Discussion what do you guys do when night hits and the intense feelings too?

[wobblycoatrack]

I talk to one of my friends, not about anything heavy, I just chat to them. Most of my friends don't know that I struggle with SI and I doubt I'll ever tell them, but they know about my anxiety so sometimes I'll message them late at night and we'll just chat about our days, what games we've been playing, gossip and basically anything other than really heavy topics.

I find that chatting with a friend helps remind me that they really do care about me and helps to distract me until the intense feelings die down enough that I can get some sleep. Otherwise I read or watch yt or do basically anything to try and distract myself until I'm able to talk about it with my psych.

 

[Hollowman]

kinda same here, dont feel much ever, but at night i dont exactly feel sad, but i feel so so incredibly empty like never before. is it similar for you?

It might be similar, hard to say. I've gotten used to the emptiness. My problem's been going on for over three decades to varying degrees ( still not sure what my label/diagnosis is) and don't care anymore.

 

[Lostindespair3]

Yea, nights can be horrible. When I'm in this super depressive state it's hard for me to watch and listen things, so music and tv are usually a no-go on most nights (I just feel super aggrevated/irritated by stimuli).

Sort of like @FuneralCry said, sleep is the only time I feel any semblance of peace bc it's closest to not existing , so I try to sleep when I feel tired enough. Then when I wake up, even before my eyes open, allll the despair and crushing hopelessness comes rushing back and it starts all over.

 

[deletedsnake]

The feeling itself isn't that bad, its the after that hurts.

 

[Lostindespair3]

this happens to me too, i used to be able to cry and a couple years back i stopped being able to i get the feeling

sleeping is the only thing i look forward to when i wake up, i also wish there was voluntary eternal sleep

Wait, me too! I can't cry! I'm deeply deeply sad, but I can't cry…why does this happen you think?

 

[iori011x3]

cry until i pass out

 

[thedevilwithin]

honestly, nothing. i guess music. i wouldn't say it helps but makes my mind a little more calm. i still lay here restless sinking into my bed.

 

[hermestrimegistus]

Binge drinking

 

[deathviahanging]

every night i feel horrible, and ive heard this is kinda universal, so what makes nights easier for u guys?

music, walks, sleep. my dog, reading/writing busying myself in general maybe go out on a walk or scribble on paper just dont sit alone with ur thoughts

 

[cats333]

Wait, me too! I can't cry! I'm deeply deeply sad, but I can't cry…why does this happen you think?

i couldnt tell u but its very weird to feel like you need to cry and yet u cant, hope we find an answer soon

 

[DeadHead]

Cannabis oil

 

[until death]

Every night I put on music

 

[anne neum]

Loud brown noise to drown my thoughts

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I suffer.