Do you guys think it will hurt + i’m scared

[iwashere]

lol i know i keep coming on here with a new epiphany like every other day detailing my new plans and methods but right now I think train will be the most immediate and practical option in my situation. I really really really really wish I just had a gun because I like the idea of shooting myself in the head, I feel like that sounds especially tragic. like,
"omg remember iwashere from high school? she died bro."
"whaaat, how?"
"she fucking shot herself dude"
not saying that i want my ending to be tragic but i want it to be pretty violent?? i don't even know what im trying to say but as ive stated tens and thousands of other times in other posts, im too scared to jump off a building. i just feel like with my luck i would survive and i cant be convinced otherwise. plus i just feel like it would hurt. atleast shooting yourself it ends pretty fast. this leads me to my point of contention and the reason for the title of this post—i think im gonna throw myself in front of a train!! I feel like that sounds genuinely AWFUL :D!!! at the same time though i'm SO FUCKING SCARED because HOW DO YOU DO THAT?? i'd argue that's harder than throwing yourself off a bridge. i heard that you pretty much die on impact so in that aspect i equate it to a gunshot. but i feel like it's gonna hurt so fucking bad!!! i guess i can't just choose a violent method though and expect it to be all sunshine and rainbows. I'm not interested in overdosing or using SN anymore because of all the intricacies and honestly I feel like that's not as tragic as hearing that i threw myself in front of a train. maybe im psychotic but these are just my thoughts. i guess i want my ending to be very messy because i feel like it would tell everybody like Shittt she really was off her rocker. and lowkey she kinda brave

Do u guys think it would hurt if i threw myself in front of train. this might be the dumbest question ever in the fucking world cause like obviously, but i guess im asking if you guys think ill feel it. Also having an identify crisis because as u can tell im kinda batshit but now i'm genuinely concerned because…. i might be GENUINELY batshit. i don't know hehehe x3

 

[iwashere]

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[carterprobs]

I feel like it depends on how fast the train is going. Some of the ones around where I live go pretty slow.

Faster train = more instant death
Presumably. Idk I'm an idiot

 

[iwashere]

I feel like it depends on how fast the train is going. Some of the ones around where I live go pretty slow.

Faster train = more instant death
Presumably. Idk I'm an idiot

what about like a regular cargo train. how fast do them mfs go? Anybody know?? i have an overwhelming urge to do it right now but the trains don't run on schedules and im not going to throw myself in from of an amtrak. i feel like that wouldn't kill me bc im like built different idk also i dont want to traumatize like 30 other people. also sooo embarassing cause imagine u dont even die and u just caused this big train to derail and now everybody is looking at u sprawled on the floor like Lois Griffin looking dumb asab and five phones around recording it

 

[ThroughTheLight]

Suicide by train sounds like a good way to end up on a bunch of gore sites. I'm not trying to say you shouldn't do it, but if you're uncomfortable with that, I suggest you don't.

 

[iwashere]

Suicide by train sounds like a good way to end up on a bunch of gore sites. I'm not trying to say you shouldn't do it, but if you're uncomfortable with that, I suggest you don't.

omg i didn't even think of that!!!

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Yeah it's going to hurt. Very few things cause immediate death.

 

[iwashere]

Yeah it's going to hurt. Very few things cause immediate death.

Do u promise this

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Do u promise this

Why? Do you want it to hurt, or something?

