Discussion What Do You Hate More: The World or Yourself?

[DeIetedUser4739]

Years ago I wanted to ctb because I hated myself but now I don't anymore.

I really hate the world and life in general, it's like humans weren't made for this world.

 

[derpyderpins]

Myself. The world simply 'is,' I'm the one who's incompatible. I know I'd sound cooler and smarter if I said that the world is wrong and I'm right but that doesn't really add up.

 

[Ash]

I don't hate the world at all. Myself, I do hate myself.

 

[Darkover]

i don't think i hate myself but i wish i had better social skills but this universe is shit because it's so slow it took 3.5 billion years of evolution to get this point and we are using up all the resources rapidly within 200 years there be nothing left unless we get out into space and bring resources back to earth

 

[timetodie24]

Myself. The world isn't the problem , I am .

 

[Cruelhearted]

That's a tough one, I hate myself for the things I've allowed to happen. That went unnoticed for so long to bring me to the point of wanting ctb.
I hate the world because people just suck. Look a certain way, act a certain, dress a certain way or just go away.

I mean, I guess with my next year older approaching, the things I'm starting to realize and see, does wisdom come with age? That's cruel in itself.

The world and people make it hard to be happy. If you're not happy, they make it hard to ctb and force you to live in unhappiness. Where is the compassion in either of those?

 

[Mebius]

I didnt do shit lol, why would i hate myself

 

[redeeming_butterfly]

I hate the world, not everything, but a lot and especially the foundations. I hate the food chain, I hate pain, I hate chance, I hate pain, I hate natural disasters, I hate pain, I hate accidents, I hate pain, I hate wars, I hate pain, I hate lies, I hate pain, I hate hopelessness, I hate pain, I hate that death has no acceptance. Most of all I hate the ability to feel pain.
I hate humans and I hate that we have invisible thoughts. I would be willing to think my thoughts openly, no matter what I am thinking.
I don't hate myself. I only hate my pain and my inability. I can cope well on my own. I am alone because I feel lonely in company.

 

[HarryCobean]

I definitely hate the world more. I mean, I do actually want to live, really - just not in this world.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I hate the world and other people. I don't hate myself. There isn't a single reason as for why I should hate myself. Yes, I am flawed but so is everybody else. Additionally, I never asked to be born and I never asked to be the way I am so I shouldn't hate myself for it. Of course I don't like certain parts of my autism but I never asked to be autistic hence I don't hate myself for it. There isn't a single rational reason for me to hate myself. However, listing all the reasons why I hate the world and other people is such a big topic to where it deserves a post of its own

 

[alltoomuch2]

myself. I can't find a single good thing about me. And nor can anyone else. Saying that, Some bits of the world I hate. Like Rishi Sunak and the others who talk about people with mental health problems as lazy, weak, scrounging parasites. But I'm horrible and useless too.

 

[lollblanca]

both of em but slightly more of myself. Yes I might be the real problem not the world

 

[Enga]

Yes.

 

[Dark Window]

I don't hate the world, it is what it is.

I don't even hate myself because the reasons I have for wanting to CTB are just mental and physical health problems.

 

[LifeIsBS]

I definitely hate the world more. I mean, I do actually want to live, really - just not in this world.

same :<

 

[sserafim]

The world, duh. I love myself and hate other people, humanity and the world. I especially hate society and capitalism. This world is inherently exploitative and predatory, and people will have to become slaves to the system just to survive. They will have to work away their whole lives just to afford to exist. I hate the systems and structures that this world was built upon. How can no one else see that this is not a way to live and that it's evil? Working to survive is not a life, it's just an existence. Humanity is enslaved and in chains, yet it thinks that it's free. This world just seems absurd to me, like how it's set up and how people will have to slave away for their whole lives. It feels like I'm preaching to the choir here because some people justify work and wageslavery and get mad at me for saying these things. With AI, in a utopia, no one would have to work anymore. Work is modern day slavery and that's a fact

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Neither I hate the world nor myself.

 

[Kavka]

Myself. The world simply 'is,' I'm the one who's incompatible. I know I'd sound cooler and smarter if I said that the world is wrong and I'm right but that doesn't really add up.

The fact that you're incompatible with the world (or society), doesn't necessarily mean that you're wrong. The abolitionists were in the minority and incompatible with the world they were living in, but (in hindsight) it's hard to argue that they were wrong.

I'm not trying to convince you not to hate yourself, but I think you can at least try to hate the world as well. They're not mutually exclusive, and based on your posts here, I personally think you're definitely not in the wrong.

 

[derpyderpins]

I'm not trying to convince you not to hate yourself, but I think you can at least try to hate the world as well.

kinda love this ngl

 

[ADBoy777]

I'm not hating the world but the way it's being managed and going on.

I believe it had a potential to be good and peaceful but sadly instead it's full with disgusting people, murderers, rapists, wars, racism, etc…..the list never ends

 

[thebelljarrr]

I say I hate the world. They created much much suffering pain injustice abuse etc…. I should say thank god I'm not blind to and with society I do love some nice things, but not my fault that I'm not interested and too indifferent or was the one who triggered my depression.

 

[Leiden]

I hate the world because if I wasn't in this world, if I had not been born, than I wouldn't of ever had to suffer at all. The world, to me, is a very bad place. I have an outlook about the world that I didn't have as much before bad things started to happen to me and it's been downhill since and you never know, It's the luck of the draw, the roll of the dice, it can turn sour for anyone at anytime. I only see the suffering of this world now, I can't see any good anymore in it. I wish I could go back to a time when that was different, but that's not possible now. I can remember good things about it and what it was like and how it felt, but that really devastates me because I can never feel that again. I never had a big life, but I felt it's beauty. I'm a simple soul who put emphasis on the little things, as those were most important to me. To know the beauty that this life has to offer, but to not be able to feel or experience any of it anymore is horrible. Is it better to of felt some of the good things in life and have that ripped away or to never of felt them at all...what's worse? I don't know, but honestly if you have a chance to get better, to smile, to laugh, to feel good, to enjoy anything jump at that chance with all your might because one day it could be very different. It will be different.

 

[LowLevelChimp]

Myself because I am the reason I'm this way and I have done things wrong, all my life people told me I was no good and not worth anything and after I put down the booze and drugs it seems they were right. I wish I'd listened and all of this could've been avoided.

 

[yxmux]

I hate myself because of the world. I hate the world because of myself.

 

[sensitiveguy]

Of course, I hate the world most, I genuinely never hated myself, I never consider myself wrong, and I always believed that I am the greatest person alive because I am unique. And my beliefs are superior as well as the people who have same beliefs as me.

Neither I hate the world nor myself.

You are my hero. Heart without hate.

 

[avalonisburning]

I love myself. I haven't done anything wrong.

The world I want to live in no longer exists, and likely never existed.

 

[Traveller12724]

Even though the world sucks, over the years I have met some really good people that made the world and life feel so beautiful, so no I don't really hate the world but I do hate myself and my existence

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Equally both.

 

[dolemitedrums]

I don't hate either.

 

[RemainingDubious]

i used to think i hated the world more than myself, however the older i get the more i understand how powerful perception is. The way i see the world is 100% personal to me. It's me that shapes my reality therefore it's me i should hate most.