What do you feel saddest about ?

[Hirokami]

How depressing society is and that people can't be genuinely kind without wanting something from someone.

 

[TheHatedOne]

My own existence saddens me the most atm. I wonder how things would've been if I wasn't born on that cursed day in 2001 and people not having to deal with the shit waste that I am.

 

[ClownMe]

Im most sad about how pointless life is, I cant get past that.

 

[downndone]

That I had so little self-awareness that I didn't realize what kind of person I was until it was basically too late. Like most people, I have good and bad in me so I have done some good things. In the main however, I'm just a narcissistic prick that went through life not thinking about the impact my actions would have on others and ended up here.

 

[greyautumnsky]

So much in the world. I can't even begin to cover it. Child abuse. Domestic violence. Racism. The divide between men and women. The destruction of nature. The destruction of our forests, the ocean, etc. The 6th mass extinction of all species we are living through right now - plants, birds, mammals, reptiles, all bugs and insects, fungi, even bacteria... nothing has been untouched. Pollution. Global warming. Etc etc etc.

In my life personally... my husband left me. 10 years gone. Just like that. He found out I had breast cancer, and left me for another woman and abandoned our son. Took my dog, too. Left me with nothing. I walk to the food bank now. During the holidays too. It's been... difficult is putting it mildly.

I'm just... tired. He's out living it up. And I'm... sad. I loved him with my whole heart but I guess it was the tits that made me worth anything to him.

 

[tieiwi]

my relationship with my family and my childhood, sucks because these are things u cant change, makes me think my life will forever be hell

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

What do you feel very sad about ?

I am not asking in relation to CTB, just what do you feel sad about the most in your life that you have no way of changing ?

For me, it's something I should have done that I was too cowardly / un-motivated to do.

I wish I could back and change it.

When you feel completely empty, there's no room for sadness.

It's just … nothing.

 

[themanwithoutaplan]

Saddest about feeling sad all the time without a decent reason to.

 

[Illcryaboutitlater]

I couldn't have a family. I've wanted kids since i was 6 years old. I wanted my own family cause the one i was born in is horrible. I wasn't good enough for the worst person i ever met. All my friends that never wanted kids have them and im unable. People say "adopt" not realizing its kinda cheaper to just get pregnant. I would have loved to adopt or even try ivf but i can't make more than 30k a year and ive been working since i was 15. And again i must be horrible cause no one wants my kids. If i had left before maybe i would have gotten with my lady sooner but, shes wants kids with her long term partner.

 

[sleepisanescape]

I'm so far dissociated from my life nothing no memories feel real the people around don't feel real and I can't just snap out of it. I can't even sustain myself or contribute anything of value, I feel like dead weight and I still can't believe this is my life? how can this be real? it's been a constant shitty cycle of lows since I was young we can't control the circumstance we're put into. I can't imagine myself being happy even if I tried my body won't let me be happy.

 

[disillusionment]

Feeling unloved and uncared for by both parents, and the trauma that they gave me. I always grew up seeing happy families on tv and happyish families around me (at least, not too dysfunctional) and I was so jealous. Really wanted a non dysfunctional family where no one is overdoising on drugs, no parent abandoned the kids, nobody was arrested for sexually abusing their kid, etc. I wanted a family that I didn't feel embarassed about and I wanted a close relationship with at least one family member. Or at least even a friend. Not sure if what I wrote make sense bc I got drunk.

As of right now: Having a dysfunctional family. How every time I entertain the idea of recovery I really and truly reflect on my life and what I can do to change it and then realize how hopeless, hard and insurmountable it all is to the point where I give up before I even try. I've been trying to listen to motivational speakers and life coach hogwash nonsense and it's like fuck man I'm truly too far gone to fix my life.

I feel exactly like you, that's exactly my thought process and everything. Feeling like it's impossible to fix everything but still trying sometimes and then feeling worse bc I realzie it won't work. Having a dysfunctional family really sucks.

