Venting What if I need urgent help?

[Jamesun]

Hi, well I just want to vent for a while.
Lately I've been having a horrible time; I live with constant uncertainty, an anxiety that's always there, that never leaves me and that makes me have suicidal thoughts. I really need help. Every day it gets harder and harder. I can't even work because of the constant anxiety. I wish it would go away, that it would disappear once and for all.
I don't think I can live with her anymore, and I just want help. I want someone to listen to me and help me, but I always get the same thing: go out and distract yourself, work and that will take it away, or just say it will go away later. If that would help, I would have used it already. I just want help. What do I have to do to get it? I'm so tired of ending up in the hospital after a suicide attempt. I just want things to get better.
It seems like life hates me. What can I do to get help, to make this anxiety go away once and for all? If I could, I would even accept being in a psychiatric hospital if that would help.
Sorry, I just wanted to vent, and thanks for reading.

 

[meowpuppy]

your only option is basically going to a psych hospital, unfortunately..

 

[Jamesun]

your only option is basically going to a psych hospital, unfortunately..

I would like to, but it's not very accessible, especially without money.

 

[meowpuppy]

I would like to, but it's not very accessible, especially without money.

are you already on psych meds? do you want to change that?

 

[Jamesun]

are you already on psych meds? do you want to change that?

I should take medication, but as I said, it's difficult without health insurance or money.

 

[meowpuppy]

I should take medication, but as I said, it's difficult without health insurance or money.

if you're really without money in that sense, then unfortunately there might be little help for you.. you might just have to distract yourself.. sorry..

 

[Jamesun]

if you're really without money in that sense, then unfortunately there might be little help for you.. you might just have to distract yourself.. sorry..

I know, unfortunately I have to live in a horrible place, although I really want help.

 

[bagel12]

I would like to, but it's not very accessible, especially without money.

in my area, psychiatric hospitals provide financial assistance to people without insurance, is this an option for you?

in my area i believe it is also legally required for emergency rooms to take in people who are dealing with mental health situations, even if they cannot pay, is this true in your area?

otherwise, perhaps there is a free hotline in your country or region that could help you find free or low cost options to get help. for example in my area there are free government run centers and free community mental health programs (at least i believe they were free for my friend who didnt have insurance)

 

[Jamesun]

in my area, psychiatric hospitals provide financial assistance to people without insurance, is this an option for you?

in my area i believe it is also legally required for emergency rooms to take in people who are dealing with mental health situations, even if they cannot pay, is this true in your area?

otherwise, perhaps there is a free hotline in your country or region that could help you find free or low cost options to get help. for example in my area there are free government run centers and free community mental health programs

Perhaps calling a helpline would be a good option. Unfortunately, I live in a country where free access to mental health support services is a bit complicated.
I'll try it anyway, thanks for the suggestion. I also thought about calling 911, although I don't know if they can help.

 

[bagel12]

Perhaps calling a helpline would be a good option. Unfortunately, I live in a country where free access to mental health support services is a bit complicated.
I'll try it anyway, thanks for the suggestion. I also thought about calling 911, although I don't know if they can help.

i think your best bet might be a hotline because they might know about resources or facilities that you aren't aware of, or they might know about policies that would help cover the cost.

is there anyone you trust to watch over you to keep you physically safe?

in my area, someone with mental health issues can get a free case worker/social worker who can help find free mental health programs, a friend of mine did this and it helped them a lot.

if you are urgently in danger i think it is best to go to the hospital. money can be earned and payment plans can be made after the fact. your life is worth more than any amount of money. when money is gone there are ways to earn more, but when a life is gone there are no options left.

 

[Jamesun]

i think your best bet might be a hotline because they might know about resources or facilities that you aren't aware of, or they might know about policies that would help cover the cost.

is there anyone you trust to watch over you to keep you physically safe?

in my area, someone with mental health issues can get a free case worker/social worker who can help find free mental health programs, a friend of mine did this and it helped them a lot.

if you are urgently in danger i think it is best to go to the hospital. money can be earned and payment plans can be made after the fact. your life is worth more than any amount of money. when money is gone there are ways to earn more, but when a life is gone there are no options left.

I have a friend who can take care of me and help me, although in my country there's no such thing as social workers if I remember correctly. I'll investigate if I'm wrong; I'll call a helpline and look into it.
I know I want to live, although money worries me a little, but I think I want to live more than money matters to me.

 

[bagel12]

I have a friend who can take care of me and help me, although in my country there's no such thing as social workers if I remember correctly. I'll investigate if I'm wrong; I'll call a helpline and look into it.
I know I want to live, although money worries me a little, but I think I want to live more than money matters to me.

i am very glad to hear you have a friend who can take care of you! when i have helped take care of a friend, i tried to remove everything they could use to harm themselves, would your friend by able to do this?

this friend and i also came to an agreement that if they felt that they were in immediate danger to ctb, (like they thought they'd try to ctb within the next couple days), they would immediately admit themselves to a psychiatric hospital, would something like this be doable for you?

another idea, perhaps if there is an online community for your area (like on reddit), you could post there and ask if anyone knows of free or affordable psychiatric hospitals in your area without insurance, or other free/low cost places for mental health help.

i hope that the hotline helps, good luck!

 

[Jamesun]

i am very glad to hear you have a friend who can take care of you! when i have helped take care of a friend, i tried to remove everything they could use to harm themselves, would your friend by able to do this?

this friend and i also came to an agreement that if they felt that they were in immediate danger to ctb, (like they thought they'd try to ctb within the next couple days), they would immediately admit themselves to a psychiatric hospital, would something like this be doable for you?

another idea, perhaps if there is an online community for your area (like on reddit), you could post there and ask if anyone knows of free or affordable psychiatric hospitals in your area without insurance, or other free/low cost places for mental health help.

i hope that the hotline helps, good luck!

I think I could do it, I might even go back to live with him. I've been feeling a bit unwell, so I've been staying at his house for a few weeks, although it feels wrong to be in someone else's house without contributing anything. I could come back for a few more weeks, although as I said, the idea of not being useful bothers me a bit. I also think I could go to a hospital, in any case.
I don't think I've seen any Reddit groups for my city, although I have seen them on Facebook, which could be a place to look. However, after some searching, I think I've found an alternative. Apparently there's a free mental health and addiction treatment center in my state, but it's a bit far away.
Seriously, thank you for the advice, I really appreciate it.

 

[bagel12]

I think I could do it, I might even go back to live with him. I've been feeling a bit unwell, so I've been staying at his house for a few weeks, although it feels wrong to be in someone else's house without contributing anything. I could come back for a few more weeks, although as I said, the idea of not being useful bothers me a bit. I also think I could go to a hospital, in any case.
I don't think I've seen any Reddit groups for my city, although I have seen them on Facebook, which could be a place to look. However, after some searching, I think I've found an alternative. Apparently there's a free mental health and addiction treatment center in my state, but it's a bit far away.
Seriously, thank you for the advice, I really appreciate it.

i think it would be a good idea to talk to him, on the phone or face to face, about what you've said here. for me, if my friend is having a tough time with their mental health, i want them to tell me about it so that i can help support them, he likely feels the same way. if he is ok with you coming back, maybe you could do household chores or cook, so that you feel like you're contributing. of course at a hospital, they cook the meals for you, even if the meals don't taste good

asking on facebook is a good idea! also, it's great that you've found a free mental health center in your state! that sounds like a very good option.

i am so glad to hear that you have a few different options to consider for getting help :) and i'm very happy that my advice was helpful! i wish you the best of luck, take care