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flkywch

flkywch

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Jan 19, 2025
34
so it seems most people are stuck inside pain in their head. but what does it actually feel like for you? feel free to use metaphors
for me it feels like im trapped inside a 1cmx1cm box pushing on the sides and my head is getting compressed and theres nothing i can do to get out.
then like a spiral of negative emotions that keep tripping each other until its unbearable
 
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Seaghost

Seaghost

Specialist
Apr 14, 2019
394
Sometimes it feels like unbreakable glass which has centimetres of thickness between.my and the environment.
Sometimes the colors of the world has gone.
Sometimes I am in a cage and the walls gettin higher and higher.
Sometimes I am feeling so empty and nothing can fill it.
Sometimes I am standing in front of tasks and I am not able to start with it.

And more and more there's a cruel fatigue which stays longer and longer with every illness relapse.

And sometimes it's all of that together in combination with physical pain.
 
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Withered

Withered

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Apr 9, 2025
89
It feels like my lungs are crushed and like I'm always about to fall asleep.
 
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flkywch

flkywch

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Jan 19, 2025
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Sometimes it feels like unbreakable glass which has centimetres of thickness between.my and the environment.
Sometimes the colors of the world has gone.
Sometimes I am in a cage and the walls gettin higher and higher.
Sometimes I am feeling so empty and nothing can fill it.
Sometimes I am standing in front of tasks and I am not able to start with it.

And more and more there's a cruel fatigue which stays longer and longer with every illness relapse.

And sometimes it's all of that together in combination with physical pain.
the colors of the world being gone is a feeling i relate to all too well
 
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dddaaangxl

dddaaangxl

cracked under the pressure
Feb 9, 2025
9
for me i have a cycle of negative thoughts, then finding a spark of hope, only for it to be crushed- strengthening my negative thoughts. i think it's mostly external struggles combined with the fact that everything sets me off for some reason.

how it feels though is like being at the bottom of the ocean, exposed, drowning, and crushed under the pressure of it all- and when you start to accept your fate that things will never get better, you see the rays of light from the surface reminding you of what you could have if you just tried harder. so then you try to swim to the surface only to be knocked back down by the currents. then you're back where you started and wondering if it's still worth it to even try at all.
 
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loser4ever4life

Student
Apr 10, 2025
121
It's a whirlwind of emotions that overwhelm me. Mainly negative. It brings me to tears. I go from feeling nothing at all, being a husk of myself, to someone who utterly hates himself. The worst part is that it takes from me my memory and concentration, I used to be someone who prided themselves on their mind but it has been robbed of me, I can't focus or recall such simple information

Edit: To be clear, this sometime causes me to have physical pain, like a dull headache, if not outright symptoms such as dry heaving or anxiety driven shaking across my whole body
 
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flkywch

flkywch

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Jan 19, 2025
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for me i have a cycle of negative thoughts, then finding a spark of hope, only for it to be crushed- strengthening my negative thoughts. i think it's mostly external struggles combined with the fact that everything sets me off for some reason.

how it feels though is like being at the bottom of the ocean, exposed, drowning, and crushed under the pressure of it all- and when you start to accept your fate that things will never get better, you see the rays of light from the surface reminding you of what you could have if you just tried harder. so then you try to swim to the surface only to be knocked back down by the currents. then you're back where you started and wondering if it's still worth it to even try at all.
ye this is a rly good methaphor for what i feel, thanks for sharing. i hope u feel anything at all that makes u feel better
It's a whirlwind of emotions that overwhelm me. Mainly negative. It brings me to tears. I go from feeling nothing at all, being a husk of myself, to someone who utterly hates himself. The worst part is that it takes from me my memory and concentration, I used to be someone who prided themselves on their mind but it has been robbed of me, I can't focus or recall such simple information
i used to b rly smart as well , that suckjs. hugs for u
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Warlock
Mar 15, 2025
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Always in flames, burning, searing pain beyond feeling
Head smashed to bits
Knives cutting deeply, all over
Dragged over broken glass and razor blades
Wicked monsters shredding and devouring from inside
Naked in public and everyone laughing or throwing up in disgust
Torrents of warm smelly blood pouring out
Falling down an endless tunnel with nothing to grasp except blades
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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For me the pain is as a result of existence and I always find it so painful to exist, to me just being conscious in this cruel, torturous existence is the most painful burden and I suffer simply from existing, just existing is enough to make me wish for the peace of an eternal sleep and I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence I personally always saw as the most terrible mistake just destined to decay and die anyway. To me existence itself really is an abomination that just causes harm and suffering and I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather all I wish for is non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten, I find it so horrific how a human can suffer for so long in this existence with no limit as to how much agony they can feel just to be tortured by old age.
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotional unstable like and IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
617
For me it feels like a Rollercoaster of emotions that I can't get off

Or a real annoying roommate telling me that I should die but I cant make em leave.

In extreme sadness - like really heavy chains around my wrist that I can't lift

And If if do feel a ray of hope only to be shattered by glass by people not understanding by my own invalidating

Masking my emotions like smiling under a deep hurricane of depression. Idk how to express it
 
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anonymouswebuser

anonymouswebuser

edgy attention seeker
Feb 27, 2025
96
Intense Suffocation
that's it, that's how it feels
 

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