Story What is love?

[walkingcorpse13]

Baby don't hurt me don't hurt me no more
Joked aside as I'm approaching my time contemplating I have never know love I was brought to this earth by a mistake nobody in my family knew what to do with me as my real dad tried to kill my mom and she wanted to party more as a young mom so I was often tossed around without parents so I knew I was brought up by obligation and with my grandma passing who actually loved me my family show thier ugly side then comes my love life I was a troubled preteen who loved someone much older than me(basically pedo)but she took advantage of that and when I met her again much later in life recently she told me she never loved me that tore me apart she was keeping me sane and at that point I genuinely felt happy but after the breakup I just couldn't feel genuine joy/happiness anymore got betrayed by a close friend for almost a decade over money so honestly I'm left with nothing

 

[cosmic-realism]

I am so sorry that happened to you.The need to be chosen for once in your life for who you are,not what you can do for someone,is the driving force behind love.

 

[walkingcorpse13]

Thanks back when I was 14 I confessed my love to her then when she accepted and stole my first kiss I felt vivid that 1 person was able to genuinely love me without any obligations or pity but well it was all a lie when she told me it was just a panic response

 

[_D_]

It's alright. Not everyone experiences love. You might be able to find some if you stick around, but really, it's alright. Even if someone comes to love you, you might be unable to love them back because of the way you ended up. I'm sorry about that.