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disabledsuicidegirl

disabledsuicidegirl

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Mar 3, 2021
72
Now, I myself am an Agnostic Pagan Witch, so I don't believe in the whole original Heaven theory but I do believe all religions are valid because we as humans made them up. In my spirituality, I believe past lives and an afterlife can be possible but I also know it could be nothing at all, just a different form of energy maybe or giving back to the Earth. But then I think of that quote from the film "The Green Mile", where the inmate explains what he wishes his afterlife to be and it got me thinking, what if we got to chose our afterlife? Kinda like lucid dreaming as an example, where you control what happens, if you even want an afterlife or not. My dream 'Heaven' would be that I could for one have the experience of walking and if I did, some days I'd wanna be a kid again and know what it's like to play on a jungle gym. I'd wanna recreate the good memories of my mom and I. Then the next day I'd wanna be the age I am now, walking or not, it doesn't matter, and finally be with my bf who doesn't have to deal with OCD anymore. Maybe somedays I'd want us to meet as kids because that's how close we feel to one another, like we've known each other our whole lives...we haven't but in my 'Heaven' we have. Irl, my bf and I met as writing partners on fb, we'd pretend to be different characters from our fav movies, so one day in 'Heaven' I'd want us to wake up as our characters and do whatever the hell we wanted with no consequences. Somedays I'd still want us to be ourselves, writing together side by side, or going on adventures. And we'd never have a sad or hard day. Maybe we'd even get married. But then the next day I'd wanna be a kid just playing with my mama, just switch it up each day for eternity. I know it's wishful thinking, but who knows, we may can control our afterlives. Or be nothing at all, and that sounds good too. But if we knew for sure that we could chose....what would be YOUR 'Heaven'?
 
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diyCTB

Mage
Oct 28, 2018
573
My heaven would be complete utopia, a place without suffering where I would be able to do things I love and be with my mom because she's the only person who has been there for me my entire life and I am still here for. If nothingness was an option I would still choose it over my heaven.

I hope there is no soul evolution like on this graph (illustrated by channeler Rob Gauthier) because it would mean reincarnations. Maybe 4th density has no suffering part to it but ascending to that density implies 500 earth reincarnations.

Densities and dimensions
 
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TooConscious

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2020
1,151
I hate the entirity of existence for the suffering it's caused me and the way it made a joke out of it trivialising Buddhism 'life is suffering Bro, WICKED! "
Its such a cruel, pety, sick patronising corrupt in just game.

Absolutely nothing is what I want than to be trapped in existence by evil.
 
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disabledsuicidegirl

disabledsuicidegirl

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Mar 3, 2021
72
My heaven would be complete utopia, a place without suffering where I would be able to do things I love and be with my mom because she's the only person who has been there for me my entire life and I am still here for. If nothingness was an option I would still choose it over my heaven.

I hope there is no soul evolution like on this graph (illustrated by channeler Rob Gauthier) because it would mean reincarnations. Maybe 4th density has no suffering part to it but ascending to that density implies 500 earth reincarnations.

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that chart actually sounds pretty dope but that's the witchy side of me coming out and i'm high lol cause yeah who's to say this next life would be any better or worse? fuck that
 
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LenkaX

LenkaX

Maybe there is a hope!
Aug 14, 2020
366
My heaven would be to be reincarnated as an alpha male with perfect genetics and to have lots of women.

The exact opposite of what I'm suffering now.
 
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deepinlimbo

deepinlimbo

I want to Insert something profound here
May 30, 2021
146
Mine would be to relive my life (that's more like hell for many on here) but just so I could do things differently, assuming there is a way of knowing what I would do differently. It's one long pipe of a dream I'm staring down. I think it looks like it's as long as the channel tunnel
 
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it's_all_a_game

it's_all_a_game

I remember...death in the afternoon...
Nov 7, 2020
356
I no longer believe in Heaven (or Hell, for that matter), but my ideal afterlife would be the ability to live inside a multiverse where you can jump inside any fictional story you want. I'd live inside my favourite childhood books and video games from the 70's and 90's.
 
