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AntisocialGG

Member
Sep 28, 2025
26
Personally i hate me and the self destructive action / patterns i have, i know i can change it but most of the time i don't wan't to and it's confusing.
I also hate the things that appear constant in my life: people i don't even like (family mostly), crimes, ...
 
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Ashu

Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
935
Self-unawareness, dishonesty.
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
506
My primary school classmates.
 
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kitkat9234

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
477
Myself.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,346
Psychiatry, pharmaceutical companies
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
554
Myself, aggressive pro-life policies, unfairness,... The list goes on
 
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Spectre

Spectre

I am serious about not taking things seriously
Nov 27, 2023
316
I'd post a list but there's a chance they'd find it and know I killed myself, and I don't want them to have that satisfaction.
 
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Hystearical

Hystearical

In tears
Jul 23, 2022
4,942
Being alive, at least as myself
 
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SomewhereAlongThe

SomewhereAlongThe

Goodbye everyone <3
May 17, 2024
466
I hate that life is like a race, and we're all competing for certain aspects of life. Good genes, a good environment, etc. It's not fair because some of us cannot run that race, because we lost out earlier on. It's not just one race, you're running multiple races your whole damn life. I hate that things must be unfair. People must be prettier or smarter than you are.
 
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AntisocialGG

Member
Sep 28, 2025
26
have you not had to deal with them before ? 🤨
For me it's not that hard, it's true i was taking an antidepressive (duloxetine) and it didn't work, only had some side effects but wasn't really making me feel better. In fact, i got hospitalized because i informed some of my friends the type of thoughts i was going through. There they changed the medication to an SSRI (citalopram 30mg) aripiprazole (antipsychotic) and lorazepam (benzodiazepine). Had some trouble getting used to aripiprazole, so i stoped taking it. Weeks later i got a dangerous episode with marijuana that honestly felt good. I lost all consciousness for 10 minutes aprox. After this i decided to CTB and somehow i thought it would be better to do it with SSRI withdrawal symptoms. Yeah that didn't went good aswell, still fighting the withdrawal symptoms tho. but i just need to take those and i'll be "fine" (or at least i won't be in a roller coaster of emotions and anxiety).
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,346
I hate that life is like a race, and we're all competing for certain aspects of life. Good genes, a good environment, etc. It's not fair because some of us cannot run that race, because we lost out earlier on. It's not just one race, you're running multiple races your whole damn life. I hate that things must be unfair. People must be prettier or smarter than you are.
A race that nobody wins in the end.
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
11,257
Myself
Life
Struggling to survive
People who fucked me over because they could. 🤬🤬🤬🤬
 
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LoverofAnimals

Giver of Hugs
Sep 20, 2025
185
What I hate the most is disloyalty. Other than that, animal cruelty, dishonesty, injustice, judgemental people, ignorance, over-confidence, pain and myself. Can go on and on.
 
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MissAbyss

Member
Jul 20, 2025
585
What I hate the most is disloyalty. Other than that, animal cruelty, dishonesty, injustice, judgemental people, ignorance, over-confidence, pain and myself. Can go on and on.
This all above ⬆️ And much more..
 
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telekon

telekon

Arcanist
Feb 5, 2025
404
Interesting. Can i know why ?
i can answer this one. i was actually writing a book that i was getting peer-reviewed by some psychiatrists i met at a conference. at one point during the conference, someone asked one of the leading psychiatrists what they thought of psychiatry and she just took the microphone and said "It's a crock." everyone laughed. it was a conference about nutrition because nutrition, sunlight and healthy relationships will do hundreds of times more good than any psychiatric ward, which systematically deprives you of everything you need to have a healthy mind.

ever heard of the Rosenham experiment? 12 different psychiatric facilities were tested as completely sane individuals were sent to them, and not a single hospital DIDN'T identify them as insane and keep them locked up in the facility. this was published in the news and the same facilities wanted "another try" so the experimenters said okay. they identified 42 people they assumed to be sane as part of the experiment, and during that time, no one was sent.

did you know less than a quarter of them have psychology degree? they have no idea how to talk to people or have empathy. and their medicines will permanently fry your brain. psychiatrists will gaslight you and poison you and make you believe you have some incurable illness that they made up. it's all nonsense. even schizophrenia is curable with proper nutrition. linus pauling discovered that in 1973 and the research was buried to make room for olanzipine.
 
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bipolar22

bipolar22

Notorious shtposter
Aug 31, 2022
388
The sunrise. Stomach issues.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,382
myself
 
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Grimlock

Grimlock

21st Century Subpar Man
Aug 7, 2025
99
I hate that life is like a race, and we're all competing for certain aspects of life. Good genes, a good environment, etc. It's not fair because some of us cannot run that race, because we lost out earlier on. It's not just one race, you're running multiple races your whole damn life. I hate that things must be unfair. People must be prettier or smarter than you are.
The race eventually just becomes a struggle to not fall behind rather than to actually pull ahead. I really hate the constant hyper competition that's present in so many aspects of life.
 
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badatparties

badatparties

Elementalist
Mar 16, 2025
814
Existence as we currently know it.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,354
I hate all the expectations dumped on us. Starting with the expectation to live- no matter how we experience life, no matter how bad it gets, no matter what we want. Moving on to the expectation that we should also pay for this shit. So- we need to work- obviously. But, we also need to spare the time to see our families and care for them if needed.

The ideal is that we should want to do all of the above- for ourselves but, if we don't- it's tough. It will still be expected anyway. I hate the expectation that we should put up with any of it.
 
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Haematemesis

Haematemesis

Student
Jan 12, 2025
190
Nothing other than myself. I might project my self-hatred to other people from time to time but deep within it's just me and myself.
 
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Anonymousa

Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
2,395
Myself (in terms of my desire for human connection and how that can lead to me hurting others cus of my intense emotions as well as the emotional pain onto myself), my parents for creating and trapping me in this life, pro lifers, awful people who do awful things (i would include myself in there), existence.
 
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rainatthebusstop

rainatthebusstop

feel free to kill me
Aug 20, 2025
214
Humanity. Humanity as a whole and how it fails itself whenever given the option. I think that there's no greater pointless evil than mankind, the system it built to coexist, the way it fails its weakest, its poorest and its unworthiest without even sparring it the dignity to die peacefully.
How every human being will step on its other, weaker, hoping someone else is more miserable, someone else is being crushed more by the heels of those on top.

I hate how I can't seem to find the strength to kill myself. I hate how I am here, every day, living like a subpar knick knack no one had the good grace to throw out.

I hate being lied to.
I hate how society perpetuates the lie of exceptionality, that every snowflake is special, and that success is just a smidge of luck and hard work away. We are all interchangeable at the end of the day.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,177
I hate existing in this dreadful, horrific anti-suicide world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, existence to me really is an abomination and I'll always see existence as the most terrible mistake that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away.

I hate how this dreadful, torturous existence was imposed at all causing all this harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always find it so torturous to exist, for me non-existence is just the only relief and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake that I never would had chosen.
 
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