Brother

[alyakujou]

It's always been like this. He's always been prettier. Always been more popular. I feel like I'm nothing else but part of his shadow. He has a PHD on medicine. He still goes out with his childhood friends. Girls swoon over him so I know he doesn't date by choice. By the way, we're twins. We never fought. We never argued. We never helped each other. Our relationship was always more like coworkers than family. And yet, he got all of the good genes. He gets to be 6'2, he has a naturally athletic body and sharp jawline and overall much better everything than I do. He is the main source of all my problems. He's the main reason I think about killing myself. I'll probably delete this later, because I sound insane and jealous. But I know he has some part in what went wrong.

 

[alyakujou]

It's always been like this. He's always been prettier. Always been more popular. I feel like I'm nothing else but part of his shadow. He has a PHD on medicine. He still goes out with his childhood friends. Girls swoon over him so I know he doesn't date by choice. By the way, we're twins. We never fought. We never argued. We never helped each other. Our relationship was always more like coworkers than family. And yet, he got all of the good genes. He gets to be 6'2, he has a naturally athletic body and sharp jawline and overall much better everything than I do. He is the main source of all my problems. He's the main reason I think about killing myself. I'll probably delete this later, because I sound insane and jealous. But I know he has some part in what went wrong.

I also believe he doesn't hate me, which makes it feel so much worse. He doesn't know. He doesn't know anything, because he just happened to ruin my life by being my brother. He's never going to know.

I also believe he doesn't hate me, which makes it feel so much worse. He doesn't know. He doesn't know anything, because he just happened to ruin my life by being my brother. He's never going to know.

I can't stand to look at him anymore. He's a walking reminder of what I could've been if I had part of those genes. If we were identical twins. There was a chance he could've had my father's genes instead, and develop the hereditary depression. It could have been him typing this.