 

[fedup1982]

lol i know i keep coming on here with a new epiphany like every other day detailing my new plans and methods but right now I think train will be the most immediate and practical option in my situation. I really really really really wish I just had a gun because I like the idea of shooting myself in the head, I feel like that sounds especially tragic. like,
"omg remember iwashere from high school? she died bro."
"whaaat, how?"
"she fucking shot herself dude"
not saying that i want my ending to be tragic but i want it to be pretty violent?? i don't even know what im trying to say but as ive stated tens and thousands of other times in other posts, im too scared to jump off a building. i just feel like with my luck i would survive and i cant be convinced otherwise. plus i just feel like it would hurt. atleast shooting yourself it ends pretty fast. this leads me to my point of contention and the reason for the title of this post—i think im gonna throw myself in front of a train!! I feel like that sounds genuinely AWFUL :D!!! at the same time though i'm SO FUCKING SCARED because HOW DO YOU DO THAT?? i'd argue that's harder than throwing yourself off a bridge. i heard that you pretty much die on impact so in that aspect i equate it to a gunshot. but i feel like it's gonna hurt so fucking bad!!! i guess i can't just choose a violent method though and expect it to be all sunshine and rainbows. I'm not interested in overdosing or using SN anymore because of all the intricacies and honestly I feel like that's not as tragic as hearing that i threw myself in front of a train. maybe im psychotic but these are just my thoughts. i guess i want my ending to be very messy because i feel like it would tell everybody like Shittt she really was off her rocker. and lowkey she kinda brave

Do u guys think it would hurt if i threw myself in front of train. this might be the dumbest question ever in the fucking world cause like obviously, but i guess im asking if you guys think ill feel it. Also having an identify crisis because as u can tell im kinda batshit but now i'm genuinely concerned because…. i might be GENUINELY batshit. i don't know hehehe x3

Yeah it's possible to survive even a high speed train impact. To be killed instantly you do need some luck, and you have to hope the train hasn't been designed to prevent suicide deaths. It's a risk, it might be painful or you might get lucky. The only sure fire way to guarantee CTB is euthanasia unless you can get a shotgun and don't flinch.

It sucks. Governments do everything they can to make us fail unless you go through official routes

 

[iwashere]

Why? Do you want it to hurt, or something?

noooo!! absolutely not. i'm just in a very agitated state right now, like i'm uncomfortable to be alive so tbh i was gonna wait by a train and do it tonight but if ur saying it's gonna hurt i might just shelf this method and start saving up for a gun

Yeah it's possible to survive even a high speed train impact. To be killed instantly you do need some luck, and you have to hope the train hasn't been designed to prevent suicide deaths. It's a risk, it might be painful or you might get lucky. The only sure fire way to guarantee CTB is euthanasia unless you can get a shotgun and don't flinch.

It sucks. Governments do everything they can to make us fail unless you go through official routes

i'm like thinking about it right now and it sounds like a horror movie in my head!! i pull up to the tracks, it's dark outside. train is rolling down the tracks— showtime!! i throw myself in front of the train and just the literal noise of the train horn and seeing the tracks in front of you and just knocking out and all the noise of ur bones cracking… this shit is barbaric !!! and then waking up on the tracks and ur whole body is sore and ur leg is on the other side of the track and ur fingers are all twisted

 

[gottacheckout]

Maybe jumping in front of a train isn't the best way that the train can kill you. Just think about it, that train could just bounce you to the side and break and bunch of bones. Or maybe even your spine so you end up a head on a dead body.

Look at the wheels and track

 

[iwashere]

Maybe jumping in front of a train isn't the best way that the train can kill you. Just think about it, that train could just bounce you to the side and break and bunch of bones. Or maybe even your spine so you end up a head on a dead body.

Look at the wheels and track

omg but i could never lay down on the tracks and let the train run over me i feel like that'd be agonizing!!! Tbh these nursing homes better start calling me back from my applications so i can save like 2 checks and just shoot myself!!! this is so stupid

 

[locked*n*loaded]

noooo!! absolutely not. i'm just in a very agitated state right now, like i'm uncomfortable to be alive so tbh i was gonna wait by a train and do it tonight but if ur saying it's gonna hurt i might just shelf this method and start saving up for a gun

Well, I've just never seen an instantaneous death. I've witnessed 3 deaths by "natural" causes and death just doesn't come on like someone who switches off a light with a switch, and the light goes from on to off. The body fights to stay alive. Best case scenario is that you get knocked out instantly and have no awareness of pain. But highly doubt you instantly "die" from impact. It just doesn't happen like that. Maybe with a guillotine, but I doubt that, too (chickens still running around after head cut off, although with head separated from body, they shouldn't feel anything afterwards). You know, authorities - doctors, law enforcement, etc - like to tell families of victims that their loved ones died instantly from (whatever event), that their loved ones didn't suffer, but that's a just bunch of bullshit and blown smoke, only said to make the families feel better, at least about that part of the situation. That's my take, anyway.

