Venting what even am i

[thedevilwithin]

i've accomplished nothing. i've done nothing with my life. i rot away in my room every single day. no ambition, no motivation, no will to do fucking anything. my life has been mistake after fucking mistake and i'm tired. i have nothing going for me. i'm hideous and broke. what the fuck man. i have never received a compliment in my life, not a single time. not even a smile. that still breaks me inside but at least i understand why now. i am worthless, i don't deserve pity or sympathy. i'm glad i pushed everyone away, i'm glad i'm always alone.. no one deserves to be around the disgusting failure i am.

i wish i had a gun right now. i would not hesitate to blow my head off. fuck this life.