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Largeletters

Alone
Jan 21, 2020
640
If there is Heaven or some sort of Afterlife, I hope it isn't like this. I really don't want it to be this way. I hope when I CTB, I get to see my deceased family members and my three childhood dogs that passed. Seeing some deceased celebrities might be nice too.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,591
Just nothingness for me. That is what I want. I won't have any awareness of anything, I will be in an eternal sleep. I dislike the idea of reincarnation or any afterlife. I just want no more existence in any form.
 
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diyCTB

Mage
Oct 28, 2018
573
@Largeletters I heard archons take shape of loved ones to deceive you into entering white light to make you reincarnate. I don't know if white light is a crossover gate. Anyway if these things are interesting you can research more.
 
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Largeletters

Alone
Jan 21, 2020
640
@Largeletters I heard archons take shape of loved ones to deceive you into entering white light to make you reincarnate. I don't know if white light is a crossover gate. Anyway if these things are interesting you can research more.
I actually know what you're talking about, though I haven't heard the decievement part. Hopefully this won't happen.
 
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diyCTB

Mage
Oct 28, 2018
573
I no longer believe in Heaven (or Hell, for that matter), but my ideal afterlife would be the ability to live inside a multiverse where you can jump inside any fictional story you want. I'd live inside my favourite childhood books and video games from the 70's and 90's.
Like in a movie The Thirteenth Floor?
 
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Bedrock48

Bedrock48

Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
Feb 1, 2021
540
Eternal peace and happiness. I'd get to see all my friends, relatives and pets that have passed on. All the joy I could never find on Earth. We would have parties and eat food together without worry or care. I'd also love to give Jesus a massive hug upon entering the afterlife. A quote from a favourite (religious) song that fills me with a lot of joy and hope for an afterlife:

"I can only imagine
Surrounded by Your glory
What will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you Jesus
Or in awe of You be still?
Will I stand in your presence
Or to my knees, will I fall?
Will I sing hallelujah?
Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine, yeah"


2nd best would be no afterlife, just eternal nothingness.
 
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Brianiskillingme

Brianiskillingme

Slowly Dying Inside
Jan 18, 2022
148
Peace. Be surrounded by animals. mainly birds. I want a sexy body with long legs.
 
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Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
2,487
My heaven would be complete utopia, a place without suffering where I would be able to do things I love and be with my mom because she's the only person who has been there for me my entire life and I am still here for. If nothingness was an option I would still choose it over my heaven.

I hope there is no soul evolution like on this graph (illustrated by channeler Rob Gauthier) because it would mean reincarnations. Maybe 4th density has no suffering part to it but ascending to that density implies 500 earth reincarnations.

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These are all densities you can experience while in form.
 
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watchingthewheels

Enlightened
Jan 23, 2021
1,415
Flying towards never-ending sunsets with various qualities of light and shade, accompanied by the bestest music ever.
 
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downndone2

Living in misery
Jan 23, 2022
1,270
I lost my best friend at 12yrs old in a car accident, to spend out an eternity with him and all of my lost dogs doing the things we loved best would be amazing. Of course I want to see my family members and other friends who have passed, but to be reunited my best friend who blew me kisses on the playground in grade school taken tragically way to soon, would mean the world to me. I keep a picture of him by my bed still
 
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diyCTB

Mage
Oct 28, 2018
573
@downndone2 Have you ever heard about white light that human soul crosses over after body dies?
 
NotSureToEndure

NotSureToEndure

Professor of not a lot
Aug 17, 2020
114
I'd like a modest beachside house with a recording studio in it that I can access at any time. There would naturally be all the instruments you can think of in there, plus a magic cupboard which had access to any random bits of hardware I wanted to try.

