Discussion What do you specifically hate about yourself?

[Dr Iron Arc]

I appreciate your blunt honesty. You're obviously not completely a lost cause. A completely narcissistic person would never admit this about themselves. You have self awareness.

Most evil people describe themselves as good or a victim. You are not.

I highly suggest you seek therapy, you may be surprised how well it can work. It's not just for insane people or people with PTSD or Bipolar, it can help people with terrible self esteem, like you have.

Good luck man.

I hate how I have so much self awareness and yet am still too lazy and inept to do anything meaningful about it.

I guess I'm a unique flavor of evil, the kind that stands back and let's evil happen as long as it benefits me. The kind that doesn't care if they're evil just because I'm too lazy to come up with some self serving justification for it.

I hate myself for being seemingly immune to therapy because I've been to therapy before and it's never been substantially helpful. I hate that I probably do have something undiagnosed like anxiety or ptsd or autism or BPD but I just don't care enough to want to solve any of these. I hate how my lack of self esteem can sometimes inadvertently trick people into thinking I must actually be worthy of love and respect just because I don't exude the aura of a typical narcissist. I hate how I'm unable to properly communicate just how evil and cruel I truly am.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

Social anxiety
Doom spiraling
Not being able to live in the moment

 

[divinemistress36]

Social anxiety
Doom spiraling
Not being able to live in the moment

I'm jealous of people who are able to live in the moment

 

[F@#$]

I hate myself because
I'm a waste body.
I run away from my responsibilities.
I watch a lot of po*n.
I'm addicted to my phone.
I run away from my problems.
I'm useless
I don't have courage.
I look ugly.
I can't talk properly.
I'm childish
I'm not mature.
I'm afraid
I take unnecessary tension
I'm stupid
I'm not smart.
I'm totally trash.

This also applies to me,additionally I drink too much, smoke alot of dope, drive/ride too fast and recklessly, I really fucked that one chic over pretty bad.ok more than one. I don't make enough money I'm sure there's more.

 

[sserafim]

I don't think I hate myself, I hate the world instead (as well as other people)

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't think I hate myself, I hate the world instead (as well as other people)

Same

 

[greebo6]

Being ugly, being stupid and failing abysmally at life in general .

 

[MrsNobody]

I hate having Borderline Personality Disorder and Bipolar and severe anxiety. It fucked up my personality and I'm always exhausted by what's going on inside.

 

[Final_Choice]

All the illnesses and disabilities I inherited from my parents, though I don't really hate myself.

 

[fleshgarden]

I hate that I was only brought into this world to be abused and thrown away. in myself, I hate that I depend on my talents but I'm talentless. I hate that I can't talk to others, either that I'm not verbal or that everything I say is flawed and I wish I never spoke at all ( I can't talk the way that I feel inside if that make sense). I hate that I'll never feel real, and everything will always feel fake to me. I hate that I have so many useless issues and it just annoys everyone and makes them never want to see me again. I hate that I will never be important to anyone, and trying is useless because I'll just be forgotten in the end. I hate how empty my life is. I hate how much I fuck up everything. I hate that I can't maintain any friendships and it's my fault. I hate how I act and I have to die before I get any older because I physically couldn't function in this society. I'm so scared. I hate that I'm scared.. I hate that my life is just me sabotaging myself and wanting to die. I'm the reason I can't be happy

 

[Ethernatuskoi]

Everything. My appearance, my inability to do things, my lack of motivation... Anyway, I don't like being who I am and I would like to disappear as soon as possible

 

[Argo]

I don't hate anything about myself, but I also don't really identify with anything about myself as being "me" in some strong sense either. I realize I have traits that are negative, a number of flaws, but it just doesn't make sense to hate any of those things.

There's stuff about us that seems negative but actually isn't, because we or society are confused about what is worth disliking.

So for example... maybe... someone hates the fact that they talk a certain way that seems weird or unpleasant to most people. They got a negative response from the world about that, and internalized that and began disliking it. But... that's just narrow and not that meaningful. What if you time traveled to ancient Mesopotamia and everyone couldn't stand you because of some quirk that no one else had? Would that mean anything? No, right? They're just kinda clueless, from some arbitrary ancient year, what could they know about what good and bad even mean? I see the current world identically to that, except you just shift the year a tiny bit forward.