 

[Dragon's Heart]

All around me I see and feel pain and misery- not just my own and I am powerless to do anything about it. It saddens me greatly that this occurs on an incredibly massive scale. Hope doesn't seem to stand much of a chance and that helpless feeling is literally killing me.

 

[Bunyips]

Not being able to live up to my own expectations. Theres so much I easily could have and should have accomplised yet did not.

 

[Apathy's Girl]

Telling my husband he ruined Christmas and that I want a divorce. He really didn't ruin Christmas, I did by just freaking out for no reason. It's been a rough month, I've been on a downswing destructive path.

 

[lofticries]

How much time I've wasted and the fact that no matter what I do ill always be miserable. Also bpd is a real bitch when it comes to being around ppl.

 

[lonerclown666]

I could never build a PC Gaming or have a family or a girlfriend

 

[_Minsk]

That this life is so harsh and fucked up, if i knew how it would end like 10 years ago, i would have put an end to it and saved myself from this suffering..

 

[ImsooDone1N]

Lack of purpose, loneliness & many traumatic events that have reduced my existence to this horrible dysphoric state I'm in, unable to enjoy anything anymore (which is scary). I've nothing- no purpose. Feels like I'm already dead. I would never wish this loneliness on anyone. And I can't DM here so, I think I know what I have to finally do. One way or the other.

 

[Someoneone]

Made stupid decisions and made huge mistake which lead myself became no way out

 

[nopointofliving]

they will not only not to help, they also want to destroy and ruin my life

 

[LingeringUnreal]

I think I get the most upset when I think about how people take something not real, or not comparable to a very traumatic thing, and then make themselves look good by saying "look, I stopped a rapist/pedophile/racist" when the person is none of those things. As a childhood abuse survivor it's frustrating because it obfuscates actual predators and abusers. I know that's a very "online" problem but it still gets to me I guess...

Aside from that, misery in general. Lack of healthcare. Having medical problems but no way to even get them looked at without begging some Christian charity.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

My horrible K/D ratio.

 

[13_reasons]

So much in the world. I can't even begin to cover it. Child abuse. Domestic violence. Racism. The divide between men and women. The destruction of nature. The destruction of our forests, the ocean, etc. The 6th mass extinction of all species we are living through right now - plants, birds, mammals, reptiles, all bugs and insects, fungi, even bacteria... nothing has been untouched. Pollution. Global warming. Etc etc etc.

In my life personally... my husband left me. 10 years gone. Just like that. He found out I had breast cancer, and left me for another woman and abandoned our son. Took my dog, too. Left me with nothing. I walk to the food bank now. During the holidays too. It's been... difficult is putting it mildly.

I'm just... tired. He's out living it up. And I'm... sad. I loved him with my whole heart but I guess it was the tits that made me worth anything to him.

I came across this and it really struck a chord with me. I am so sorry that this happened to you, you deserve so much more than this. I really hope that you and your son are doing ok. At the very least- he showed his true colours when you needed him the most- husbands tend to be very good at excelling at that…

 

[fatefulstillness]

How much suffering I can endure and it doesn't kill me. Not only is it sad, it is also terrifying.

 

[speakeasy]

who I am as a person lol. I think morally and interpersonally I'm a good person, but in terms of what I actually offer to other human beings besides empathy and a sense of humor is literally nothing.

 

[Lost Magic]

Getting older and more jaded in life. Sometimes the more you live the more you lose. That's what has happened in my case plus a multitude of other issues.

 

[Umbrella Weather]

Loneliness... It comes down to that, for me.

The desperation and sadness, the pure hell of being in one's mind endlessly without the means for escape and knowing that it will be the same thing tomorrow... That is despair at its purest. Just being all alone in your mind all of the time without anyone else there for even the slightest balance or reorientation.

One just slips away from one's self into a realm distorted...

 

[FogFilledLife]

My laziness and lack if strength.

 

[downndone2]

I lost my marriage, most my life savings, my friends, and ruined a business. Now, I'm isolated, depressed, anxious, and lonely. Feel like my dogs are out out with me too.

 

[befree]

...about this sick world.