What is one change that will make you not suicidal?

[crowlonely]

Go back in time, just it.

 

[CommitSudoku]

Not being born.

 

[suicidoll]

Being able to go back in time and redo life with the knowledge I have now.

 

[Weebster]

Yeah,I had bad acid reflux from 2000 thru 2003---Then it went away after I lost weight and stopped eating pizza and chocolate--Been sleeping on raised bed since

I eat food that should resolve it but nothing. I have a wedge but it doesn't do shit. I think I have multiple things wrong

 

[amygdala]

Being cis would be a good start.

 

[voyager98]

If I had a gf. That's all it would take. I know I'm not good enough to ever get one though.

 

[followingfate]

money for sure.
and probably a normally functioning brain.

 

[outrider567]

I eat food that should resolve it but nothing. I have a wedge but it doesn't do shit. I think I have multiple things wrong

I put about a foot high pile of books underneath----I used to take Prilosec back in the early 2000's because of the nausea each morning,then stopped it in 2004 as I gradually got better--It was nice eating Pizza again after 4 years

 

[may13]

Time travel.

Everything that's gone wrong in my life can all be traced back to finishing a work project early and getting bumped up to an earlier flight 12 years ago. If I had been on any other flight, or even seated in a different row. Fuck, if they hadn't been out of Sprite I wouldn't have made that Mitch Hedburg joke and we'd have likely never started talking. We'd have never gone on that first date. We'd have never had an amazing child together. We'd have never gotten married. I would never endured years of the emotional and psychological abuse that comes with living with someone who adamantly refused to seek help for their mental health opportunities. I would have walked away from the severe alcoholism and self medicating. There wouldn't have been that amazing child to protect from it. I would have never given up an amazing career to be home every day. Her affair wouldn't have happened. My decision to not try to reconcile wouldn't have happened. Her vengeance for that wouldn't have happened. The PTSD wouldn't have happened. The eventual evolution into PTSD/BPD comorbidity wouldn't have happened. Me facing 20 years in prison for a wildly inaccurate claim of home invasion when trying to remove my son from a situation where she was making clear threats to harm herself wouldn't have happened. Me not being able to see my son (at least outside of prison), who is the center of my universe, for close to a year now and potentially the next 20 would never have happened.

Fucking butterfly effect, right?

Why did they have to be out of Sprite at that particular moment?

 

[Weebster]

I put about a foot high pile of books underneath----I used to take Prilosec back in the early 2000's because of the nausea each morning,then stopped it in 2004 as I gradually got better--It was nice eating Pizza again after 4 years

My bed is a queen. I wouldn't know how to do what you did

 

[outrider567]

My bed is a queen. I wouldn't know how to do what you did

I possess a full bed, still wouldn't lift it myself--Someone strong has to lift the bed for you, and hold it while you put the books underneath--A neighbor of mine helped me out with this

 

[its-about-time]

Full brain transplant. I might settle with frontal lobe lobotomy for awhile though.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

It all went wrong at infancy … never been secure or confident enough to handle reality

 

[locked*n*loaded]

If my autoimmune disease/acid reflux disappeared, I would be totally fine with enduring the rest of my life

As I too know all too well, there is no cure for the autoimmune disease. There are effective treatments for the GERD, though. The treatments, along with a MAJOR diet change, got rid of my GERD.

 

[Weebster]

As I too know all too well, there is no cure for the autoimmune disease. There are effective treatments for the GERD, though. The treatments, along with a MAJOR diet change, got rid of my GERD.

I only eat a variation of Cheerios that has no sugar and I still have this mucusy cough. It's not working.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I only eat a variation of Cheerios that has no sugar and I still have this mucusy cough. It's not working.

I'm talking about real food. Not processed. Cereal is processed food. Plain food with no seasonings. No salt, no pepper, no anything. I eat potatoes, carrots, green beans, and organic chicken. Every day. Only boiled potatoes, and boiled carrots and boiled green beans. I use a small amount of unsalted butter. That's it. I eat these same food every day and have for the past 17 or 18 years. It's fucking tiring, I admit. It is doable. And yes, raise the head of your bed up. Don't eat right before you go to bed. I took the medication for about 7 or 8 years. Then I made the changes to my diet and worked my way off the medication. Oh, yeah, I also, eat a plain vanilla probiotic yogurt every day about a couple hours before I go to bed. You can eat non-acidic fruits, too, like bananas and such. I don't eat out in restaurants, nor do I eat take-out food.

 

[DerTod]

LOVE.Finding someone like me that would get me and accept me as i am.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

LOVE.Finding someone like me that would get me and accept me as i am.

Yeah, if I did, I might be tethered to this world still. Might be good for me, idk.

 

[Message In A Bottle]

Perhaps maybe if I was born a twin. That way by birth, I would've never been destined to be alone. We would conquer all our hardships together, one by one - maybe then the world wouldn't feel so empty - since I'd have my other half right by my side.

 

[Toonloon]

Not being born.

 

[_Seeking]

Lacking the ability to feel physical pain.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

My cliche answer is to say that I'd just need a girlfriend but the real answer is probably the even stupider and more cliche "love yourself" crap. Luckily for me that's never going to happen and I'm going to make things so much better by CTB'ing.

 

[motel rooms]

 

[Weebster]

I'm talking about real food. Not processed. Cereal is processed food. Plain food with no seasonings. No salt, no pepper, no anything. I eat potatoes, carrots, green beans, and organic chicken. Every day. Only boiled potatoes, and boiled carrots and boiled green beans. I use a small amount of unsalted butter. That's it. I eat these same food every day and have for the past 17 or 18 years. It's fucking tiring, I admit. It is doable. And yes, raise the head of your bed up. Don't eat right before you go to bed. I took the medication for about 7 or 8 years. Then I made the changes to my diet and worked my way off the medication. Oh, yeah, I also, eat a plain vanilla probiotic yogurt every day about a couple hours before I go to bed. You can eat non-acidic fruits, too, like bananas and such. I don't eat out in restaurants, nor do I eat take-out food.

I don't really have access to a kitchen where I live but i appreciate your advice. So far I'm considering acid reflux surgery. Is that a bad idea?

 

[Apathy's Girl]

I'm hoping ketamine treatments. I start this upcoming Tuesday. The clinic said it could be life changing and I might actually (finally) not be depressed anymore. They said I should be able to notice a difference after one or two sessions but it is a series of six with a maintenance dose every couple of months. I'm trying not to feel too optimistic about it because I don't want to get let down if it doesn't work.

 

[Weebster]

I'm hoping ketamine treatments. I start this upcoming Tuesday. The clinic said it could be life changing and I might actually (finally) not be depressed anymore. They said I should be able to notice a difference after one or two sessions but it is a series of six with a maintenance dose every couple of months. I'm trying not to feel too optimistic about it because I don't want to get let down if it doesn't work.

You must have a lot of money. No insurance covers that treatment and needing a booster every while is expensive.

 

[western_heart]

I have no idea. If I knew what that change would be I would put energy into pursuing it.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I don't really have access to a kitchen where I live but i appreciate your advice. So far I'm considering acid reflux surgery. Is that a bad idea?

Not sure. Never considered it. I feel the least medications you take, and the least you go under their knives, the better off you are. Sounds sort of stupid, though, huh, coming from someone on SS who is planning on offing themselves sometime in the future. I made the changes I made because I was sick and tired of suffering. I don't like pain and I don't like suffering. Call me a coward or whatever. I don't care.

 

[FalseStart]

Technology that puts me in a cis-female's body or reverses time and makes me born the opposite sex.

yeah

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Death