I look at it like I've already experienced (physical) pain while living and gotten through it. I can probably get through some pain while dying, maybe for seconds, possibly minutes, until death finally arrives.

 

[iwashere]

Well, I've just never seen an instantaneous death. I've witnessed 3 deaths by "natural" causes and death just doesn't come on like someone who switches off a light with a switch, and the light goes from on to off. The body fights to stay alive. Best case scenario is that you get knocked out instantly and have no awareness of pain. But highly doubt you instantly "die" from impact. It just doesn't happen like that. Maybe with a guillotine, but I doubt that, too (chickens still running around after head cut off, although with head separated from body, they shouldn't feel anything afterwards). You know, authorities - doctors, law enforcement, etc - like to tell families of victims that their loved ones died instantly from (whatever event), that their loved ones didn't suffer, but that's a just bunch of bullshit and blown smoke, only said to make the families feel better, at least about that part of the situation. That's my take, anyway.

I look at it like I've already experienced (physical) pain while living and gotten through it. I can probably get through some pain while dying, maybe for seconds, possibly minutes, until death finally arrives.

Jfc, i would've imagined that if the impact didn't kill me then the train running me over after the fact would kill me like 2-3 seconds
later so this is very discouraging to hear. i think im going to practice partial once again because again im very agitated and uncomfortable atm so this literally like needs to happen one way or another just maybe wont be in the way that i hoped

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Jfc, i would've imagined that if the impact didn't kill me then the train running me over after the fact would kill me like 2-3 seconds
later so this is very discouraging to hear. i think im going to practice partial once again because again im very agitated and uncomfortable atm so this literally like needs to happen one way or another just maybe wont be in the way that i hoped

Impacts are "funny" business. No telling how you'd end up after being struck. You could end up a great distance away from the train after inititial impact.

 

[shiba]

Definitely might. You're not guaranteed to die on impact, depends on the speed of the train and maybe some luck.

 

[Zardoz]

It also affects the train driver.
It's extremely traumatic for them also. I've heard many don't work again after and suffer long term mental health problems as a result.
Not something they signed up for.
Idk about freight trains, if some don't have drivers like normal passenger trains, I really don't know.

 

[Emillss]

If you're scared, it probably means you're not ready yet. It's better to wait and put it off for now

 

[iwashere]

If you're scared, it probably means you're not ready yet. It's better to wait and put it off for now

not scared of dying, i have an intense phobia of pain lol. i always told my friends if some random guy on the street kidnapped me and wanted to kill me id allow him, id just please request you don't stab me and do something that will put me out instantly. because if i fight with them i run the risk of them punching me in the nose and that's a pain i don't ever want to imagine!! if i had a gun id do it right now just don't have the funds lolz

It also affects the train driver.
It's extremely traumatic for them also. I've heard many don't work again after and suffer long term mental health problems as a result.
Not something they signed up for.
Idk about freight trains, if some don't have drivers like normal passenger trains, I really don't know.

yes i've decided against this anywaysssss the thought of the train hitting me makes me want to yak Im sure that hurts so bad

 

[DoomedDarkCircles]

If you really choose to CTB, I think there's better options than this one.

 

[gottacheckout]

Every train I have ever seen has a crew of at least two and around where I live the crew is three people. I can't remember ever seeing a train without a conductor.

When I was in college there was a train that ran through town and campus. It was going slow and people would jump into an empty box car for a ride to the coast. Then when you are ready to go back we just waited for the train. It was all fun and games until....

