Discussion What do you specifically hate about yourself?

[lotheb_5drop]

I was going to put some odd sunk-cost fallacy question, but I realized that I hate the dumbass way I process shit in my own head sometimes.

 

[Tokugawa_Yoshinobu]

The laziness and not being able to get out of my comfort zone

 

[wait.what]

I don't hate myself. I hate chronic physical and mental pain, the way society seems to be unspooling, and the way some people treat me as a member of a fashionable-to-hate minority.

 

[silent.desperation]

My massive penis and my compulsive lying

 

[divinemistress36]

My inability to control my emotions, memory issues, and cognitive issues

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't hate myself. I believe that I deserve peace and compassion in the form of permanent non existence. I hate existence for being so cruel to me and making me suffer immensely

 

[xhelx]

My social anxiety

 

[consider]

Complain instead of making changes in life.

 

[Shinei]

I hate myself because
I'm a waste body.
I run away from my responsibilities.
I watch a lot of po*n.
I'm addicted to my phone.
I run away from my problems.
I'm useless
I don't have courage.
I look ugly.
I can't talk properly.
I'm childish
I'm not mature.
I'm afraid
I take unnecessary tension
I'm stupid
I'm not smart.
I'm totally trash.

 

[tbroken]

My bad luck and the fact i cannot fix things.

 

[The Schizoid]

I don't really hate myself tbh, I just don't feel good.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I hate how I'm an evil, pathetic, cowardly, selfish, loser, virgin incel. I also hate how I look, how I sound, and even how I walk. I hate myself for hating myself. I hate myself for sabotaging myself and for being alive.

 

[whywere]

Having my emotions all over the place, really draining at times.

Walter

 

[ctbcat]

Hm, shallow shit first & then actual shit... I hate my body - it's skinny but so pudgy cause I never exercise enough, and I hate my face shape, too fucking square... I can't tell if my lips are too small for my nose or my nose is too big for my lips... I hate my thighs. I always have. Okay. And then... I hate how avoidant I am. I hate how slothful I am. I hate how I can't let myself need people, how I close into myself. I hate that I'm some stupid fucking hybristophile... I hate how I overexert myself in some shitty attempt of being funny... I hate my loneliness... I hate my innate sensitiveness... I hate more, but I've got to go.

 

[The Schizoid]

I hate how I'm an evil, pathetic, cowardly, selfish, loser, virgin incel. I also hate how I look, how I sound, and even how I walk. I hate myself for hating myself. I hate myself for sabotaging myself and for being alive.

I appreciate your blunt honesty. You're obviously not completely a lost cause. A completely narcissistic person would never admit this about themselves. You have self awareness.

Most evil people describe themselves as good or a victim. You are not.

I highly suggest you seek therapy, you may be surprised how well it can work. It's not just for insane people or people with PTSD or Bipolar, it can help people with terrible self esteem, like you have.

Good luck man.

 

[Z-A]

One thing I hate about myself is the fact that I'm still here.

 

[AbsurdAbyss]

I kill myself alive when I know I'm better off dead.

 

[hikikomorizombie]

the #1 thing i prob h8 the most abt myself is that i'm me.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I hate my appearance, my personality, my inability to do anything right, my lack of intelligence, and basically everything about myself. I don't really have any good or redeeming qualities...

 

[indignity]

overthinking the most meaningless things. All the time. I don't get to do shit because of it.

 

[Aim]

Basically everything, except the fact that I do love to help and make the people that I care about happy. Like putting them before myself. But other then that I don't like anything about myself.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't, I just hate existence and the fact that it was so cruelly imposed in the first place. For me existence itself truly is the ultimate problem, I find it tragic how something so repulsive and harmful as life even exists at all causing so much endless suffering and cruelty as a result.

In my case I want to cease existing as having the ability to exist is completely undesirable in every way possible, for me suicide is suffering prevention which is why I certainly hate how in this disgusting, evil world there is the absence of peaceful ways to reliably die for all. I hate how humans wish to force others to suffer so unnecessarily no matter what, I hate how there is no acceptance towards suicide.

 

[parallelluniverse]

I hate how I used to be happy with most things (content) but now nothing really surprises me. I hate how I think '...this is all the same, different face, different accent, similar story, people, things we do, we're all so... samey'... I hate how I meet people who have joy and focus on what's around them and I just sit and feel unhappy cause of things that went wrong and how life doesn't feel inspiring anymore. I hate the monotony, I hate how I'll have a job at some point which is what I will do for decades until I retire... I hate that I'll be alone... I hate that I feel like this... I hate this about myself... I hate that I haven't met the right person... I hate that I'm not very interested anymore... I hate that I'm critical to people but insist it's needed to get a job done really well (I should just let them be happy in their swelling self contentedness)... I hate how I made the wrong decisions when I was 20, specifically with an EX, I hate that I was stupid and didn't know what to do... I hate that I was ignorant... I hate that I was helpless... I hate that that's what I was...

These days, I hate that I don't feel passionate about anything... except maybe pizza... I hate that playing music and drinking and getting paid wasn't what life was all about for me with a partner with 3 children that weren't mine.... I hate that I have disengaged from my studies because I'm unhappy... I hate that I'm alone... I hate that I don't feel inspiration anymore... I hate myself the most for not being able to just be happy but the thing is... along the way... some things make you happy, but the package is wrong (the person you doing it with might be narcissistic or have low self-esteem and ignore you)... I hate that I can't ignore others and just do what I want to be happy... I hate myself for not being able to control it all... I hate myself for not having a partner who understands me and loves me for me... I hate that I don't know what's loveable about me...

I have hate. And some kind of non-existential existence to find out if I can change these things by thinking about them for what will feel like an eternity in my mind where nothing seems to materialise, except thoughts.... I don't know how long it will take...

Good question. Thanks for the thread... I learnt some things here.

PEACE, BIG UP, ONE LOVE (and whatever fucking else toots your fancy) XX

 

[lotheb_5drop]

My massive penis and my compulsive lying

That's gang shit ngl

 

[Shar]

pretty much everything, but my lack of talent is the main one.

 

[LunarCharm]

how much I love my ex, right now.
But other than that, I dislike how I look, from my nose to my hair, to my body type. I am underweight and can never find clothes that truly fit unless they are an xs size but those sizes change depending on brand; and due to my height I struggle there too. (I am average height/considered kind of tall))
I hate my art, I hate my work ethic, I am lazy, I can't get out of bed, I can't eat well, I just can't enjoy anything I used to enjoy.
I resent myself.

 

[CouldaHvBeenARock]

messed up my best luck first attempt
sharing with my parents evidence of my mental illness

 

[BlessedBeTheFlame]

If I said out loud what I hate about myself, I'll just have people dogpile me or get banned.

 

[lostmind38]

I hate that feel empty inside, that I can't show love and affection, that I feel that everything is my fault. I hate that I can't get motivated to do anything meaningful and even simple tasks are a struggle.

 

[theboy]

not being able to get ahead