Discussion What emotion are you most looking forward to being rid of?

[Forever Sleep]

I felt inspired after reading @Ambivalent1 's thread about losing the ability to regret after CTB.

What emotion has plagued you throughout your life that you can't wait to be rid of?

I think it's obligation for me- at the moment anyhow. Although- loss is probably worse in intensity. Yeah- maybe loss and then obligation.

I think obligation can trigger other things like resentment, tedium and guilt. I can't wait not to feel obligated to do anything. Work, clean, remember people's birthdays, just generally live and act like you're grateful for it. I think that sense of calmness I feel around death is the absence of feeling obligated to do stuff! I guess I'm just lazy.

But yeah- loss is the worst. I can't wait to not be able to lose anything else. Life's cruel if it gives you anything because it fully intends to take it away most likely.

How about you?

 

[winamp]

loneliness, disappointment, frustration, and fear

 

[Kasumi]

definitely fear, I feel that by now sadness is just a part of myself, I wouldn't be myself without it anymore, other things I can find ways to deal with but fear is just such a crippling thing.

 

[Doombox]

The grind of anxiety. I agree about loss, too.

 

[FuneralCry]

Dread, I think. I always dread what lies ahead as I fear existence, I fear what suffering will be experienced in the future. There's just no peace in this world, there's no escape from ourselves and the torture that is consciousness. The only relief lies in finally leaving behind everything and being free from this burden, I find it tiring simply just existing here, it sounds like perfection to be unaware for all eternity.

 

[physics]

anxiety because that's one of the only emotions left I guess

 

[sulli]

jealousy, especially the bpd variety that has ruined all my most important relationships

 

[Kta1994]

Helplessness

 

[SetMeFree11]

Guilt regret and loneliness

 

[mapleboy]

Heartbreak is the most painful thing for me right now.

 

[whitherrvbound]

Feeling of pursuit. I always felt like i was missing things needed to be everywhere all at once overwhelmed by possibilities etc. A bit like Lacans objet petit a. Never meant to catch it.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Wow- it's really interesting... most people have cited something different. Wasn't really expecting that. It's interesting most people haven't said sadness- maybe we all just accept that as part of the course.

 

[The anhedonic one]

Loneliness is the worst emotion for me.
It's soul crushing.

 

[IndyAna]

guilt and shame.

 

[savoytruffle]

ANXIETY, im so tired of it

 

[StolenLife]

Paranoia.

 

[oh_no191]

Fear or anxiety

 

[fivestyles]

Anxiety, it's literally been 2/3rds of my life now. Imagine what it could have been like with other emotions in it's place.

 

[Green Destiny]

Self-Awareness. Seriously being self-aware really sucks. And Anger.

 

[ghost44]

Loneliness and loss.

 

[publicschoolgrad]

Anger, guilt, resentment, and hopelessness

 

[pettyqueen]

Shame. 2nd in line: guilt

 

[Unending]

The feeling that is always accompanied by the thought, "Oh shit, I'm in a fucking horror house for the next several decades with no way out!!"
I think that one would be dread.

 

[Suicidе]

Guilt, anger, and fear.

 

[sensation86]

Extreme fear and extreme anxiety

 

[Lawliet]

regret

 

[acerace]

Loneliness and self hate.

 

[jazzcat]

feeling misunderstood, loneliness, envy and shame

 

[kunikuzushi]

loneliness is probably the main reason I want to die. and jealousy also feels like I'm being stabbed repeatedly. it's just torture

 

[CutMyLip]

Never being good enough. I hate always feeling the need to improve, feeling that if I don't spend every waking moment bettering myself physically or mentally then I'm lazy and disgusting. I'm perpetually exhausted, but I cannot relax without feeling guilty about it. When I die that is the only time I'll ever be able to let myself rest.