One student that was working his way through school as an paramedic decided to hop the train for the weekend. He was wearing his backpack with his gear in it. Standard practice was to throw your gear on and then jump on. As he went to jump the weight of his backpack pulled him backwards and he fell onto his back. His legs ended up across the track and the train took them off above his knees. He survived but his life was very different after his accident.

Just think if the train ran over your neck or shoulders. Or even your head.

 

[iwashere]

If you really choose to CTB, I think there's better options than this one.

yes i'm aware im not considering this anymore i was just antsy and desperate at the time but i think ive calmed down and decided to either jump or wait a little long until i save $ to buy a gun

Every train I have ever seen has a crew of at least two and around where I live the crew is three people. I can't remember ever seeing a train without a conductor.

When I was in college there was a train that ran through town and campus. It was going slow and people would jump into an empty box car for a ride to the coast. Then when you are ready to go back we just waited for the train. It was all fun and games until....

One student that was working his way through school as an paramedic decided to hop the train for the weekend. He was wearing his backpack with his gear in it. Standard practice was to throw your gear on and then jump on. As he went to jump the weight of his backpack pulled him backwards and he fell onto his back. His legs ended up across the track and the train took them off above his knees. He survived but his life was very different after his accident.

Just think if the train ran over your neck or shoulders. Or even your head.

yes i think about this a lot. this seems to be pretty divided; some people say it's pretty instant and others say it's an awful way to go. regardless, im not considering it anymore

 

[bloominghopelessne]

You need to be between stations when the train reaches its maximum speed. Usually, old-model passenger trains accelerate to no more than 100 km/h. Death in such a collision would be quick, but not necessarily instantaneous. We understand that if you do not die immediately, your clouded consciousness will be very different from its normal state, and you may simply lose consciousness. However, if you think about it, what difference does it make if you are going to die anyway and will not remember what happened? When I thought about it, I imagined lying on the tracks with my throat under a train that was just gaining speed, so it would sever my head precisely and death would occur instantly. It sounds scarier because there could be people near the platform, and you would have to wait for a few seconds, watching the approaching wheels. But it seemed to me that this would guarantee an instantaneous death without a bloody scene or the need to collect body parts. I want to clarify that almost all trains, except for those transporting coal, for example (not passenger trains), have bumpers, and the head simply would not fit there. That is why I always thought specifically about the option I described above. Yes, I do have a tendency toward thoughts of a violent death, when I want something vivid, decisive, and, in a certain sense, acknowledged: to cut my own throat, to have my head severed by a train, to jump from a height, or to shoot myself. I need there to be an element of courage, drama, and symbolism in it.

 

[iwashere]

You need to be between stations when the train reaches its maximum speed. Usually, old-model passenger trains accelerate to no more than 100 km/h. Death in such a collision would be quick, but not necessarily instantaneous. We understand that if you do not die immediately, your clouded consciousness will be very different from its normal state, and you may simply lose consciousness. However, if you think about it, what difference does it make if you are going to die anyway and will not remember what happened? When I thought about it, I imagined lying on the tracks with my throat under a train that was just gaining speed, so it would sever my head precisely and death would occur instantly. It sounds scarier because there could be people near the platform, and you would have to wait for a few seconds, watching the approaching wheels. But it seemed to me that this would guarantee an instantaneous death without a bloody scene or the need to collect body parts. I want to clarify that almost all trains, except for those transporting coal, for example (not passenger trains), have bumpers, and the head simply would not fit there. That is why I always thought specifically about the option I described above. Yes, I do have a tendency toward thoughts of a violent death, when I want something vivid, decisive, and, in a certain sense, acknowledged: to cut my own throat, to have my head severed by a train, to jump from a height, or to shoot myself. I need there to be an element of courage, drama, and symbolism in it.

