocking up on food and water, finding a low-key place that wouldn't suffer from major catastrophes, learning how to grow my own food, etc. Ultimately though, I realized I was gambling whatever time I have left on getting a few more years out of life- years that I almost certainly wouldn't enjoy- before the Reaper came anyway. Better to get in a little living now and then CTB'ing before shit gets really worse.

I hat similar thoughts, but something changed. i had a strange "vision" that showed me that i have a certain responsibility towards life. I somehow got the message, that it is childish to just give up, because we don't live for us alone. I felt, that we have a responsibility towards humanity in general. In short, the message was: life is no joke, you better find a way to fulfill your responsibilities.... well, i don't know what i should do with this vision. i try to find money, i try to be responsible towards the people i encounter, i try to speak the truth. but i'm basically a looser, and i don't see how i can fulfill my responsibilities. i can take drugs and maybe find a fling on tinder... well....

 

[outrider567]

Bringing my girlfriend back to life

 

[ReallyTired]

I wish I could go back in time and redo my life.
Stupid lies I believed for way too long
Too many mistakes

 

[outrider567]

If my autoimmune disease/acid reflux disappeared, I would be totally fine with enduring the rest of my life

Yeah,I had bad acid reflux from 2000 thru 2003---Then it went away after I lost weight and stopped eating pizza and chocolate--Been sleeping on raised bed since

 

[ShepherdOfMyself]

I hat similar thoughts, but something changed. i had a strange "vision" that showed me that i have a certain responsibility towards life. I somehow got the message, that it is childish to just give up, because we don't live for us alone. I felt, that we have a responsibility towards humanity in general. In short, the message was: life is no joke, you better find a way to fulfill your responsibilities.... well, i don't know what i should do with this vision. i try to find money, i try to be responsible towards the people i encounter, i try to speak the truth. but i'm basically a looser, and i don't see how i can fulfill my responsibilities. i can take drugs and maybe find a fling on tinder... well....

I really admire your view, and I wish I had the courage to stick around to do some good. I will say that I'm planning to donate blood, do some volunteer work, and donate to charity in the final months I have- the stuff that can alleviate some of the misery in this world we have. Maybe that's what you could try, as well? Those little things really do count.

 

[again_noidea]

I really admire your view, and I wish I had the courage to stick around to do some good. I will say that I'm planning to donate blood, do some volunteer work, and donate to charity in the final months I have- the stuff that can alleviate some of the misery in this world we have. Maybe that's what you could try, as well? Those little things really do count.

hmmm, thats a good idea, i might try something like that. the thing i'm trying to do now is to help older people with their life (cooking, cleaning their apartment and so on). And i help a family with the authorities (they immigrated into my country, I'm lifing in europe). I also try to act responsible towards the people i encounter every day. But the hardest part is, to be respectful towards myself. That means taking myself seriously and not looking at myself cynical. The thing is, that i felt a weird responsibility for our civilization, i mean someone has to fight for our freedom and for our safety, there are so many people who are weaker than us, even though i'm really weak myself. I don't know, it was strange. Since then, i don't feel that i have "the right" to kill myself. it is just difficult, because i know nobody who is able to see that our civilisation goes down and is willing to sacrifice some comfort. either they already have a family and are within a more or less functioning community (mainly in villages or small towns) or they just want to ride the wave of consumerism until hell breaks loose. so, what is your plan for the next 5 years?