A big kitchen to cook in would be sick too. Also I'd like this beachside house to be on a quiet stretch without too many neighbours, but I wouldn't mind abit of civilization near by.

What would be really cool is if there was a permanent settlement nearby full of performance venues, nice restaurants and just interesting spaces to explore. There would basically be a constant stream of bands, stand up, theatre and other cool stuff.. Imagine Boomtown Festival but all the time.

I like my solitude but I like knowing there's something fun going on nearby if I want to let loose. Sometimes it's nice just to watch this sort of thing from a distance too.

Obviously the weather would be a sweet 25-30c year round and it would only rain at night time when I'm sleeping as it's nice to drift off to the sound.

I would have unlimited access to drugs and herbs and my body would not be negatively affected by the use of anything.

High speed Internet would be good, and all my aches and pains and digestive issues would all dissappear.

Oh yeah and i forgot I'd also like a mountain nearby for hiking, cycling and skiing. Maybe a lake too 😅

Ahh... Is this heaven? Take me there please!
 
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MyStateKilledMe

Arcanist
Apr 23, 2020
463
Around age 6, when I first became suicidal, I thought of heaven as being the same as what today's pro-lifers describe the Rainbow Bridge or the Garden of Eden: a beautiful, comfortable place full of delicious fruit trees to eat from and friendly animals to play with.

When I got older, I started thinking of heaven as an abstract location, vaguely resembling Switzerland in terms of government politics, but basically a place where I'm simply LEFT ALONE, with nobody telling me what to do, and having like-minded people for company.

Today. I really, truly don't care if I go to heaven or not. I could even go to the stereotypical Christian hell for CTB'ing, the one with the lake of fire and the pitchfork-wielding Satan, and it'd still be better than anything I experienced when I was alive.
 
TheExpression

TheExpression

Member
Mar 11, 2022
17
I want it to be a place that somehow cures my mental health and anxiety issues. But preferably, i wouldn't want there to be an afterlife at all. The idea of simply ceasing to exist is the most pleasant to me, even if it has something melancholic attached to it. If the body and mind somehow turn out to be two seperate things, i'm not sure why mental instability would suddenly disappear in the afterlife.
 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
sexy cats GIF by South Park
 
September5th

September5th

You can get better. But the choice is always ours.
May 17, 2022
244
I don't fear neither heaven nor hell. That's because I'm pretty sure these are more than places. They're states of being. I've been through both heaven and hell before. I'm in hell right now.
If I could ask for anything, it would be peace. I want to lay down and be fine again. Perhaps see her again. Or not exist at all. Just peace...
 
Lullaby

Lullaby

🌙
Mar 9, 2022
682
My heaven would be just a super peaceful open, green area, with a huge lake I could sit in front of with my cat. Then whenever I wanted to, I could just replay moments in my life that brought me happiness, no matter how brief they were.

I'd be pretty content with doing that for eternity.
 
Zzzzz

Zzzzz

Nothing compares to the bliss of death.
Aug 8, 2018
879
Just a feeling of happiness and no physical pain. That would be heaven enough for me.
 
Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
Heaven would be a dinner party with delicious food and really interesting people
 
jimmy7754

jimmy7754

I just want to be myself again
Dec 15, 2021
508
I hate the entirity of existence for the suffering it's caused me and the way it made a joke out of it trivialising Buddhism 'life is suffering Bro, WICKED! "
Its such a cruel, pety, sick patronising corrupt in just game.

Absolutely nothing is what I want than to be trapped in existence by evil.
Here here!
 
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mojabaka

Student
Apr 20, 2022
100
I just want a fair world. Why do I have to be disabled for life by a vaccine, while pedophiles, murderers and other scum get to live happy lives? Also Pfizer CEO gets a bonus of 100 million USD meanwhile I lost my job and everything due to him and his idiot employees. Fuck this life and this world.
 
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ultraviolet

Member
May 3, 2022
24
Just a sunny, tropical beach resort where I can spend my life relaxing without suffering.
 

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