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somiseriously

somiseriously

Sol Invictus
Apr 28, 2026
10
If you're not dead yet why are still here? Or what was the reason you lived for before u became like this.
 
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Aknu132

Aknu132

Tenha um bom dia!
Dec 25, 2023
95
If you're not dead yet why are still here? Or what was the reason you lived for before u became like this.
Survival Instinct. Since 12 i want to CTB but my survival instinct it's very high, so i keep getting tortured by life to this day, now i have 21 years old, but i need to find a way to kms.
 
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Bishop

Student
Mar 24, 2024
109
Because dying is too hard.
 
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morina

morina

Member
Apr 11, 2026
64
Cowardice, nothing else
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,357
fear of failing and remaining ALIVE but with more brain and body damage .

because they made all painless guaranteed suicide methods like Nembutal , Sarco suicide pod , me hiring someone to shoot me in the head 10x into crimes

all we have access to are risky diy suicide methods for which we have no real extensive data and experiments becuase they censored all that too .

and you have to defeat si , do it in secret , not be found etc to hide from the ER because the ER creeps will bring you back to life with brain damage
 
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Wishingfordeath

Wishingfordeath

Life for me is just one long bitter night
Apr 8, 2026
31
I don't have any effective methods.
 
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Bitterly_Nostalgic

Bitterly_Nostalgic

to me, my x-men
Apr 8, 2026
46
The love I have for my pets and family, especially my father and sibling. We're close, I know they love and support me, and the thought of hurting them by making a successful attempt is awful. I at least owe them and myself one more try at getting better, so for now, I live.
 
extremelyugly

extremelyugly

Member
May 6, 2026
10
I don't have any effective methods.
This exactly for me as well. In this piece of trash country, you're locked in living if you're not "normal", which coincidentally would make any ways of CTB for those who are meaningless. Piece of trash country. Did I say I hate my country?
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,296
Coward and have some hope to maybe things will get better or I just cant seem to end it.

Plus I cant hurt the people around me
 
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ScaredPossum

ScaredPossum

Member
May 6, 2026
18
I'm staying alive for my friends. A part of me also hangs on to see if I can get an artpiece into a gallery before I leave :')
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,405
Obligation. Not wanting to hurt loved ones via my suicide.
 

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