A truly good species would be able to look past things like that and not need everyone to fit in with how they speak. Features like that which we have, we can form a negative attitude towards if we strongly identify with that feature as being "us", then we'll "hate ourselves"-- but that just seems confused

Then there's the stuff about us that is probably worth disliking, but is reasonable to think can be improved. Let's say we're judgemental or have bad intentions or we beat ourselves up. It's possible to change those attitudes. We know that for sure because people have transformed before away from those states. So what does hate/a strong persistent dislike do there? All it does is solidify the trait and make it harder to change. Instead of actually realizing that I don't want this trait, I'll just be sitting there believing that is who I am, and hating that thing. It often prevents improvement.

And then the last version is stuff we can't change about ourselves-- again, hate just makes no sense there either, whatever the thing is(how we grew up/our history, how we look to an extent, etc) if it can't be changed then hating it is just pointless self-torture. I think pretty much all of these things are actually in the first category where it's just confused to hate yourself or someone for things outside of their control

 

[wasted_years]

Honestly it's hard to choose, because there's a lot, but it's probably my body. My face, my weight, my genitals, my skin color, the whole package basically.

 

[celestialsloth]

The ease with which I've hurt people and then feel the gall to feel guilty about it without changing myself.

 

[dogbreath]

I hate that I have social anxiety and don't know how to interact with people normally. I hate that i have no ambition, that i know im broken and i need to change but im too lazy to change. I hate that im a coward and run away from basically everything. I hate that I broke up with my ex because now he'll never come back to me and I'll never find anyone else cause I'm isolated and ugly.

 

[watchdog]

I hate my body, my weight, how I look, my morality and my personality. I'm currently in a relationship right now and I'm like 100% sure all this is gonna fuck it up.

 

[Naked Weapon]

I. A cocktail of mental illnesses that make me destructive for everyone, everything, and, of course, myself.
II. Body. An ED and gender dysmorphia have left me wanting to flay my way out of my skin.
III. My inability to forget painful memories.

 

[wondering&wandering]

If I said out loud what I hate about myself, I'll just have people dogpile me or get banned.

If it helps, you can PM me about it. I would say I have an idea of how you feel. I too, feel there are some things I can't just say about myself for fear of being shunned or ridiculed.

So again, if it's worth anything to you, feel free to PM me.

 

[perfumeonmyneck]

I hate the way that I can't move myself on from events that have happened.
I hate how I crave attention to the point I get called a whore.
I hate the way my brain works and how I've acted towards the people close to me.
I hate being alone and the feeling of emptiness in my heart and brain.
I hate that I actually am a horrible person and that I ever convinced myself I was the opposite.

 

[BlessedBeTheFlame]

If it helps, you can PM me about it. I would say I have an idea of how you feel. I too, feel there are some things I can't just say about myself for fear of being shunned or ridiculed.

So again, if it's worth anything to you, feel free to PM me.

Why do all of you think you know me so well as to cure of me? All you will do is talk me back into accepting myself, like everyone else. You probably know too what I was talking about. And as if I wasn't ratted out before. No, I will off myself and that'll be it and you knew that too.

 

[wondering&wandering]

Why do all of you think you know me so well as to cure of me? All you will do is talk me back into accepting myself, like everyone else. You probably know too what I was talking about. And as if I wasn't ratted out before. No, I will off myself and that'll be it and you knew that too.

No one said anything about a cure or talking you into anything. In case I wasn't clear it was about being heard, understood, and not alone.

Again, if it's worth anything to you feel free to PM me. If it's worth nothing to you please don't think you have engage. This is a world of personal choices. Don't take my personal choice of talking to you so personally.

 

[TapeMachine]

What I hate most is my inept brain.
More specifically:

- my inadequate long and short term memory (which greatly offends family and friends, because they convince themselves I just don't care enough to remember.)

- perpetual boredom once novelty subsides (this mostly happens with jobs, hobbies, & education.) I go from *obsessed* to *apathetic*, and I fucking hate it.

- the neverending quest for mental stimulation...
while simultaneously feeling over-stimulated by all of the uncontrollable noise and textures and bright lights and smells around me (which is why I often choose to just stay home, because at least I can control all or most of those elements in my home.)

- inability to plan for the future, because the passing of time bewilders me. I have an incredibly poor grasp on time.

And the list goes on and on, but I'm going to stop here because I've already grown bored of writing this.