yessss… you understand exactly what i mean by i need something violent. unfortunately, where i live in the US, my state doesn't have passenger trains. the governor voted against a state wide train system so the only passenger train you'll find is the amtrak taking u to chicago, which doesn't do too fast. nothing like the super fast trains in other countries. when i said train i was referring to a cargo train as that is what is most commonly on the tracks in my area. you're very brave. i saw a video of a girl killing herself at the train tracks so i could get an idea of what i was getting myself into, i was expecting her to throw herself in front of the train but she didn't. she put her head on the tracks right as the train was coming and the train ran over her neck but evidently it didn't work because she sat right back up, held her head for like 3 seconds, readjusted and went back under the track where it again went over her neck, successfully killing her. was it quick? sure. but even those 10 seconds of pain is 10 seconds too much for me. this is why i need something instant that i will not feel pain for, yet violent and shocking. i have a phobia of pain which is really what is stopping me from ctb. but i agree, id either have to jump from an extremely tall height OR from the freeway overpass— i feel like that sounds guttural; insane. "Omg… did you hear iwashere killed herself?"
"yeaaaaa i saw last night on snapchat. i wonder how. do you think she overdosed?"
"dude i'm not sure if it's true but i heard she drove to the freeway overpass and jumped/threw herself in front of a fucking train/shot herself in the head"
i feel like that's a lot more shocking than hearing i poisoned myself or something like that. really drives the message of "i just needed someone in my corner" idk.

 

[bloominghopelessne]

yessss… you understand exactly what i mean by i need something violent. unfortunately, where i live in the US, my state doesn't have passenger trains. the governor voted against a state wide train system so the only passenger train you'll find is the amtrak taking u to chicago, which doesn't do too fast. nothing like the super fast trains in other countries. when i said train i was referring to a cargo train as that is what is most commonly on the tracks in my area. you're very brave. i saw a video of a girl killing herself at the train tracks so i could get an idea of what i was getting myself into, i was expecting her to throw herself in front of the train but she didn't. she put her head on the tracks right as the train was coming and the train ran over her neck but evidently it didn't work because she sat right back up, held her head for like 3 seconds, readjusted and went back under the track where it again went over her neck, successfully killing her. was it quick? sure. but even those 10 seconds of pain is 10 seconds too much for me. this is why i need something instant that i will not feel pain for, yet violent and shocking. i have a phobia of pain which is really what is stopping me from ctb. but i agree, id either have to jump from an extremely tall height OR from the freeway overpass— i feel like that sounds guttural; insane. "Omg… did you hear iwashere killed herself?"
"yeaaaaa i saw last night on snapchat. i wonder how. do you think she overdosed?"
"dude i'm not sure if it's true but i heard she drove to the freeway overpass and jumped/threw herself in front of a fucking train/shot herself in the head"
i feel like that's a lot more shocking than hearing i poisoned myself or something like that. really drives the message of "i just needed someone in my corner" idk.

I know which video you are talking about. When I was discussing with a friend how I want to lie in front of a train, I sent him this video. I really have thought and still think about stepping off the platform where there is ground and it would be easiest to lie down. I think there is no ten-second wait there. When you are on the railway tracks waiting for a train, those ten seconds are already passing, and they will keep passing until you die. I understand the horror you are talking about; I only wrote above that it is frightening to see such a massive machine coming at you, but this terrible nightmare begins long before you lie down. If you have already lain down, then very little remains of enduring such a nightmare with this life. As for the girl, I think the train either caught her hair or, more likely, a protruding part hit her on the head. She is brave. I am sure she got up because of this horrible fear, but then lay down again, overcoming the instinct of self-preservation. Very strongly. If you have freight trains, the buffers are most likely very high or absent, which in some ways makes the situation easier. You can hide behind other trains or bushes before jumping and lying in front of a train so that it would decapitate you. I truly believe that decapitation is a better option than jumping in front, even if death in the second case would be instant, and I am not taking into account that you could be mangled. I would still like to find a partner who would do something truly horrible with me, something like this, so that we could feed off each other, but finding someone equally determined and from my country seems almost impossible.